Miserable (JinKook)

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Kim seok jin

"You leave here right now and go to your house, you will do that only for me"I said quietly to jungkook and took my baby from his hand and went to my house. All I could think about was him early and when he went out with Hoseok, I felt a little uneasy. I don't understand why, maybe because he was concerned to me or something, it was hurt for me when they went together.

I fed my baby and put him to sleep. I heard a message sound on my phone and I knew who it was. He is the one who made me suffer so much in my life, because of him my life is like this today, I am very confused now. I immediately looked at the message on my phone and it was Tae sending me a good night message. When I saw that I got very angry, how could only he send me such a message. Not only did he cheat on me but he also got that guy pregnant.

I sat on my bed sadly thinking about him.  Then I thought to know about jungkook, their family is very rich family. Then I wanted to know how they chose hoseok in his family. So I searched about him on Google and only then did I know Jungkook's true form. I understood why he said it was okay to marry my brother and why he spoke to me like that.

That made me very angry and I realized that all the words he spoke to me were to deceive me, as if all he wanted was my body. I think I also believed a little bit of what he was saying, what he said gave me some happiness in my current situation, but when I found out that there was something like this behind it, I cried a lot. Everyone who tells me they love me is just deceiving me. I am the one who trusts them completely and deceived by them.

I wondered how my father would have said yes to this marriage. I thought about it carefully and then I realized that it was only because of me that my father would have said yes to this marriage. It was for me that my father had taken a loan from him four years ago, and because I could not repay it, I understood little by little that now my father would be saying yes to this marriage. I should have paid that debt, it was a big mistake for me not to do that. Hoseok's life has become like this because of me. I have to pay off this debt somehow and then save hoseok from this marriage.

My business is going well, but I don't have as much money as I bought from him, just a little money. I wondered if there was any other way, and as far as I know there isn't. I cried a lot, everyone is suffering today because of the decision I made that day, so I was lying on my bed with my eyes open because I couldn't sleep.

The next day morning, my dad told me that we are going to buy an engagement ring for hoseok and you come with us. When he asked me, my first thought was that jungkook would come, so I thought I shouldn't go with them, so I told my dad "I'm not coming with you dad, you all go away. Me and beomgyu are at home, we didn't sleep well last night, so we need some rest."

My father, mother, hoseok all told me to take rest and left. After some time they left, we heard the calling bell of our house. I went and opened the door wondering who would have come at this time. When I opened the door and saw who had come I was shocked and asked him, why did you come here and are you not going to buy your engagement ring?.

The next second I asked him, he pecked on my lips and I immediately pushed him away and then he smiled at me and said "why should I go there when my family is here". When I realized that he said we were his family, I quickly tried to close the door but he was holding the door. At that time my baby saw him and came running saying 'Daddy', seeing that I tried to close it more fast but he pushed the door with full force so I fell down.

Then he first ran away and picked up my baby, then he came to my side and extended his hand in front of me. But without seeking his help I slowly got up myself and told him to go out.

But he didn't go out and stood arrogantly in front of me. I tried to take my baby from him but he didn't give. I again angrily told him "Get out of my house immediately, you and my brother are going to get engaged so you also go with him and select and buy your engagement ring. Don't call me and my baby your family anymore. I can't be your family. It is not only today but it will never happen in our lifetime. I know you better now, please leave my house without creating any problem here."

"seokjin, I don't understand what you're saying. What do you know about me, whatever you say, speak clearly to me," he spoke to me without showing any anger.

I told him about what I thought he was like "I googled everything about you and found out why you agreed to marry my younger brother. I knew why you were talking to me with concern. You need my body...". Before I could finish what I thought about him in my mind, he gave me a hard slap on the cheek.

I thought I might hit him back in anger, but he looked at me aggressively and said, "If I wanted your body, I would have picked you up the day I kissed you, gone to my bedroom, fucked you all over, and dumped you. But I beat you that day and you cried in front of me,when I saw that I was very sad in my heart. You will never know how happy I was when your baby called me daddy. I have never gone and talked to anyone like this, So far, all the people I have fucked have come to me as themselves. I never asked anyone to come and fuck with me. When I saw you, I didn't want to fuck you, I just wanted to marry you, and then I started thinking of you as half of me. I thought I was going to marry you, But when I found out that it was not like that, I couldn't bear it and my heart hurt so much. It was because of that anger that I asked you everything about your husband, but when I saw you crying, it hurt my heart. This is the first time seokjin, you don't understand what I'm talking about, you definitely don't understand anything about me."

He angrily told me and handed my baby in my hand and left our house. When I heard what he said, a question arose in my mind that I had made him suffer, I immediately went to lock the door, went to my room and packed all my things. Then I wrote a letter to my father in a paper saying, I have an important job to attend to so I am leaving here dad, I will definitely come for hoseok's wedding day and left from there.

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