Miserable (JinKook)

5

Jeon Jung kook

I came to my house thinking about Jin. When my father saw me, he asked me if I had seen him. I told him everything that had happened and he understood that it was Jin who was in his mind. Then my dad said to me sternly "jungkook i understand what you are thinking but what you think will not happen so don't think about him in your mind you want this marriage to happen its not only for you but for our family your marriage is very important so you should marry that hoseok, then if you don't like him, divorce him. But until then, don't go after that jin or talk about anything, I think you understand what I'm saying. Our family honor is very important".

My father angrily spoke to me and wanted to walk away from me, but I stopped him by holding his hand and thinking to tell him clearly how much I love Jin, "I will do this marriage but soon I will divorce him, after that I will marry Jin. I will do anything for him even if I have to lose this family honor for him. I want jin and his baby, I have decided that they are my family. Please understand clearly that I want only jin, I am doing this marriage for you. But Jin and his baby are my family".

Hearing what I said, my father looked at me and asked, "What are you thinking of doing to his husband? They are both happy and have a child. Are you thinking that if you do something to his husband, he will come with you? Don't do anything stupid like that in their life. Unless he likes you, don't think of making him your family anyway. Listen to me, if he liked you, he would have talked to you today, he wouldn't have sent you home like this."

I got very angry hearing what my father said and I told him that jin is mine "He may not like me now but he will like me soon. I will do everything to make him like me and it will all be easy for me and that too his husband is not here, I can do anything. Don't you come in my life unnecessarily. He is my husband, No one can stop it, not even you, why even his husband can't stop it."

My father closed his eyes after listening to me and he controlled his anger and told me "If you want him, do whatever you want, I can't stop it. But think well about his husband, then he has a son. Think well about that baby and decide, because he is not your child. Today you will accept that child out of desire for jin, but after few years you may not like that child for any reason. Similarly you may not like jin too, so make your decision clear. Nothing is going to end in your life. You're going to live a long time, so if he's the one you want, decide to be ready for anything."

In my mind, my father was right, but when I saw him, it seemed that such a decision was wrong. I thought I would think about it for a while and said to my dad "Okay dad, I will think about him and decide and tell you tomorrow but I want jin". I told my dad and walked fast to my room smiling.

I can't sleep and all I can think about is the jin and his baby. I thought about our future and everything felt right to me, I will never hate that baby that came from the jin's womb. It occurred to me that I love Jin and will love him for the rest of my life and that will never change. He who weeps for his husband must be good. So I decided clearly that jin and his baby are now mine, they are my family and no one can stop and destroy it.

Next day morning

I happily said to my dad in the morning "I have decided dad, jin and his baby is my life, you should not talk to me again against it". After hearing what I said, my dad smiled and answered me "Okay Jungkook, if he is your life then I'm happy. I'm waiting for him to come to our house. Then jungkook, today you go buy your engagement ring with that hoseok. Hoseok already went to the store with his parents, and you too go and join with them and select your engagement ring".

"No dad, after what you told me, I feel like I want to see someone important, so tell them to select my engagement ring" I said happily to my dad and wanted to leave my house quickly.  My father asked me where are you going. I told him I was going to see my family and left my house for Jin's house.

I came to jin's house and pressed the calling bell of their house. Ten seconds after I pressed he opened the door and looked at me in shock.

He asked me angrily "Why did you come here, aren't you going to select your engagement ring?". The next second he asked me, I pecked his lips but immediately he pushed me away.  Then I smiled at him and said "why should I go there when my family is here".

He understood what I said and immediately went to close the door angrily, but I stopped him from closing the door. At that time his baby saw me and came running saying 'Daddy'. Hearing that, jin quickly tried to close the door, but I immediately pushed the door with my strength so that jin fell down.

I first ran away and lifted his baby, then went to his side and extended my hand in front of him, but he did not take my hand and get up.  He slowly got up and told me to go out.