Fortuitous Message (SeongJoong)

~9~

*warning this chapter contains mentions of depression, and other behaviors it can possibly lead to, suicidal thoughts, SH, physical abuse are mentioned as well. (nothing graphic)*

(I'm sorry, this shits gonna be a kinda sad chapter)
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"You are a dumbass. That's my answer for you. You are an absolute idiot."
Yunho stated calmly, after listening to Hongjoong.

"Yeah. I'm aware."
Hongjoong was mentally face palming himself. Somehow he expected Yunho to be more useful. He normally gave good advice.
Not this time.

"I hope you're aware that Jongho and Wooyoung are literally friends, right? Jongho is literally with Yeosang and Woo right now. Or- prolly or Wooyoung. He's probably with Seonghwa because you're a dick."

Yep, this was definitely just making Hongjoong feel worse. Granted. He deserved it.

He didn't feel like expressing his feelings, so instead he chose to hurt someone else. Even when he was legitimately lying to both himself and Seonghwa.

Not only that, he raised his voice at the poor boy, and caused an argument where one wasn't needed. Not even 24 hours after he was told Seonghwa had been abused by his ex.

Hongjoong had burnt friendships to the ground over petty things a couple of times before, never seeing a need to be with that person ever again.

Somehow. Seonghwa's friendship felt more important. Somebody he wanted to keep close to him. He was heartbroken.  And he couldn't imagine how Seonghwa had to be feeling.

He was right. Hongjoong did lead him on, technically. Not even purposely. Because he was indeed extremely attracted to the other. He just didn't want to admit it just yet.

But now. He had the control he wanted. It just wasn't exactly how he wanted it to go. He planned to talk about it on his own terms, not someone else's, he silently prayed Seonghwa didn't remember last night. He wanted it to be forgotten.

And what he really wanted to do was go back in time and handle the situation like he should've. Confessed then and there. Niether of them would be in the situation they were in.

Yunho was entirely right he was an idiot. And a dick.

But knowing that wasn't gonna help. It wasn't going to fix the situation.

But he feared speaking to Seonghwa again. He never wanted to face him, yet still so desperate to be with him. As a friend or a lover. He didn't care.

And now he's ruined his chance. And he's not sure he'll get another.

He definitely won't if Wooyoung has anything to do with it.

But he couldn't blame him. He was Seonghwa's best friend. And if the roll of Hongjoong and Wooyoung were reversed. Hongjoong would be the same.

"Are you staying here tonight?"
Yunho asked.

"Where else would I be going?"
Hongjoong returned.

"Fucking home. Go fix what you destroyed. This one isn't on me. You don't get to stay here because you fucked yourself and now you're scared of your own damn crush."
Yunho sound surprisingly annoyed. Something extremely unusual for him. He had every right to be though. So, Hongjoong couldn't complain.