My boys, their girl | BDSM, POLYAMORY | |COMPLETED|

I Need You.

My eyelids.. so heavy. Need to get up.. yet so comfy. Never want to move. Never ever! Everything is fine..

Until the arms begin to move from around me! I shake my head and snuggle closer to the body behind me. The arms wrap back around. "So you are up! Good morning, dear." Ray! He's still with me! Good! Perfect. I was afraid he'd leave if I fell asleep. "Have a good rest?" It was nice. I don't want to move. I turn around in his arms. My face facing his chest. I hoist my arms around his neck and pull myself up. It's warm in his arms. One of my new favorite places.

"You comfortable?" I nod and he laughs. I'm not funny. Why is he laughing? "We have to get up soon. The stupid men didn't put everything away." I shake my head. "Yes, we have to. Your phone is in one of the bags." Shrug. Ray sighs. "I'll carry you around if you can hold on tight enough. I need both hands to get stuff. There's a lot."
Shake. "Lazy day, huh?" Nod. "I can't stay in bed all day. Do you wanna stay here?" Alone?! No way! That's such a.. stupid thought! "That's a no. I'll give you ten minutes." My throat makes a noise that I'm too tired to recognize.. but it comes out anyways. "No pouts. I don't want to hear it, missy."
"Sound like.. dad."
"Daddy is not my preferred title."'
I pull his hair and shock him. Okay.. the shock wasn't on purpose.
"What? It's true."
"Shut.."
"Hm.. wonder what you prefer.."
"Charlotte.."
"Now we both know that isn't true."

I hum. "Vince.. sir."
Ray nods. "Yeah, I could see him liking that. Levi also likes sir."
"Ew.." my face forms into one I don't even know.
He laughs. "He ain't bad once you get to know him."
What a lie. I've only had.. one good experience with him. Plus, he's taking all of my Vince time! Vince is always too tired or too sore to do anything!! If I want something I have to get it from this guy! I want Vince's dick.. not Ray's dick.

Ray pets me. "Let's get you up and dressed, yeah?" I shake my head and hold onto his neck. "If you get up now I'll let you eat a brownie for breakfast."
".. no funny stuff..?"
"Nope. You can eat just a brownie. No eggs, no toast, no actual food. Just the brownie."
"Kiss..?"
"I can give you a kiss, yeah."

I give a short nod and we sit up. My hands rub at my eyes until I see stars. Ray gets up. Where is he going? Is he leaving me? Why? What did I do? Was it because I said Levi is ew? I don't understand. I want him. Touch. His touch. Need it. Ray looks back at me. This is when he leaves. They always do that. The last look. The last.. here comes the waterworks. No.. no no no.

So pathetic.
Do you really need the touch of a stranger?
That stranger just wants your body.
Useless.
Disgusting.
No one could love you. You're unloveable.
Just the truth.
You make people sick.
It's hard for them to even make contact with you.
Vince does it with Levi because you're unsatisfying.
He deserves better than a good-for-nothing bitch.

Make them stop.. make them stop. Make them stop. Make them stop! Please.. I can't take it anymore!

If you were worth it we wouldn't be here.
You killed your only family.
You're only good for murder.
Led them straight to the only ones who will EVER love you.
This is why Vince wants another sub.
Disgrace.

I gasp for air. My vision clearing, shoulder hurting. Ray pushes me back. Tears stream down his face. What? Why the tears?

"Charlotte!" Ray raises his voice causing me to flinch. "You scared me so fucking much!" I can't move my shoulder. Why's my mind hazy..? I feel light. My head.. ugh. Ray cuffs my face. "Snap out of it Charlotte!" My eyes.. they won't focus. I can't see him.