Will you still love me the same way you loved me before? || Lenrisa

devise.

As you knew, we're both gonna hang out diba. I was feeling different. I, don't know really. I just took a deep breath and make it flow, i picked the white dress with flower design thingy because it looks good haha lols. I added some earrings to look more like idk. Couldn't explain how happy i was because Leni asked me out to hang out, well it was good. Anyways, it was finally time, i got out and i sat down the chair that i always used to sit down the first time i went here to boracay.

I was closing my eyes, calming sea-breez. The sea was so calm that i almost fell asleep. When i heard a lovely voice came from the left side of me, i though it was nothing so i didn't open my eyes.

"Boo!" the woman laughed.

"Ah! shit, you scared me!!"

"Ay talaga ba?" Leni teased.

"Bahala ka sa buhay mo, putangina mo"

"Grabe ung mura Risa!" Leni complained.

"Okay. Then what?" i scoffed.

"Come with me." Leni smiled.

"San ba tayo Leni?" I rolled my eyes.

"Somewhere, just trust me Ris."

Leni grabbed my wrist and walked fast. I was there being dragged and didn't know kung san-saan lang bumabanda, i remembered fainting in the middle of our walk, i don't really remember what happened next after that lol.

"Ris? are you okay?" Leni tapped my head. I nodded and signed that im okay.

"God. Good thing you are awake, should i take you home nalang or you'd stay here at my place muna?" Leni hugged me tight, of course i did hug back. She's Leni remember? nothing compares with her, like nothing? nothing. Of course i told here that i'd like to stay here for a while. I wanna talk with her about sa past relationship namin.

"It's totally fine Leni, i apologies for fainting. I shouldn't have." I chuckled awkwardly.

"No. Risa. It's okay, it's alright na buhay ka panaman eh!" Leni teased, Leni laughed, Leni is always a big tease ewan ko sa kanya. But she was cute tho, when she knows you are mad at her she would do give you things like cuddles, kisses, ect. especially your favorite stuffs. That's why i miss Leni so freaking much, she was just my everything, maybe we should try again?

I don't know about myself actually, pero when it comes to her i don't mind having her back. The only thing that is my problem, it hurts. It hurts more. Hindi na mawawala sa puso ko yun, the scars have been written in my heart already and it will never be gone. Even if we have everything? pero ginawa mo pa din yun. It doesn't matter but it'll always be a big deal for me. Hindi, miss ko lang talaga sya e.

"Ris, i have a surprise. Close your eyes first." Leni commanded. 'okayyy' i replied. Leni chuckled and she wrapped my wrist at the back with a towel and added a blindfold in my eyes, i didn't hear much but i heard paper wrapper or whatever that was. It sounds like a letter or something i don't know. "are you already done Lens?" i asked. "Wait." Leni replied, i nodded. I didn't really know if ano yung nasa kamay nya or whatever but i just heard paper crumples. 'Yes!' Leni screamed. "hoy anyare? share mo naman saakin noh." It was just silence. Leni didn't even answered me, all i can hear was just laughter, tumatawa lang talaga sya.

"Leni. Let me see na" Risa moved her head up amd down so that the blindfold could fall. But as it was finally going down, Leni's hands covered Risa's eyes.

"Not yet. Almost just wait." Leni answered.

I was left there standing, blindfolded. Finally Leni took off the towel in my wrist, then she told me.

"Count one to ten Ris."

I nodded slowly and started to count.

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'One..two..three..four..five..six..seven..eight.
.nine..ten..'Okay na?"

"Yes. Go on." Leni answered.

I was shocked. Leni gave me a letter with some little details, it was extravagant, she also gave me a bouquet of my favorite flowers. It was amazing. I was speechless with it, Leonor in the other side, i thought Risa didn't like it. I would just smile maybe she's a bit shy just like me.

'Ris?' Leni asked..'hmm?', the taller woman glazed at Leni.

"Ris? you don't like it?" Leni grievously asked me.

'no' i replied, "I LOVE IT!!" I hugged Leni.

"Om! really!!?" The shorter woman hugged me back.

"Thankyou for this..Lens. I appreciate it so much...matagal na akong nagantay na bigyan mo ako ng' ganto, chars." I giggled.

"How about, we watch sunset?" Leni offered to hold her hands.

"Sure." 

Leni smiled and i did also.

As we were enjoying the sunset, i curiously asked Leni about something.

"Lens?" the taller woman asked.

"Yes? what's wrong?"

'uhh..may tanong lang sana ako'

Leni looked at my direction and raised an eyebrow. 'yeah, sure ano yun?'

'mahal mo pa talaga ako?'

Those words i convey within nothing more, i was just so curious to ask her if was it really true. No matter what the answer is, im ready to face it.

'Whenever im with you Ris, it feels like home. Mahal pa kita Theresia. I never stopped loving you ever since we broke up.'

Leni looked me instantaneously, with a tear in her eyes.

'binabaliw mo nalang ako ris, i know you stopped loving me na, i don't get it. im leaving."

Leni stood up and wiped off the running tears in her eyes,

'i love you' i stuttered.

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Hii!! im sorry hindi talaga ako nakapag update, super busy sa school :((

but i had this week planned na e. That's why im sorry. 🫶🏻🥲