Our bags were already in the van, it was kinda long trip so we had to get a van hindi na kaya sa sasakyan e. Finally we were able to ride the van early in the morning. I was silent for the whole trip to Boracay. I was just thinking about Leni, the kids and life. And also, i haven't had a contact with the kids after 2 months i guess? i never told them this problem yet. And im just too nervous that's why. Besides i think they would understand naman, i was just too blind. How couldn't i see that Leni was letting me go slowly? i don't even know how long she was faking her feelings for me. I just still don't understand. Am i too bobo? kase hindi na ako nakakaintindi ng maayos e.
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We finally arrived at Boracay, we arrived at the time na magsu-sunset na. Right timing.
(This picture is from Miss P, on Instagram! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻)
Ganda diba? sad because the skies were too dark, but it was still alright. Pia and my cousin went inside kase mag-unpack daw sila sa mga damit. Of course, i told Pia to leave my luggage dun sa room ko. And i also told Pia na dito muna ako sa sea-side medyo magpapagaan ng loob haha. They agreed naman. And you already know what im thinking, yea right her.
Where are you Leni? san kana? how are you doing without me na? are you good? or are you better? im missing you everyday Leni. Even if hindi kana saakin, okay lang as long as you are happy then i am happy. Pero if may time kanaman saakin, please let's talk Leni. Please. Im begging you Leonor, life is just not the same without you. I'm breaking down na, i mean i know you wouldn't even care pero please naman. Please Leni, i miss you very much. I was crying with all my heavy heart,, when someone tapped my shoulders. I thought it was my cousin or si Pia so i said "Later na please, leave me alone." and didn't mind it but when i felt the hand, it was familiar so i looked up. Yeah, it was her. "Leni..?" i clearly my eyesight, it was really her. "Risa, please listen to me muna before you.." she held my hands. "Leni..no." i let go.
"You left me for 3 years, didn't even tell me the real reason bakit moko iniwan. I can't believe you anymore. Masakit na please, i understand if you'd say sorry yeah I know pero no. Im really sorry." I cried.
"Risa, look please. Im really sorry if i left you for the past few years. I know i am wrong and i really apologies for what i did, hope you do understand what i really mean. I will always love you Risa. Hindi kita kayang iwanan and im really sorry..i love you."
"Hindi kayang iwan pero iniwan moko 3 years? that's funny Leni. You're so funny. What do you even mean? di kayang iwan..wait really? huh? that's just not the point. You didn't even tell me kung ano talaga ung rason bakit moko iniwan e. I want to know kung bakit, i want to know kung ano ba talaga yung totoo Leni."
"Okay, alright im telling you the truth. I had a hard time at that time Risa. That's why i left you. I can't really tell you the reason kase i was breaking down, and i don't want you to be worried saakin so of course i did not tell you na i was breaking down. Mahal na mahal kita Risa, i know you wouldn't trust me anymore kase palagi na akong nagaganito. I always lie, i always tell promises na hindi naman totoo. Just promise me that you will be happy na, because ako andito lang ako palagi para sayo at para saatin."
"you had relationship at that time right?"
"Risa..that's----"
"You had relationship at that time right? answer me Leni, i don't want you still lying to me."
"Yes..i had,, but i---"
"Okay. Alright that's the end of our conversation, it was very clear that you had a relationship and you left me alone for 3 fucking years. You didn't have a gut of telling me about it? ha? what is it Leni? im shitty confused about us."
"I didn't expect you to care Risa, im really sorry."
"You expected me not to care?! wow, parang sino naman ako oh! Leni. Ano ba tayo? why didn't you expect me to care about it? ano ba Leni?"
"Risa please, let's forget all about this. We'll start again. Can we?"
"No. Do you really think it's very easy for me to slide through? almost na magfo-four years Leni, you left me like i was just a piece of paper. Iniwan for 3 fucking years and bumalik para pirmahan ung papers. Leni i don't understand you, what's wrong with you?"
"Risa you don't understand..because-----"
"Because? because wala ka talagang pake saakin? you pretended that i don't care about you? wow! parang friends lang tayo noh?"
"Risa. Let me speak."
"Bakit? may point kaba? Point kase iniwan moko oh. May point ka sa pagcheat. Do you really really think that i wouldn't care a single of it? Grabe kanaman! 3 years flat, i won't care a single of it? wow!!"
"Risa, i love you okay? and im really sorry. Please can we go back?"
"No. You left me. Dun kana sa bago mo, i bet you're happier naman diba? that's all. End of our fucking conversation, congrats sa bago mo. Sana hindi mo na sya iiwan."
"You said it again Leonor."
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