We're Just Roommate's x Billie Eilish

Chapter 14

It's 2am and we finally made it back to our house after one hell of a night.

I walked into my room and changed into a oversized tshirt and booty shorts before going into Billies room and crawling into her bed.

I watched her as she changed into some pajamas. Once she got into the bed with me she turned facing me and pushed some hair behind my ear.

"Can you tell me now." I asked her.

"Yes but it's a long story and you might think differently of me after it."

"I probably won't but you can continue."

Billie turned on her back so she wasn't facing me. I stayed in my position so I could watch her as she talked. Even though the lights were off I could ever so slightly see her beautiful features.

"It started two years ago, I witnessed a murder and I wasn't supposed to see it. The leader of the gang Don  the one you met tonight, told me he was going to kill me or I could work for him. So I ended up working for him and selling drugs to people to get money, but the money never went to me it went to Don. I was with Claire as all of this was happening and it started to get way to dangerous for her to be around so I started treating her like shit so she would break up with me. The night I found her cheating on me I needed to let of some steam so I used some hard ass drugs and ended up in the hospital. The police made me tell them where I got the drugs from and I felt so defeated I told them all about the gang and everything. I ended up in jail and the gang was never caught. When I was released I found a stash of drugs I still had that were under my mattress. I went into a deep depression and I would cut myself and I tried to kill myself more then once with the drugs. I ran into Don at a party and I was really fucked up, he immediately knew it was from the drugs he gave me and now he won't leave me alone cause he thinks I still have them but the truth is I used them all and if he finds that out he will kill me."

I stayed looking at Billie in disbelief at everything she told me. I didn't know what to say.

"Could you say something please."

I didn't even realize I had been looking at Billie like an idiot for some time now.

"Shit Bil I'm really sorry about everything. I don't want to get involved with that side of things but it feels like I somehow am after meeting him tonight."

She turned her head to look at me and I couldn't read the look on her face in the dark.

"Liz I think we should end things."

"But things never even started." I defended, instantly not liking the way Billie was talking.

"He knows your involved with me and he is going to fuck with you, I don't know how but he will find a way."

I scooted closer to Billie wrapping my arms around her and laying my head on her chest.

"I'm not leaving you because of him, your stuck with me."

"Your not my girlfriend."

"I was about to be if Claire wouldn't have walked into the bathroom that moment."

I felt Billies chest move up and down as she laughed a little bit.

"Would you like to continue that conversation."

"Yes please."

"Will you be my girlfriend Liz."

"Your very confusing one second you wanna cut things off now your asking me to be your girlfriend."

"Just answer the goddamn question."

"Yes Billie I would love to."

I felt Billie kiss the top of my head and hold onto me tightly. I had a girlfriend, I don't know how to feel about it but with Billie being my girlfriend I think I already love it.

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The past few days with Billie have been amazing I haven't had work and neither has Billie so we have been spending a lot of time with each other.

Right now we are getting burritos from this Mexican place and then going to drive out side of LA and camp out under the stars.

Billie and I have been talking about doing this for a while because we think stars are so beautiful and you can't see them under LAs pollution.

We are about 5 minutes from our destination. If I didn't know Billie as well as I do I would think she is taking me here to murder me because we are in a very rural area with nothing but fields for miles.

A little longer of driving and then Billie parks the car. We hop out of the car and I grab the food well Billie grabs a blanket from the trunk. She lays it across the hood of her car and we hop on.

We get the food out of the bag and take what we want for ourselves.

We both take a second to look up at the sky and enjoy the moment.

"They are almost as beautiful as you." Billie says.

I look over at her with an amused look on my face.

"That was the most sappy thing I think you have ever said." I laughed.

"Well you be making me all soft and shit." Billie tested.

"No maybe you act all hard but in reality your just a soft little baby and I just broke into that layer of you."

Billie nods along as I talk before agreeing with me. I was surprised she agreed to that because I thought she would never.

"Tell me about yourself, I feel like I know so much but also nothing at all." Billie asked.

"Okay um I grew up in Santa Monica, I had a little sister but she sadly passed away when she was four years old. My dad and I have never gotten along because he is some rich businessman and he expected me to be perfect and I'm the farthest thing from that, and my mom she was a heavy drug addict and when my sister died she left my dad and I."

I took a deep breath because only one other person knows all that stuff about me and that's because it was Charli and she lived through it with me.

I never let people in because that just isn't who I am. During high school I was only friends with Charli because I hated the idea of people knowing things about me when I had nothing good to tell.

Billie kept looking at me as she ate her burrito.

"I'm sorry you went through all of that. How old when your mom left?"

"Sixteen."

"I'm really sorry Liz your an amazing person and your parents can suck my imaginary dick."

I laughed at Billie because she made me feel like it wasn't that big of a deal the way I grew up and that's exactly how I wanted her to feel.

It doesn't define who I am.

"Who go next." I told her.

"I have a older brother named Finneas and he is like my best friend, I haven't seen him in awhile though because he moved in with his girlfriend Claudia. When I was growing up I was really close with my parents but as I got older the more we have drifted apart. They still live in my childhood house in Highland Park."

I smiled at Billie being so happy to talk about her family unlike I was.

"Maybe one day I could met them."

I could see a stream of happiness build in Billies eyes after I said that.

"I would love that."  She said happily.

We finished our food in peace just chilling out under the stars. It felt good to just enjoy each others company.

I used to want sex like every single day but now that I'm with Billie that's sometimes the last thing on my mind, despite how good she is in bed. I just like spending time with her.

After finishing our food we laid down side by side on the hood of her car.

"I wish we could see stars in LA." Billie softly said sounding a bit tired.

"Me too." I rolled over on my side so I could hold on to Billie.

Billie slowly started running her fingers through my hair comfortably. The way I am with Billie I have never been with anybody else ever in my life.

I feel safe with her and I don't want that feeling to end.