Vanilla+brown sugar (Hyunlix)

Isolated

I'm Felix. I just turned 19, and I'm here to tell you a secret. I'm planning to run away tomorrow, and no, I'm not going to chicken out like I did when I was 18. I'm going to run away for real this time, I have to, I need to. Because the truth is I'm tired, I can't do this anymore, being locked up in the house the whole day. My room is my only safe place and it's beginning to feel like a prison. What makes it worse is, outside is nothing but trees and bushes. Don't get me wrong, I love nature but after seeing nothing but woodlands that stretch out for acres and acres, accompanied by the intense smell of wet tree trunks and damp moss, for years. I think I'm ready for a change in scenery. Preferably a city, one where there are lots of people, lots and lots of people. See another thing is, I've never had a friend, whether it's a best friend or just a simple acquaintance, I have zero social life. And no this isn't my choice, my aunt forces me to be like this. Aunt Fiona, the woman who raised me, because when I was only six months old, my mother tried to drown me in a tub of water, and don't worry she died shortly after that, due to an overdose, because karma works far better than revenge, at least that's what my aunt always tells me. To be honest I'm not mad at my mother. We all have our selfish reasons for why we do certain things, just like how I'm going to run away.—Journal entry 35