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Getting Answers

I peak into Charlotte's room then look at my phone.
4:50
The day is short. She's still asleep. I thought she got better. I mean.. she seemed fine when Levi sent her off to shower. But now.. she's sleeping through the whole day. Sleeping with the six blankets and I think Levi's sweatshirt since he's the tallest out of all of us.

"Babe.. relax. She got sick again after her shower. It's likely that all of that throwing up and shit took her energy. She'll be fine. Charlotte's a champ." Levi wraps his arms around my waist and rests his head on my shoulder. "Stop worrying so much. We can go bother Vince, how about that?"

I place my hands over his and lean back into him. "I can't stop worrying. She hasn't ate anything but cookies in a day. I.. I want her to be healthy and.. and.."

Levi kisses my neck. "And healthy she'll be. Let her regain her energy. You've been pacing for an hour. Nothing bad will happen to her. I promise."

"I want to believe you... but I can't." I whisper. My hand comes up and plays with the loop to my collar. "My mind.. won't let me rest."

"Want me to bring her into our bedroom?"

"No, if she wakes up I don't want her thinking we did something to her."

Levi puts his hand over mine and takes my finger out of the loop. "Have you walked in her room?" I don't respond. "Walk in. Maybe she'll show you something. I assure you she's fine. She was stressed yesterday. You've got to give her time to recoup."

"She's had time.."

"She really hasn't, Ray. I'm almost positive we've knocked her brain off track. We have to give her a mental break. Hopefully a week is long enough."

I look to the side and kiss him. ".. I want her." He nuzzles my jawline before kissing my cheek.
    "I know. We all do. Why don't you come back into our room? We can cuddle?"
".. don't wanna.."
    "I'm not allowing you to worry yourself this much. Would you like to watch a movie and cuddle or talk and cuddle? Vince and I just finished putting new equipment together if you'd like to see that. Both for the missions and in the den."
"No.."
   "Ray, work with me here, please. She'll wake up eventually."

What if she doesn't? Or what if she wakes up and throws up more? I can't do this. Things were not supposed to go this way. I expected her to hate us. I didn't expect her to get sick and have all those.. whatever. I didn't think she needed pain. Why? Why does this have to happen? The more I learn about her the more I get stressed.

I want to help her. I want to be there for her. I can't replace Vince or become better than he is, but I still want to be there for her. I wanna be someone she relies on. However, I can't if this is how it'll be. I.. I don't understand everything and there's so much to learn.

I—

Levi kisses me then bites my lip. He sighs. "Come on, Ray. We'll watch a movie and then you'll tell me everything that's on your mind. I don't care if you don't want to. I have to make sure you're okay."
     "No you don't."
"Yes, I do. Both as your boyfriend and your dom. Your mental health is important, Ray. Now walk with me or else I'm picking you up."
     "Just.. go away."
"Nope!"

Levi's arms leave me, so I tilt my head to look at him. "What are you—"
     "Brace yourself, my love."
"—doing. Levi..?"
He puts his hand on the back of my legs and his other at my waist. "Wait don't pick me up!"
     "Are you going to walk?"
"No."
     "And.. up you go!"
I'm flipped and end up in Levi's arms. I put a hand over my face and peek at him. "I hate you.."
     "Aww. I love you too."

I look to the side. "What.. about her..?"
"What did I tell you? She'll be ay-ok."
     "What if she gets.. sick.. and one of us is not there?"
"Ray."
     "... I'll stop.."