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She was back, and ready to take on the world again, she thought. She's ready to see her again! Everything is fixed and they could live a normal but fun life..!
She texted Michiko earlier telling her to meet her at the park, when she had responded almost immediately, she was happy. They would be together, and she's never leaving her anymore!
Nearing the destination she had set for the both of them, her heart rate quickens, It's been so long but her feelings is still the same for her. She can't wait to here all of the things she did while she was away, and just melt into her touch. Upon arriving at the deserted park they once grew up in, she sees a silhouette of a woman not too far from her, and she begin running into it.
"My dear, it's been so long! I've comeback-" Her words were cut off as her beloved did not reciprocate her enthusiastic hug and instead stopped her just a few inches away from her.
"Nicah, I didn't come here for that..." She said with a tone of indifference.
She was confused. Was there something wrong? Did something happened while she was gone?
"Michiko, I- what's wrong?" Attempting to hold her hand just for Michiko to swat it away. Shocked, she looks at her in both hurt and confusion.
"You're really asking me that, when you just left and came back like nothing happened?" Asked her, frustrated.
Nicah froze.
"B-but I'm back! I'm sorry I left, I just had to finish something. It was important and urgent so I-I-" Eyes widening in realization, she stopped herself from continuing her sentence. No. She can't know. Absolutely not.
Not planning to here her explanations, Michiko asked a question that left Nicah petrified in her spot.
"I waited for you, yet...*sighs* Is it why you can't introduce me to your parents? Is it because we're both woman? That you're ashamed?"
"What...no, I- Where is this coming from?! You know very well that I love you!" Of course she loves her! But how was she suppose to say that her parents are both suffering from the drugs they're taking? How her little brother was on death's door, and the doctors had given up from him? How she has to work for several hours, sometimes even a day or two just so they can have a food to eat? Nicah can't just say all of those things to Michiko, because she's suffering enough as it is.
"But why doesn't it feel like you do?! I called you multiple times! I texted you more than a hundred of messages because I thought something bad has happened to you! I tried going to your house, but you and your family weren't there. A-and then you just decided to show up like, none of it happened, like you didn't disappear at all!"
At this point, Michiko was crying.
"Mich...! P-please understand, I didn't mean for you to get hurt and disappear on you all of a sudden! I was trying to fix myself, because I can't bare to let you see myself in the state that I was before...L-let's talk about okay?" Nicah was afraid that the word she fears the most would come out of Michiko's mouth.
But the world wasn't on her side for today.
A now composed Michiko Verdict stands infront of Nicah Montegral. Eyes puffy but she looks at her bravely, uttering the words Nicah hated in the entire world.
"I love-" Shaking her head, "no. I loved you. But I guess things don't always go as planned huh?"
"Love, don't do this to me... p-please-"
"𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿. 𝗚𝗼𝗼𝗱𝗯𝘆𝗲, 𝗡𝗶𝗰𝗮𝗵."
She walks away without looking back at her shaking form.
𝖬𝗂𝖼𝗁𝗂 𝗅𝖾𝖿𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗋. 𝖠𝗇𝖽 𝗂𝗍'𝗌 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖿𝖺𝗎𝗅𝗍.
Knees weak, she falls into the ground. Rocking herself back and forth, with the silence and the dark as her only companion.
What if she had trusted her more? Would things still fall apart as they are now?
𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵...
She messed up again huh?
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-ᶠᵘᵘ
