Stand Up And Fight

Chapter 9 - But the shire, the shire is burning, so Mordor it is.

"So... Jeff dropped my van off last night and you're all unpacked," Eddie said with a smile, "Ready to see our new place?"
"So ready, baby," Y/N replied as she climbed into the cab next to Eddie. "Is it close to your old apartment? Is it even an apartment? Or is it a town home or condo?" Y/N asked excitedly.
"Apartment," Eddie replied. "Similar to my old building but this one is closer to Jeff's house," he told her as they got on the elevator.
"You know what this means don't you?" Y//N asked as they climbed onto the elevator and the doors closed. "That each room will need to be christened properly," she told him as she moved closer. "In due time of course," she added, shyly.
"I insist... you are evil." Eddie said with a smile. "I think I'm going to need a cold shower."
"I'll give you that and about the cold shower...only if I can watch," Y/N winked as the elevator opened onto the ninth floor and she followed Eddie off. Eddie shook his head.
"Sorry. Dark shower curtains," he said as they walked to find his van.
"Spoils sport!" Y/N teased as they hunted for Eddie's van. Eddie climbed behind the wheel, taking the keys from his pocket. "Daddy's home," he patted the dashboard with a dorky grin on his face. "I'm free!" Y/N yelled into the air, laughing at the look on Eddie's face.
"Free you are," Eddie confirmed as he put on his sunglasses and leaned back in the seat. "So can I put my feet on the dashboard or is it that like an offense or something?" Y/N asked.
"You can put your precious toesys wherever your little heart desires," Eddie told her as steered out of the parking garage. "I'm going to be driving as if i should be going to Jeffs" Eddie mentioned as he checked for traffic before pulling onto the street.
Y/N made herself comfortable and smiled.
"Yeah, but when i reach the street before his block, I'm turning right instead of left," he carried on as he took out a cigarette.
"Pass me one of those," Y/N asked, thinking nicotine sounded heavenly. "It's kind of exciting, you know? Going to live somewhere, you did not pick out on yourself. I cannot believe you guys moved all my stuff in too. Talk about being treated like a queen!" She smiled.
"Here you go," Eddie said giving Y/N the cigarette that had been on his lips as he took another one for himself. "Well... it's no palace considering our current budget, but we, mostly me, didn't want you back there."
"It's probably the most considerate, thoughtful thing anyone has ever done for me," Y/N told him as she exhaled the smoke, looking over at Eddie. "I don't know how I could have made it with out you," she told him as he took her hand and kissed her knuckles gently.
"I'm just glad I could be there for you." Eddie replied with a smile. "I'm glad you were able to let me in and trust me."
"Me too," Y/N told him truthfully. Eddie took the exit for Jeff's place and followed the instructions that he had told Y/N. "Wow, this is so much nicer than your old place," Y/N mentioned as Eddie pulled into the security gate. Y/N took note of the extra security measures around the perimeter of the building and swelled with gratitude. "This looks amazing, baby," she told him as Eddie put in the code for entrance to the grounds.
"Well, a budget for two can be stretched a little more for something nicer," Eddie said sweetly as he indicated where he was going to park.
Y/N nodded, taking in the grounds, seeing a pool and tennis court near the back of the property. Eddie pulled into the numbered slot he indicated to.
"Covered parking?" She asked, excitedly as he pulled the van in and switched off the engine. She followed and helped Eddie with both thier arms full of boxes from the back of his van. She watched Eddie use a key card to enter the building. "Tight security too," she added.
"Yeah well, we might not be able to afford food anymore but no one is breaking into our apartment again," Eddie said as he led the way. "Not even Garrett to interrupt our cuddling."
Y/N smirked at that idea as Eddie ushered her into the elevator. Y/N noted that Eddie had secretly used his cell to send a text. She wondered what that was about.
"I love you...and I don't care if we ever eat again," she grinned, following Eddie off the elevator on the third floor.
"Eat again?" Eddie asked as he walked down the hallway to apartment 303. "What's loving me got to do with not eating?"
"You said we couldn't afford to eat anymore because of the price of this place," Y/N told him as she watched Eddie use his key to open the door.
"So I did," Eddie said with a smile. "Just sounded weird when you said that right after you said you loved me," he gave Y/N a smile when the door opened. "Go for it."
Y/N walked into the apartment after Eddie unlocked the door and set the boxes down. It was perfect, she thought as she looked down the entryway.
"Wow, baby," she hissed as she moved further into the apartment. Upon entering the living area, she was startled as Garrett, Jeff, Dustin and Steve sprang from the kitchen area screaming "Surprise!" at the top of their lungs. Y/N held her hand over her racing heart as she laughed.
"Jesus! You guys scared me half to death!" She replied, looking back at Eddie over her shoulder with a raised eyebrow. "'No Garrett to interrupt our cuddling' eh? And I thought we were alone at last," Y/N teased, only loud enough for Eddie to hear.
"Yeah... well I also said I needed a cold shower." Eddie teased back as he dropped everything he was carrying in the living room and collapsed on the couch.
Y/N took in all her things perfectly placed in their new apartment, they obviously needed to bring everything else from home but at this moment she could not have been more happy. They had taken care of everything and she couldn't even begin to thank them for it.
"You guys rock," she told them, hugging each one of them before joining Eddie on the couch. "And you...." she told Eddie as she prepared to tickle him. "Quiet as a fucking mouse!" She yelled, diving in with her fingers on each side of the metalhead's waist.
"I'm sneaky like that." Eddie said amused as he grabbed Y/N's wrists. "Tell me I didn't blow your fucking mind today, I dare you."
Wrestling with Eddie until they were both almost breathless from laughing.
"You blow my mind everyday," Y/N whispered near his ear while the others talked animatedly around them.
"Y/N..." Eddie said trying to sound like he was giving a warning, but his grin giving him away. "You're hot and you're on top of me."
"God, don't call me that," Y/N hissed, repositioning her hips but not meaning to press her hot core against Eddie. "That's what's fucking hot," she growled. "Your voice drives me crazy, dude," she added.
