You said you wouldn't

Chapter 22

Justin's POV :

" Dude!Move! "

The shout of the driver behind me pulled me out of my daze. Looking forward I saw it's already been 10 seconds since the traffic light turned green and I haven't moved.

Pulling the gear and speeding up, I continued driving.
My mind was a mess.
As much as I didn't want to, I continued thinking about Sia.

It's insane what this girl has done to me.

Why was she affecting me so much?

I know I fucked up again. I have no idea what came over me when I kissed her.

But it was such a dick head move. In the process of trying to make her feel better about her cheating husband, I cheated.

Fuck.

I literally cheated on Emily .

A pang of guilt hit me right in my chest . I could physically feel how much I was affected.

My Emily is really an angel on this earth and i can't believe I did this to her.

God, I hate myself.

As I was driving through the familiar neighborhood of her society

The feeling of guilt was becoming worse.
Almost turning into anger. I was angry. On myself and maybe a little bit on Sia.

It's not normal how much she influenced my actions.

But any thought of Sia rushed out of me as soon as I saw the familiar gates of Emily's house. My heart was thumping so hard and my body was sweating in nervousness.

I really don't want to do this. I really don't.
But I have to.
For Emily.

She doesn't deserve to be kept in dark .

She has done nothing wrong.

It's all me.

I parked my car in my usual spot with difficulty as I could almost feel myself shivering.

I was about to break my 3 year old relationship with the most beautiful woman I've ever known. Both inside and outside.

Sia was pretty. Yes.

But My Emily was out of this world.

And there's never been a day when I haven't been grateful for her.

Till you decided to cheat on her.

My conscience taunted me making me feel ten times worse then I already was feeling.

Shaking my head and rubbing my face with my palm, I pulled out my phone and texted her .

To Em❤

Hey, I am outside.

I pressed sent and was about to put my phone back when my eyes flickered to out last conversation.

A text she sent me this morning , when I was driving to the hospital .

From Em❤

Justin, I am sorry okay? I really am. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that.I was being foolish and unnecessarily insecure which I shouldn't have. Call me if you get time, we will talk and I'll listen to everything you wanted to say . I still love you and always will ❤

I didn't even reply to her.

What the fuck is wrong with me ?

I was angry. Not on her but on myself.