𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐈𝐋 | Draco Malfoy

52 | this wouldn't be for evermore

The world turns cold when I shut my eyes. I am no longer able to see the present, so I sink deep into the dream world that is always shaped into hell for me. There are demons here— hauntings from my past that continue to torment me when I am at my weakest. Drunk and asleep.

The voices. They make my ears ring painfully and they're everywhere. Circling around me. "Shh... no need to be scared.." I hear while I can feel fingertips grazing the insides of my thighs. I open my mouth and try to speak but I can't even hear a thing. Stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop it.

I picture my body in my mind and try to find a part of me that he didn't touch. It feels like my skin is stained with the evil that his hands left on me. A kiss is placed on my lips and I'm able to gasp in horror. The first sound manages to escape my mouth and that's all I can be relieved about.

My body's twitching from the sobs I can't seem to let out. "Fuck— I love you.." He groans and I want to scream how much I hate him in return. I can feel layers of clothes leaving my body but I can't figure out which hands are responsible. Mine because I'm trying to survive, or his, because he's trying to break my soul into pieces and call it love.

"N-No.." The first word and sob actually leaves my mouth, and then my eyes snap open. "Shh, shh, just relax.." He whispers and this time I'm able to see his face. "Leo— stop.. let me go.." More words leave my mouth and my body is shaking like it's freezing in the room. He doesn't listen to me.

My eyes snap open again but this time I am fully awake. I see a different face. The face of an angel. I'm sobbing uncontrollably, wrapping my arms around his neck. I could still feel the evil pressed into my skin and I needed his love to remove it. "I'm here.. you're safe, darling.." His voice is like medicine.

Draco took a blanket and wrapped it entirely around me, gently stroking his hands over my back, whispering sweet things to me. I'm crying into his neck like a torn child, gasping for breath and clutching onto his shirt like my life depends on it. "He's gone, sweetheart. He won't ever be able to hurt you ever again.." Draco whispered.

I've heard those words a million times— but now that they're finally true I'm able to appreciate them. I'm able to sigh in relief and smile through my sobs, realizing that Leo is indeed dead. "Draco..?" I said through my cries, sniffing softly. "Yes, love?" He answered, making me want to cry more because I had never been this grateful to have someone.

"I'm so h-happy you're here.." I sobbed, holding him even tighter, feeling him smile into my neck. "So am I, sweetheart.." He said, pulling me closer, even if it was barely possible. His hands left nothing but traces of love, and I was so happy to just know that that's all they'll ever do.

I was now laughing through my sobs like an idiot. It was stupid, really. I'd just suffered from a nightmare, yet here I was— smiling because I was so relieved that my misery was over. "Are you laughing?" Draco asked softly, grabbing onto both of my cheeks, taking my face out of his neck.

We met eyes and I sniffed, nodding while laughing more. "Why..?" He asked, tilting his head a little. I could see that his eyes were also watering. "Because I'm just so relieved that it wasn't you.." I whispered, while he wiped my tears away with his thumbs. "I was so confused because I knew you would never do anything to hurt me— but then.."

"I wish I could take it all away from you. Every bad memory, every single time you got hurt. I'd give away my soul if that meant that you'd be happy.." Draco whispered, gently taking some hairs away from my face. "Draco, we would've never met if nothing bad happened to me in the first place." I said. My hands stopped shaking.