"Baby, you're torturing me here," Eddie told her. "When the hell did you have time to get this horny anyway?"
Y/N moved off him with an evil grin.
"You do that to me," she said softly, glad the guys were not paying attention to them. "You realized it’s been like almost six days," she whispered. She reached out pulling Eddie off the couch. "Show me the rest of our place," she instructed, wrapping her arms around Eddie's waist after kissing his jawline.
"Yeah, six days that have been fucking hard for both of us, Y/N." Eddie replied softly. Right now, he felt insecure again and he did not think Y/N was doing this for her. She was doing this because she did not want to think about Scott anymore. Eddie reluctantly got up and led Y/N to see the rest of the place.
Eddie led her around the apartment, showing him the kitchen, the bathroom and both bedrooms. Y/N froze in the doorway of the bedroom, staring at their bed. Suddenly, she was transported into Eddie's old room at the other apartment. She swallowed dryly as she looked at the queen bed in the middle of the master bedroom.
Although it was a brand new bed with new sheets and comforter, she could not help but to remember what had happened. The flashback of Scott shoving her onto the bed lasted only seconds but it was enough to take her breath away. She felt her head spinning dizzily as she heard Garrett and Steve's voices echoing from the living room as they fought on the playstation. Laughter ringing through the apartment. Reaching out, Y/N gripped the doorway as her body trembled. No, she told herself, stay in the present...stay in the fucking present.
Eddie could see it clearly and should have expected it, for as soon as Y/N saw the bed, he could see her begin to lose her composure. He reached for both of Y/N's hands and took them in his to help her maintain her balance.
"Y/N, baby... its okay," he said softly trying to keep the young woman upright, and trying to get her to look at him, and moving slowly in front of her. "Y/N, sweetheart, look at me."
Y/N could feel the color draining from her face as her mouth dried out. She fought the urge to pass out as black spots appeared in her peripheral vision. She tried to focus on Eddie's voice. In the present...in the present...she repeated to herself as she looked into Eddie's eyes as he requested. His voice sounded far away and echoed in the back of her mind.
Eddie slowly pulled Y/N closer as he continued talking to her.
"Okay, Y/N. Now we're not at my old apartment, this is not the same room and it is not the same bed. You're here with me and the guys, see Dustin and Steve are fighting over a controller."
Y/N looked over her shoulder, her head swimming as she took in Steve and Dustin fighting over the game controls.
"Eds...I-I don't know. What's h-happening to me?" She whispered as she met his eyes again, tears welling unexpectedly and falling down her cheeks.
"You had a flashback, baby," Eddie explained. By now, Garrett had come over to see what was going on. "Look, baby, Garrett's here. We were joking about him walking in on us, remember? He interrupted us cuddling once," Eddie said trying to get Y/N to breathe normally again.
"Eww," Garrett said.
Y/N tried to smile as she remembered that moment. She could remember it and vividly too.
"N-no...he didn't interrupt us cuddling," Y/N said slowly returning to the present. "He interrupted us fucking the shit out of each other," she stated, looking at Garrett.
"Ewwww!" Garrett said louder this time. Eddie laughed happy that Y/N seemed to be relaxing.
"Garrett you're going to hate me for this..." he said before he turned back to Y/N, "And the time you were sick he came in when we were kissing and I was fucking hard."
Garrett shuddered, "Oh fuck."
Y/N laughed weakly as she clung to Eddie's shoulders.
"Now you have something to 'eww' about, Garrett," she told him. "Maybe you will think twice about just showing up whenever you want now," she told him, watching Garrett blushing and looking disgustedly at the couple.
"No, I think it was worse when I was pounding into you," Eddie said.
"Oh fuck!" Garrett said covering his ears and walking away, muttering something about perverts and never coming back here.
"Are you back with me, baby?"
"Mmmm, 'you pounding into me'," she whispered, "yeah...I think I'm sufficiently back in the present," Y/N looked toward the living room, seeing the guys back at the game, playing together. "I'm sorry, Eddie. I know I'm not ready...I just want to be so badly," she confessed, looking at the singer longingly.
"I know, baby," Eddie said soothingly as he took Y/N in his arms for a firm hug. "You'll be before you know it. Don't worry ok?" he asked sweetly.
Y/N was thoughtful for a moment as she gazed at Eddie. She hoped the singer could wait for her. The flashback she had just experienced left her body in a cold sweat and shaking like a leaf. It may be much longer than she anticipated before she was back to her old self.
"You'll wait for me? To be ready, I mean," she asked, almost not wanting to hear the answer. "I understand if you can't..." she began but trailed off, her eyes downcast. Eddie put his finger under Y/N's chin and gave her a smile.
"Of course I'll wait for you, baby," he said sweetly. "I don't think you understand just how much I love you, I don't care how long I have to wait for you, I won't even think twice about it." he said trying to sound incredibly convincing. "And even when you are ready, we're going to do this your way, I won't pressure you or ask anything from you, Y/N. This about making you feel comfortable."
"God, how do you always know exactly what to say?" Y/N asked, genuinely. "You're just perfection, is that it?" She asked softly.
Eddie laughed. "No, baby, I'm anything but perfect," he said as he stroke Y/N's cheek softly. "I just love you. I was even ready to sleep on the couch if you wanted to kick me off the bed."
"I'd only kick you off the bed," she whispered softly, "if you were better on the floor." Y/N laughed at her own sorry attempt at humor.
"I thought I was better in the shower." Eddie said with a raised eyebrow and a toothy grin.
"You're better everywhere!" She teased back as she walked into the bedroom and fell face first onto the bed.
"Good answer," Eddie told her grinning even wider. He sat next to Y/N on the bed, stroking her hair. "Want me to make you something to eat? Or just stay here with you?"
"Mmmm, stay here," she mused, moving to lay in Eddie's lap, purring as he stroked her hair. "Hey, is this a new bed?" She asked thinking it felt much softer than Eddie's old bed. She buried her face in Eddie's belly, inhaling deeply, loving and being comforted by his masculine scent.
