The hardest love

Junior Year

By the time I reached Jr. year I was that girl so I thought. I got kicked out of athletics because I cussed out the couch, but was begged to still play track because I was one of the fastest. Started smoking and drinking more often and partying hard as hell. My parents often asked why do you act out so much, what's going on with you, and are you ok? I never once told them how it was on my mind heavy that I missed my brother and that was my escape goat liquor and kush. I was with my girls most of the weekends and we ended up having a little party at her moms house one weekend and this is when I met what I thought was my first love turned out to be just a bunch of lust (with later on you'll understand what I mean lol). He has the sexiest dimples, tall, brown smooth skin, big pretty brown eyes, and a smooth talker! Roderick was what I thought was going to be the guy for me for a while until I found out he was creeping with another girl from my school which was my enemy (still can't stand her til this day)! That hurt how did bring him everything he wanted with no job and being there for him turn to this? Late nights on the phone falling asleep on the phone even snuck him in the house and snuck in his only to be let down and hurt yet again. It was time to move on my cousin Tye told me that she had someone she wanted me to meet at this time spring break has just ended I just got my first car a black Chevy Cobalt her name was Shelly that was my baby! I came down to meet this tall brown skinned guy, big eyes, big lips just how I like by the name of Derrick F. I had seen him one time before but never looked as close as I did that day due to being stuck on Roderick, but this time something was different. We started hanging out a lot sneaking to Dallas on the weekends because he hasn't moved down to East Texas yet, going to his dads house when he came down, going to his grandmothers house I felt a big 360 from Roderick I felt wanted every time he told me he loved me I believed it now remember I said I was naive lol. They always say there's always haters behind you and that there was. You see previously he has talked to one of my step cousins which I didn't find out until after the fact and she was petty and salty about the shit. Once she caught wind of me and him she started making it seem as if her and him were together she couldn't stand the fact that I was walking around with his letterman's jacket on so she started drama. At that time I was not into drama so I dropped the whole situation and him together. Another year ending and another heartbreak the life of a teenager as well as finding out that I was adopted my life was falling to pieces.