Wishing for Daylight (Poetry)

The Road to Death

The Road to Death

I stand in the woods

Wondering if I could.

Part of me said no,

As I held the Gun

The gun, the gun,

Part of me said just go.

I stood there, I felt like a fool,

As I wondered how they could be so cruel.

I wondered why they would bail.

Then I understood.

I understood!

I let out an almost soundless wail.

How could they do this to a human being?

At least I could finally say I'm seeing

I could now finally say

That I knew,

I knew!

I had figured it out in much the same way.

Then I had that moment,

And now my life was spent.

My life could rebuild by a few years,

But only a few,

Only a few.

The rest of my life is fear.

Maybe the reason is me,

I thought as I fell to my knees.

I looked at the gun.

It was in MY hands,

MY hands!

What kind of a person would I be to run?

Where would I be?

Who would be me?

I let out yet another wail

What have I become?

What HAVE I become?

I run like a dog who lost his tail.

I look for a place to hide

Maybe a horse drawn carriage to ride

To take me into the night

Who am I?

What am I?

I fear I want to take my last flight.

There! My street!

Oh this is one sweet treat!

Look it's a van!

Who is it?

Who is it?

Just an old man!

Oh this will be easy!

Wait, I'm feeling kind of queasy.

Maybe I will wait

I should wait

I will wait!

No then it will be too late!

So I take that leap,

I land in a huge heap

Pilled on the ground

I try to move but I can't

I can't! I can't!

I feel as though I'm bound!

I struggle and fight

I then see a light!

No not here! Not now!

I've killed myself

I've killed myself!

And that is how

I hear the old man,

No one in the van

I hear the words "Oh No!"

Why did I do it?

I did it

Why did I sink so low?

I look up again

I am in so much pain.

The poor man runs to my side

When did I ever become so selfish?

I became so selfish

I feel myself start to glide

Mom, I love you

Dad, you too.

I am in such doubt.

I feel myself slipping

I'm slipping.

I must have passed out.

I wake in a white room,

I remember the huge 'Boom'

The poor man,

The huge white Van,

The Van,

The Death van.

I look at my frame,

I have hardly anything to name.

I am in such pain!

But the rush,

Oh the Rush!

But don't worry, I won't try it again.

Then I see my parents smiling,

"We thought we lost you!" Exclaimed my mom crying.

I took quite a hit.

But my parents,

My stupid Parents,

Will still split.

They are why,

At night I always cry.

They cut me down,

They almost killed me,

I almost killed me,

They threw me around!

My dad rode my mom's back like a horse,

He is the reason for their divorce.

There is no longer a family

My life is ruins,

It's all ruins.

No one holds a Key.

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Hey guys! Just so you know, i have never thought about suicide at all, but, the last part, about her parents, is part of my life. Thanks for reading!

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Love ya!

-Abigailz1128