"Yeah," Eddie confirmed. "Garrett picked the frame but I chose the mattress." Eddie explained, moving his hands over Y/N's hair lovingly.
"It's so soft," she continued to purr as Eddie massaged her scalp. "God that feels good, baby," she told him, looking up into his eyes. "You're wonderful, did you know that?" She asked.
"Yeah, but it feels so much better to hear you say it." Eddie replied, kissing Y/N's forehead.
"Knock, knock..." Garrett called from outside the bedroom door. "I don't want to interrupt or see anything in there but, we're taking off," he said.
"Are you sure?" Eddie asked, surprising himself of how he didn't mind Garrett coming in and finding them, just a few days ago he would have blushed if he had found them like this, but now it was just natural, he thought as he continued to stroke Y/N's hair. "I was going to order pizza and all."
"Well, I don’t want Y/N overwhelmed and everything. She probably needs to get some rest," Garrett started as he approached the bed. "I'm okay, Gar, stay...we can all have something to eat, cause skinny here..." she poked at Eddie's ribs. "Needs to eat something, I swear he's lost ten pounds this week," Y/N replied, smiling.
"I have not!" Eddie said in mock shock. However, Y/N had a point; he was using the last hole of his belts now. "I'll have you know that it's all from the exercise of moving our stuff here."
"Doubtful," Y/N hissed as she snuggled closer in Eddie's lap.
"No guys, really, I think we'll just take off. Maybe tomorrow we can do a movie and dinner or something, huh?" Garrett asked. "Oh, when are you leaving for Hawkins, Eds?" Y/N snapped her head up at Eddie.
"Hawkins? You're leaving?"
"I have to go clear the trailer there, and clear up a couple things," Eddie explained to Y/N. "But yeah, we can do that tomorrow, I don't think I'll be going until the weekend," he told Garrett.
Y/N tried to relax about the idea of Eddie leaving but she couldn't shake the nagging feeling she was going to have be on her own.
"Cool," Garrett said as he leaned down to ruffle Y/N's hair as she lay in Eddie's lap. "You get some rest, buddy, cause next week, it's balls to the wall for the label," he teased. Y/N tried to smile as she looked at Garrett. The thought of having to go back to work seemed daunting with all they had been through.
"I know they have been breathing down our necks, Gar. What with me flying out the cuckoo’s nest and all," she told him, feeling her cheeks heat with embarrassment about leaving Garrett to deal with the label alone.
"Whatever, Y/N. Everything’s gonna be a-okay, see ya," he called as he winked at them and headed out the room.
Eddie could feel Y/N's uneasiness without even having to look at her.
"Bye, Gar. Bye guys," he called out as he heard some talking and footsteps and then the door closing. "Baby? I was going to tell you about Hawkins. Well I was actually going to ask you to go with me so we could do a detour to Phoenix so that we can get your stuff as well, but its okay if you don't want to."
Y/N looked up at him. How was it that he could read her mind so well? However, was he asking her to go because he thought she could not be alone or just so he could keep an eye on her. Y/N did not want to be a burden more than anything in the world and Eddie was probably in much need of a break from her craziness.
"Oh, its okay, Eds. I can just stay here. I know you have loose ends to tie up out there and I would just get in the way," she told him, trying to sound brave.
Eddie let out a sigh. "Y/N you can stay here if that's what you want, but I'm not asking you just because I have to. I want to spend time with you. After all we've only been to dinner together once," he said with a smile. "I told you I wanted to get to know you and I do, even if it is during a silly road-trip."
Y/N fought a grin. He really did want her to go and it wasn't about needing to keep an eye on her. "I want to spend time with you too," she whispered softly, still holding on to the singer's waist. "I've never been to Hawkins before," she added as she turned shy eyes up to him.
"Well I'll be your tour guide." Eddie told her with a smile, finding the young woman pretty much adorable, he refused to call her cute; Y/N almost needed her own new word.
"When do we leave?" She asked, looking forward to getting out of LA. Far away for the memories, at least for the moment. Excitement about going away with Eddie flowed through her veins as she sat up, pushing Eddie down onto the bed and climbing half on top of him, close to his face.
Eddie was glad Y/N laid on his uninjured shoulder, a couple of times both of them had forgotten about it and it had been quite painful. He put his arm around Y/N and looked at her. "Well we probably should work all this week in the studio to do some catching up, so I'm thinking probably Saturday."
"But, Garrett said we didn't have to go back until next week, shouldn't we go sooner?" She asked, trying not to sound whiney but she wanted to get out of there, no she needed to get out of here.
"We could," Eddie said nodding. "I just thought you'd want to get some rest and get settled in before going, but really doesn't make much difference to me."
"No, it's what Wednesday today? We could leave by Friday if that works for you. What will we do, fly out there and drive back?" Y/N asked as she stroked Eddie's hair, loving the silky curls under her fingers. "Maybe we could detour and see the Grand Canyon; I've always wanted to see that. Can you believe I've lived in Phoenix my whole life and never been out there to see that?" She asked with the energy of a child.
"Friday sounds good," Eddie said nodding. "And yeah I was thinking that, because there's not much of a point driving there in my van if we're bringing back a heck of a load of stuff and bring your car back. Because I'm pretty sure you don't want to be separated right now," he said kissing Y/N's forehead. "And we can take any detour you want, baby."
Y/N settled next to Eddie, lying on her back but close to him. She entwined their hands, looking at the contrasting colors of their skin. Eddie had the sweetest hands, narrow callous fingers, bony knuckles and just a hint of roughness to his palm. "Yeah, being separated would suck. I think we could get cheap one way flights on Southwest. I'll look into that later tonight," she told him.
She looked over at Eddie to see the singer yawning tiredly. "I think I'm gonna take a bath, I still feel like I smell like a hospital disinfectant," she told him. "You take a nap if you want," she replied, kissing his neck. "I can't get over how good it feels to finally be alone with you," she added as she trailed a few more kisses down his neck. His skin just tasted so sweet.
