Love is a drug - eddie munson x reader

Part 32

*3 months later*

*Eddie's Pov*

My band just finished preforming at the hideout. We've now got quite a lot of people coming to see us, but it just doesn't feel right. Every night, when I walk up on stage and look into the crowd, I hope to see y/n, but she's never been there. I have to keep telling myself, "she's over you Eddie. You guys broke up 3 months ago." but I just can't get it into my head.

I walked outside the bar, trying to find my van but a familiar voice caught my attention. I turned around and didn't want to believe a thing

It was her. She looked different, in a good way though. She looked healthier and happier. A smile was plastered on her clear face, she was wearing more dark and intense eye makeup. She was wearing leather pants, a silky blue shirt and a black leather jacket, but it wasn't till I realised that it was one of my leather jackets. She kept it. I smiled at that thought until I realised the guy beside her, with his arm wrapped around her.

He looked just like me. He had mid length, blonde messy hair. He had a white vest and some black ripped jeans. He was smiling back down at her, that should've been me. I should be the one making her laugh, and wrapping my arm around her.

Before they noticed me, I walked away, rushing to my van. As soon as i was in the van, I started panting heavily. All the memories came flooding back. Y/n was gone. She doesn't want me anymore. She's moved on and has a new boyfriend who deserves her. She's never going to love you again.

"Fuck!" I screamed, hitting the wheel and resting my head on it. I knew there was no chance of getting her back, but I want to atleast be in her life, rather than be a toxic ex.

*Y/n's pov*

Me and Zack got into his car, his hand resting on my thigh as he started driving. Everyone thinks me and Zack are prefect but in reality, we aren't that perfect. After about a month or so, Steve told me I had to move on with Eddie since I wasn't coping well so I tried to, but it backfired.

I was at a bar one day, then Zack saw me. He tried to buy me some drinks but I told him I didn't like alcohol so he have me cigarettes instead. After that we talked and started hanging out. He wanted to take things quickly, always flirting and touching me and wanting to get high, but I lightly declined. The truth is, im not that inlove with Zack, the only reason, according to Steve, that im still seeing him is because he reminds me of Eddie. And he's probably right.

We got to my house and started to make our way inside. He never took me to his house because he claims that he's very lower class and embarrassed of his house so he said he'd take me there soon instead instead.

We opened the door to see Steve sitting on the couch, watching tv.

"Hey Steve," I smiled.

"Hey y/n!" He looked at me but his smile faded a bit when he saw Zack. "Hey Eddie-...I mean Zack."

It was awkwardly silent for a minute. Me glaring at Steve, Steve scared and Zack standing there confused.

"Oh hey Steve...uh who's Eddie?" He said. I never told Zack about Eddie.

"Oh nobody, lets go to my room!" I grabbed his hand, rushing to my room before anymore could be said.

I sat down on my bed until he unexpectedly grabbed my neck and kissed me, usually I would just let him but it didn't feel right. It reminded me of two things, when Eddie used to kiss me whilst resting hand around my neck and him choking me.

The kiss started to get more rougher as he tried to push me down on to the bed but I let go and sat up.

"What's wrong?" He said.

I shrugged, "I dunno, just really tired."

"You always say that." He snarled.

"What?" I said.

"Well whenever we heavily makeout or nearly have sex, you just refuse. Am I not good enough for you or something?" He said.

"No not at all. I'm sorry-I mean if that's how you feel then maybe we could when we go round yours." I said.

He smirked, standing up and hugging me. "I love you baby." He kissed my neck. I didn't say anything back, because I knew deep down inside I didn't love him, I just loved the fact how he reminded me of Eddie.

"Okay well uh I'll see you tomorrow?" I said.

"Damn can't I stay round?" He said.

"Well Steve's and my dad are home besides I have school tomorrow so probably not." I tried to get him out of my room as quickly as possible.

"Okay, I'll pick you up at 7." Then he finally left.

I sat down on my bed and sighed. I didn't know what to do, I can't just date him forever because he reminds me of my abusive ex. But at the same time, he's been the only distraction from Eddie.

I took of my leather jacket, holding it in my hands until I realised it was Eddie's. I buried my face into the coat, surprisingly being able to smell Eddie. Even though Eddie smells of shit, it brings me comfort. Comfort to know that he's still with me.