Eddie yawned again. "Okay, baby. Enjoy your bath," he said holding Y/N just a bit tighter as he felt her soft lips on his neck. "But I think I'm going to make you something to eat before that nap."
"Only if you eat something with me," she countered, getting off the bed and stripping down to her underwear and socks. "I'm gonna run the bath while you make us some lunch," she told him as she padded softly into the large bathroom nestled between the two rooms.
"And you said I'm skinny, dude!" Eddie protested as Y/N walked away. He got up and headed for the kitchen to see what he could make with the groceries Garrett had brought the day before.
Y/N smiled to herself when Eddie shouted about being skinny. She sat down on the side of the tub and began to run the bathwater.
"Skinny and fucking hot!" Y/N yelled so Eddie could hear, half-laughing.
Once she found the right temperature and added some soap for bubbles, she went in search of Eddie in the kitchen. The apartment was exactly what she would have chosen, a large living area, galley kitchen and fairly good-sized bedrooms. She peered out the sliding glass doors onto the small balcony that overlooked the busy street below. Garrett had put a couple of patio chairs and a table out there. The ashtray, she was sure was compliments of her lover sat between the chairs on the table.
"This place is really great, Eds," she mused as she wandered into the kitchen to see Eddie making grilled cheese. "Did Garrett tell you I'm crazy for grilled cheese?" She asked, teasingly as she snagged a piece of cheese that Eddie was slicing thin for sandwiches.
"Nope," Eddie replied with a smile as he continued working. "I just had a craving," he said giving Y/N a kiss on the lips. "And I'm glad you like the place." he said as he walked over to the fridge and grabbed a coke for himself and one for Y/N. "Garrett and I saw like a hundred places, some crappy, some great... Garrett's really picky by the way," he mentioned, "But yeah we settled on this at the end when he convinced me to stop looking for 2 apartments."
Y/N wrapped her arms around Eddie's middle as she sneakily reached for another slice of cheese.
"Yeah, Garrett's a pain in the ass about most stuff," she agreed, leaning around stealing yet another hunk of cheese.
"Okay, stop stealing the cheese!" Eddie said laughing. "I feel like I've sliced a hundred pieces by now."
Y/N placed a noisy kiss on Eddie's neck as she swallowed the last of the stolen dairy.
"Can't help it, I'm cheesy...what can I say?" She laughed as pressed her body against Eddie hugging him tightly.
Eddie shook his head as he laughed again.
"And kissing me and hugging me is supposed to convince me to let you keep eating the cheese right?"
"Um...well, now that you mention it," she stole one last piece and shrieked, running from Eddie out of the kitchen to check on the bath water.
"See! I knew that kiss was just to get something!" Eddie called after her as he concentrated back on the food, shaking his head but a grin still on his face.
Y/N laughed as she turned the water off and undressed. She slid into the warm bubbles, sighing at the lavender scented bath. She eased her shoulders down under the hot water, before submerging her head and face under the water. It felt so good, she could feel her muscles relaxing almost immediately. Reappearing from under the water, she began to bathe as the comforting smell of grilling cheese filled the apartment.
She could so get used to this. She had forgotten what it was like to have someone, a companion around. The playful banter and coy touching filled her heart with joy. She didn't think she and Eddie could have been more perfect together. It was hard to focus on that with all that had happened, but it appeared that they would be able to beat it.
The flashback earlier had been intense but she was happy that with Eddie's help they were able to get through it. Y/N just needed more confidence in dealing with issues like that. After scrubbing her head and rinsing the shampoo, she opened the drain and began to get out. Wrapping a towel around herself, she walked toward the sink. She looked closely at her face. She could see that there was still a slight haunted look about her.
"Everything ok?" Eddie asked as he walked past with the tray of food.
"Yeah, just trying to get used to how things are now," Y/N answered "I miss the old me"
Eddie looked at her worrying about the way things are "Maybe we can slowly work things out bit by bit" he replied as Y/N pulled him in slightly after he had put the tray down.
"Maybe it's more like this," Y/N asked as she pulled Eddie even closer and kissed his mouth, lingering for a minute, unable to resist. Y/N had meant to just kiss him softly and move away, but the taste of him was completely irresistible. Moaning against Eddie's lips, she whispered she was sorry before she moved to deepen the kiss.
"I just need one," she added, her tongue darting over Eddie's full bottom lip, as he pulling against her labret gently.
Eddie moaned against Y/N's lips, glad he'd put the tray down, but not sure when he had done it. Soon it did not matter as his hands found their way to Y/N's neck, while he moaned again, parting his lips to give Y/N access into his mouth.
Y/N inhaled quickly through her nose as she felt Eddie's hands move into her hair and his mouth open under her subtle urging. She tentatively stroked Eddie's tongue with hers, encouraging him to participate. Y/N's entire body went rigid, knowing that there was only a small towel between their bodies and Eddie would be able to feel the heat coming from her core. Hissing, Y/N fused their mouths roughly again, kissing him deeper, sucking his tongue into her mouth. The heat of the kiss was almost more than she could handle.
There was a small annoying voice in the back of Eddie's mind that kept telling him to take things a bit slower, to take a step back and breathe but when Y/N did that with her tongue... he couldn't really listen to reason. He could only listen to the the young woman's moans, knowing that even if he wanted to break the kiss, he would not be able to.
Y/N fisted her hands in Eddie's shirt, knowing she was nearing the edge of throwing the singer into the bedroom and fucking him senseless. She felt the irritating nag of knowing they needed to wait but her belly was burning too hot to listen to it at that particular moment. She knew it was only seconds more of Eddie kissing her before she lost all control.
"Shit," she broke away, breathless. "I'm sorry," she whispered as she pressed her forehead to Eddie's chest, shivering as she inhaled his sweet breath fanning her face. "I know we said we'd wait, I know we need to wait," she replied brokenly. "But, Eds, I-I'm so...fucking hot for you," she confessed as she swallowed dryly, biting her bottom lip.
"Don't..." Eddie tried to say but he was completely breathless. "It's okay. I got carried away too," he said, now very aware of how tight his pants were.
Y/N growled as she suddenly felt how hard Eddie was against her bare stomach.
"God, you're so hard," she hissed, closing her eyes as her hips bucked toward him naturally, almost without her consent. "Fuck," she moaned, the heat of her own arousal rolling through her belly. "Yeah..." she panted, "we just got carried away." She moaned again, feeling the magnetism between their lips.
Eddie bit his lip but put his hand on Y/N's shoulder.
"I can't, Y/N," he said softly. "You're not ready... we're not ready."
"I know," she replied, opening her eyes to meet Eddie's, not wanting to break the contact of their bodies pressed tightly together. "I-I'm gonna g-go...jump off the balcony now..." she rasped, smirking. "I mean...get dressed," she added, trying to joke.
Eddie tried to smile. "I don't want to rush you just because I'm hard, baby," he said knowing he should move but suddenly not able to. "And you wouldn't hurt yourself much falling from the third floor... and there's nice big flower bed below the balcony."
"Yeah, well, maybe a good crack on the head would help me get my mind off my o-other problem if you know what I mean," she joked as she pushed off Eddie's body finally, groaning from the loss of contact. "It is a damn shame we can't put these...uh...issues to good use," she smiled, gesturing to Eddie's tented jeans, before leaving Eddie to go into the bedroom and change.
"You know... I should be a good boy and take a cold shower..." Eddie said to himself as he rested both his arms in the sink, "But I can't I'm sorry." he closed the door from the bathroom, leaving it only slightly open as he opened his pants and put his hands inside his boxers, moaning at the touch.
Y/N looked over her shoulder as she ransacked her drawers for a pair of clean underwear, seeing the bathroom door close part way. She raised an eyebrow in that direction, stopping her search for underwear. When she heard a whimpering moan, her belly lurched so hard, she had to grab onto the dresser for support. He wouldn't, she thought quietly, still frozen in front of her chest of drawers.
Eddie bit his lip as he thumbed the head of his own cock. God, Eds, get in the fucking shower, he thought. But he couldn't. For the last few days, he had taken so many cold showers he had lost count and fuck everything if his body was not dying for release. He'd been trying to keep thoughts like that off his mind, but it was…hard …er... difficult, when you woke up with a very cuddly Y/N pressed against you. He closed the door and leaned against it, biting his lip to keep himself from moaning again.
Y/N was stopped in her tracks as she had begun to move toward the bathroom when the door closed all the way. Losing the towel in her pursuit, she placed both hands on the door and pressed her ear next to it.
"Eds?" She whispered through the door, knowing she could hear him because she felt the door moving as Eddie was leaning against it. "I want you so much," she told him softly, her own hand moving down over her belly, stopping on her lower abdomen.
"Oh fuck," Eddie breathed out as he heard Y/N and he had reached for the lotion. He could barely breathe, much less think. "Fuck, Y/N." he panted as his hand started moving slowly on his cock, his mind filled with images of Y/N, the first day they met, in the van, on the bed, in the shower... "Ohhh..." he asked feeling his breathing and his pulse racing as his hand moved pretty much on his own.
Y/N bit her lip hard when she heard Eddie cursing with a groan. "Baby..." she cried as her hand slide between her slightly wet folds. She thought about going for some lube, but she was too impatient to wait. She started playing with herself and slowly plunging a finger or two into herself, coaxing more into her hand as she began to finger herself harder.
"Fuck," she hissed as her hand began moving on herself, her eyes rolling shut as she pressed her face against the door. "Eds...I can almost feel your mouth on me...it's so wet and hot...fuck, I know how you love to lick me out," she moaned, her hips moving forward with each inward plunge of her hand. "Oh god," she groaned as she pictured Eddie on his knees in front of her, licking, sucking and fingering the life out of her. "I can taste you...I can taste your sweet skin on my lips...my tongue all over your dick…fuck I want to be there..." she began stroking harder, perspiration breaking out on her skin.
"Fuck!" Eddie said loudly as he heard Y/N's voice. His hand was now moving faster as his hips moved on their own as well. He did love licking Y/N out. God, he could almost taste her right now. "Oh god, Y/N..." he panted, "Shit, I want to have you on me again," he said biting his lip again, feeling now that he wasn't going to last. God, he should be thinking that this might not be good for Y/N, he should be controlling himself and not getting carried away like this. What the fuck did Y/N do to him? "Y/N... oh god..."
Y/N panted against the door, visions of sucking Eddie's dick flooding her brain. It was too late to stop now. She was so far gone already. She needed the release; she was desperate for it.
"Baby...I can't take it...god...I can feel your fingers inside me. Fuck...its so hot...god I wanna fuck you so bad," Y/N fingered herself faster, in the throws of passion. "Tell me what it feels like...oh god...I'm so fucking hot," she cried.
"Oh god..." Eddie panted, he almost felt dizzy. "Oh god, Y/N... it feels so fucking good." he moaned, feeling so close to edge. He let out a whimper, thinking of nothing but Y/N.
"Oh god, I know it does..." Y/N mused, her head spinning as she pictured the singer jerking off faster. "Fuck that's hot...it's tight isn't it? I bet it's so fucking tight, I want to fuck you so hard," she growled almost animalistic as she jerked herself even faster. She could feel the fingers of her orgasm spreading through her belly as she pressed her forehead against the door, her mouth open and panting heavily, her eyes shut in ecstasy. "Tell me you want that, tell me how much you want me to fuck you," she hissed as she heard Eddie mewing and the sound of him jerking off resonating in her ears.
Eddie was moaning louder, not even aware of his own touch, but of the pleasure ripping through him.
"Oh god, Y/N... I want to be inside of you... I want to feel you, so wet for me," he panted. I'm so close, I'm so close, he thought. He touched himself just the right way and that was it. "Oh fuck, Y/N..." he cried as he came all over his hand.
"Yeah...yeah..." Y/N chanted, hearing Eddie's pitch heightening, as she got closer to her orgasm. "Fuck yeah...." she rasped as she heard Eddie's breathing change as he came. "I'm cumming too, baby...god I'm so hot for you," she squeaked as she burst over her hand, thick hot jets of cum oozing between her fingers. "Eds...fuck..." she moaned as she coaxed the rest of her orgasm between her fingers.
Eddie heard Y/N come outside the door and couldn't take it any longer. He came out of the bathroom and licked Y/N's fingers before he kissed his girlfriend's face all over. "Oh fuck... I'm sorry, I should have waited, but I-I..." he tried to say as he placed kisses everywhere he could reach.
Y/N tried to catch her breath as the bathroom door opened and Eddie hurtled himself into her arms. Panting still, she watched Eddie lick the sticky, warm essence from her fingers.
"Baby..." She cried weakly as Eddie urged them towards the bed, kissing every inch of her face. "No...don't apologize..." She rasped as she collapsed onto the bed, pulling Eddie on top of her. "I participated as much as you did," she told him. "We needed it," she whispered as she nuzzled Eddie's neck, kissing his skin still salty with sweat from his exertion. "We must have needed it," she added, wrapping her arms around him, holding tightly. "And fuck was it ever hot," she moaned, running her hands down Eddie's naked scarred and inked body.
"It was," Eddie agreed, "But I should have controlled myself. I should have been able to wait."
"It's ok, I know... we both should have been able to," she told him. "We'll make a pact right now...to wait until we are both ready, ok?" She leaned next to him, kissing his cheek, then his chin before landing softly on his lips.
Eddie nodded and responded to the kiss.
"you are one hot piece of ass," he replied.
"Damn, Munson, I love it when you talk dirty," Y/N growled, biting Eddie lightly on the neck.
Eddie laughed. "Baby, you haven't heard me talk dirty yet."
"Don't you dare start teasing!" Y/N said, giggling as she rolled the pair and straddled his hips, sitting up. As she did so, she realized what an incredibly provocative position she had placed them in. Eddie's nakedness pressing blatantly against Y/N's bottom while Y/N was more than sure her nudity was exposed on Eddie's lower abdomen.
"You put us like this in the bed and I'm teasing?" Eddie asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Maybe we should set some ground rules?" Y/N asked, but not moving from her comfortable and sexual place with Eddie between her legs.
"That sounds fair," Eddie said nodding but making no effort to move either. "Like what? No hanging around naked in the apartment?"
"For starters," Y/N agreed, "but what constitutes nakedness? Naked naked or partially naked? Like is general underwear ok? Cause, if general underwears okay then you can't wear the boxers with Sponge Bob," she told him pointedly.
"I think general underwears ok," Eddie said. "And what's wrong with Sponge Bob?" he wanted to know.
"Cause those fit your ass entirely too well," she told him, "They make it look like a perfect little cupcake, just begging to have a bite taken out of. You were wearing those that night you got sick and I about lost my mind," she added.
"Okay," Eddie said with a huge grin. "No Sponge Bob." he said almost like a promise. "And I won't jerk off in the bathroom unless I can cover it with the sounds of the shower."
"Definitely no jerking off," Y/N told him with warning eyes. "And none of those longing puppy dog eyes either," she said, leaning down so her body was flush with Eddie's again, hip to hip, knee to knee, torso to torso. "They turn me into an absolute mess," she whispered.
"Yes, miss," Eddie said nodding. "Well we should make it clear how far we go making out... and touching," he said, "Because I'm pretty sure I won't resist you for long if I have you like this."
"You mean, lying naked like this isn't allowed?" Y/N smirked, unable to resisted kissing his nose.
"Oh totally," Eddie said sarcastically. "Come on, Y/N. This is going to be very tough on me as it is, because you are so fucking hot."
"Ok…ok..." Y/N told him as she rolled off the singer and curled on her side, propping her head on her hand. "You act like it's gonna be a cakewalk for me, like I'm not so into you it's ridiculous," she added on a more serious note.
"I didn't say that," Eddie replied. "But you seem to be handling a lot better than I am," he said truthfully. "Listen, why don’t you get dressed and I'll take a quick shower and then I'll take you out for a movie. We can sort out the rules later."
"Well, you are wrong about that," Y/N told him. "I'm having just as much trouble as you," she continued as she watched the metalhead sit up on the bed. "And would you mind terribly if we just watched movies here? I'm really not in the mood to be in a crowd," she confessed, knowing she sounded lame; sure that Eddie wanted to get out.
"Actually, that sounds even better," Eddie said. "In the main desk they have a collection of movies that you can borrow for a day. I'll get a couple of those after I shower and we can order some food later, ok?" he asked kissing Y/N's forehead.
"Yeah...I guess stone cold grilled cheese doesn't sound too appetizing," she agreed as she pulled on a clean set of underwear. "You shower and I'll go down for the movies. I wanna check this place out a little," she told him as she shrugged into a clean t-shirt and basketball shorts. "I think the fresh air will be good for me," she replied, grabbing her wallet and keys.
Eddie nodded and gave Y/N a kiss on the lips before he explained where the main office was. He could tell that Y/N had been a little ticked off with him, but truth be told, there was nothing he could do, he just wanted to protect her. The doctor had told him to wait a while because situations like that could trigger flashbacks for Y/N.
"I'll see you in a bit, then," he said with his head hanging a little low.
"Yeah," Y/N replied, "see ya." She headed down the hallway after slipping her socked feet into a pair of black and white striped Addias soccer slides. Y/N let herself out the front door, easing it shut behind her. She knew deep down, taking things slow was the best way to go, but her body was not going along for the ride. She was so fucking attracted to Eddie, more attracted than she had ever been in her life to someone.
Swallowing dryly, she climbed onto the elevator, hitting the ground button. Things had just gotten so outta hand before the whole Scott fiasco. They had dove into bed less than twenty-four hours after meeting which Y/N knew was not the healthiest way to begin a relationship but it had been inevitable. Y/N didn't regret it for even a second, but now after everything that had gone down, all she wanted was to feel normal, human again.
The doctor had told her to be wary of sexual experiences for fear of flashbacks and she had promised herself she would heed those warnings. She just felt so safe and amazing in Eddie's arms, it was hard not to act on those emotions. She made her way to the front desk following Eddie's instructions. She decided to bypass the front desk and look around first. Wandering around the grounds, she saw the pool and spa area, the tennis courts, the indoor basketball and racquetball courts, every amenity know to man. Garrett and Eddie had outdone themselves. How in the hell they could afford this was beyond her, but she knew Garrett would never have gone for it if it had not been affordable.
The apartment was small but quite spacious for two. She guessed Eddie would take the second bedroom once they got her stuff from AZ. She was absolutely in love with idea of them living together, in a place that was new and without old memories. She looked forward to making new memories there...a fresh start. It was exactly what she needed. Walking back through the lobby, she picked from the movie selection and headed back upstairs. She made a pact with herself that she would truly slow things down. She wanted Eddie and she wanted him long term. No matter what the consequence. She would jerk off in the shower or when they were apart to help get them there. It wouldn't be easy but good things never were.
Eddie was sitting in the balcony with a cigarette in his hand. He'd come out here after his shower, needing to think. He'd put on a pair of worn jeans and a random t-shirt and was trying to wipe away the tears from his face. He should have known how hard this was going to be. Garrett had told him that if things didn't work out, he'd be able to stay at his place and he would stay with Y/N for a while. Maybe he was right to be scared, maybe he just wasn't what Y/N needed right now. He had lost control so easily today. Maybe he needed to give Y/N some space. Maybe this was too soon. He heard the keys outside the door and quickly wiped away his tears with his shirt and stabbed out his cigarette. He took a deep breath and met Y/N in the living room.
"So... what do you think of the place?"
Y/N let herself into the apartment, dropping her keys and wallet on the entryway table after locking the door behind her. She could hear Eddie close the sliding glass door and pad his way over. She looked up, seeing the lanky singer leaning against the hallway. He was so beautiful, his face, his skin, his eyes, his mouth, utterly breath taking. Y/N sighed, feeling her heart squeeze with love for him.
Just wearing jeans, his old hellfire t-shirt and barefoot, he could not have looked better. Y/N swallowed against her dry throat and moved toward him.
"It's great, Eds," she replied. As she got closer, it was obvious Eddie had been crying. He always got this ruddy color flushed across his high cheekbones and his lashes looked wet when he had been crying. Y/N noticed everything about him, every little freckle, the way his eyes creased and his left cheek dimpled when he laughed. Everything. Tears blurred Y/N's vision as she moved closer still.
"I love you," she told him, chills moving down her arms. "I love you with everything I have," she repeated. "I hope it's not too soon, cause god knows we have moved fast but you have my whole heart," she whispered. "I have never wanted to be with anyone more," she continued. "I'll do whatever it takes...and I mean -whatever- it takes," she finished, tears now pouring down her face.
Eddie's tears had come back, "I love you too, Y/N," he told her. "And I want to be with you too, but... I need you to promise me that you will tell me if I'm not doing this right, because I'm so scared that I'm not enough to take care of you."
Y/N curled her fingers in the hem of Eddie's hellfire T-shirt, pulling him closer.
"I promise...although you are enough...you are everything I could ever possibly need or want," she whispered. "We just have to take care of each other, you know?" She reassured. "There's no right or wrong way to love each other as long as we do," she told him softly, thumbing his tears from his beautiful eyes. "And god...I love you, Eddie. I love you so much," she confessed, pressing her forehead to his.
"Ok," Eddie replied softly. "I love you too, baby. So much." he said stroking her cheeks with his thumbs. "I just don't want to be the one that pushes you away. This is so hard. I don't want to push you, but I want to support you, I want to help you."
"You do," Y/N insisted. "You do help and support me. I could have never made it without you. Without you, Scott might as well have killed me that night. Because, I truly and honestly would not have been able to survive something like that," she told him, closing her eyes as Eddie stroked her face with his fingertips, his breath ghosting over her lips and neck. "Push me away? What are you talking about?" She asked, looking into Eddie's eyes.
"I just know that me trying to care of you will get annoying," Eddie said shyly. "I know I'll probably drive you a little bit crazy and you'll want to tell me to fuck off. I know I'm your boyfriend and not your babysitter but..." he trailed off.
"I-love- the way you take care of me," Y/N persisted. "No one has ever taken care of me the way you have and do," she continued. Y/N smiled at him through her tears. "Look at Dustin or Garrett or anyone! Do you think they even want to take care of me? They fight about who has to whenever I get sick!" Eddie said, exasperatedly but with a smile on his face. "I'm not the easiest person to care for though, I tend to be quite demanding," he pushed the tears off his face with back of his hand.
Y/N smiled. "I know. But I also know you're going to think that I'm doing this just because I say so, but I'm not." She said, "Like today. You think I just don't want to have sex with you but I do... I just... I know you want to protect me from having another flashback," she said crying more freely now. "I know that, baby; and I know you want to protect me. But, if I'm going to have a flashback, there is not anything you can do to stop it. You are not the reason I am having them. I know what the doctor said about avoiding sexual experiences for a while and I agree we need to slow things down a bit. However, what you don't realize is how much I comfort I get from being in your arms, being kissed by you, loved by you," Y/N reasoned. "It's the only place I feel safe, the only place I feel almost normal again," she continued as she cupped Eddie's cheeks as he cried.
Eddie nodded. "Ok. I just... I want you to be fine again. We'll just go slowly, ok? Take things one day at a time. And when the time comes where we feel we're ready then we'll handle it," he reassured again.
"Just don't be afraid that your touching me is going to hurt me because you not touching me would be worse," Y/N insisted. "I know you are starving baby, you haven't eaten all day. I don't think I could take it if you got any thinner. I'm starting to feel self conscious about my love handles," she teased. "How about we order in some Chinese food and lay up in bed cuddling?" She asked.
"Okay, baby. I promise," Eddie said before he laughed softly. "Yeah, my belts only fit in the last hole anymore," he admitted. "That sounds pretty much like heaven."
"See? I told you that you had been losing weight," Y/N said as she went for the phone book to call the local Chinese place. "What do you want to eat?" She asked as located the number and began dialing.
"Yeah, I have," Eddie told her. "My shrink was worried and all but... yeah," he said shaking his head dismissively. "You order whatever you want, baby. I'm not really picky about my food."
Y/N paused while dialing. "What did the shrink say?" She asked as she looked at Eddie in all seriousness.
Eddie got obviously nervous. "Nothing much... just that... it looked like I had lost of weight really fast and he wondered if I was taking proper care of myself."
Y/N heard the restaurant answer the phone and held up one finger, "hold that thought." Y/N walked toward the kitchen, asking and ordering several of her favorite dishes for them to share. She looked at Eddie who had walked out onto the balcony for another cigarette. She finished the phone call and walked toward the sliding down, leaning against it.
"Which you weren’t," she added. "Which is going to change," Y/N told him as she joined him on the patio, taking the cigarette from his lips and inhaling deeply.
"It wasn't that," Eddie defended himself. "It's just stress," he said shaking his head. His shrink had given him quite a hard time with everything and he didn't think he could take something like that from Y/N.
"Either way, we need to put some meat on your bones," Y/N grinned, passing the cigarette back after another drag. "Do you jog?" She asked, nonchalantly as she collapsed into a patio chair, propping her feet on the railing.
"Yeah," Eddie said nodding as he took back the cigarette. "Why?"
"Well, it looks like they have a hellava set up here. Maybe we should take advantage of it, start really working out, jogging, and trying to get in shape. It might help, especially if we go on tour after the summer," Y/N told him, watching the smoke spiral from his lips, thinking he looked insanely sexy doing that. ‘God, Y/L/N, get a hold of yourself.’ "Anyway," she rolled her head, trying to shake the images filling her head of Eddie. "It might be a good idea, help put some weight on you, healthy weight. And get rid of my love handles," she added, squeezing her side.
"You do not have love handles, baby," Eddie told her with a smile. "You are absolutely perfect," he told her sincerely.
Y/N took the cigarette back for one last drag as she smirked at Eddie. "Ok...just a fat ass then," she joked.
"A sexy ass," Eddie countered. "A hot, amazing ass is more like it. Trust me, I've seen it. A lot."
"You've done more than just see it," Y/N taunted, eyes sparkling mischievously as she handed the cigarette back to Eddie.
"True" Eddie agreed with a grin. "But I've been spending a particularly long time checking out your ass."
"Have you now?" Y/N continued as she watched Eddie take the last drag before stubbing the cigarette out. "You know, I think you are right, if I remember correctly, I caught you staring at it the very first day we met...at the restaurant and I called you on it," she said smugly.
Eddie smiled but blushed. "Yeah, I remember. So there you go... you are aware that I -really- like your ass."
"Believe me, after that time in the shower, I will -never- forget just how much you like my ass," she grinned. "Okay, all this ass talk needs to be incorporated into our ground rules," she told him with a wink. "Cause I'm getting worked up over here," she added as she stood and walked inside.
Eddie laughed and followed Y/N inside, sitting comfortably. "I agree," he said nodding. "No ass talk, then. Unless we're telling each other to get our asses out of bed or the shower," he said grinning. "Much less talk about my dick."
Y/N groaned at that comment. "Noooo, no dick talk either," she laughed, running a hand through her hair. The phone rang startling them both as things had gotten quiet after Y/N's rebuttal. "Yeah?" Y/N answered the phone. "Oh," she said surprised at the voice on the other end. "Sure, he...uh...he can come in," she answered then hung up the phone. She looked at Eddie. "Damn tight security," she replied, "I'm starting to feel like a rock star, dude," she grinned. "That was the front desk checking to see if we had ordered take out," she informed him as she went for the money in her wallet.
Eddie smiled. "Well that was sort of the point, wasn't it? I wasn't going to find us a place where anyone can get pass the doorman with a few bucks," he said. "And no need for a spare key either. They'll give you a copy at the front desk if you show some ID."
"Sweet," Y/N replied as she walked toward the front door after hearing a knock. "Yeah...rock star...that's what I'm talking about," she singsonged, pumping a fist in the air and wiggling her ass playfully.
"Keep wiggling it and I'll spank it," Eddie said getting up and putting all the bags on Y/N's arms so she couldn't pay, and paid himself, smiling at the delivery guy before he locked the door behind him.
"No ass smacking either," she hissed tauntingly as Eddie filled her arms with the Chinese food. "Hey! I was gonna pay!" She griped as Eddie paid for the food and closed the door, locking it.
"I know you were, but I beat you to it," Eddie said with a smug smile as he took some of the bags Y/N was carrying, and put them on the counter so he could go to the fridge and get a can of coke for each. "Bedroom… then?" he asked with a signature smile.
"Munson," Y/N warned as she began unloading the cartons of food. "That word and that smile...also off limits," she told him, trying to act serious even though a full grin was trying to take over her face.
"Hey, you were the one that wanted Chinese food in bed," Eddie defended himself. "I'm just checking if that's still the plan. You never told me which movies you got by the way. We can put those while we eat."
Y/N filled her arms with Chinese food cartons and began walking away from him only looking back over her shoulder to tease him some more. "Porn," she said matter of factly, disappearing down the hall, leaving a shocked Eddie standing in the kitchen.

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A/N: Phew! Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I know it's only 1 this time around BUT that's purely due to having a hard week at work! Hopefully there will be more than 1 by the end of next week! Love you all!