bts one shots | b x b

tonight- seokjin (centric)

People often look over those who tend to seem the most positive and happiest around others. So of course, it comes as a shock to them when they discover that the person isn't really like that deep down. They are instead full of negativities and insecurities, and they never say anything about it. They think of their problems as other people's burdens, staying quiet is a better option for them. 

Kim Seokjin, is a person people admire for his positive light that effects others moods. So you can say that he felt a responsibility to not show others his dark days. His dark days that are full of his insecurities and mass scrutiny of himself.  His mind tells him that he is useless and talentless, and only luck was on his side that bus ride. The bus ride where he got discovered. He didn't deserve what was given to him just by his looks. He wasn't like his other members, who have talent. The six can try to tell him that he is full of talent and such, but the voices in his head always win. The voices in his head that he can not silence. 

The others were clueless to how Seokjin was feeling, and he plans to keep it that way. No one needs to know what he is thinking or feeling. He is the hyung of the group. They do not need to know. The voices in his head were growing stronger and stronger each day, Jin needs to come up with a plan to stop them, silence them. 

Of course, not everything can stay hidden. 

They all were lounging around since it was their day off, and they had plans to not move all day. "Drink up, greenies." Namjoon was currently watering his plants that he kept in the living room. The members couldn't help but giggle at their leaders adorableness. "Ah- joonie, do you think that they can understand what you are telling them?" Jimin was the first to ask what they were all thinking. "Actually, plants like it when you talk to them, they grow faster. I read that somewhere in an article." The leader was quick with the response. Not shocking anyone that he of course would know, he does read a lot and is insightful on topics. "Of course, my bad Hyung." Jimin turned back towards Taehyung who was currently beating him at Uno. "UNO!" Taehyung was now facing Jimin with his boxy grin, and squealing with excitement. "Aish! wait a minute! I had my back faced! You could've been cheating!" Jimin was now on his feet pointing at Taehyung. "Jimin-ah, why would I cheat? When I beat you every time!" Jimin was now pouting sitting back down. "No, lets start over." Jimin was now shuffling all the cards on the table, earning a groan from Taehyung. "Again?!?! This is the fourth time!" 

Yoongi was in the kitchen whipping up a snack for Hoseok and Jungkook, who were currently hungry. "Hyung, can you please hurry? I am so hungryyyyy." Jungkook was currently pouting looking at Yoongi with his doe eyes. "Kook-ah, I am sure he is just wanting it to be perfect for us, be patient." Hoseok spoke back to Jungkook hoping that would calm the younger. "Thank you Hoba, cause this kid doesn't seem to understand that. Jin-hyung, has got you spoiled." Yoongi replied back, earning a giggle from the maknae. He started plating their foods while glancing around the living room and kitchen. 

"Where's hyung?" Yoongi was curious since he hasn't really seen his hyung out of the room. "He hasn't been out of the room all day." Namjoon answered back while trimming some of his plants leaves. "Has anyone checked on him?" Yoongi asked back, putting the plates in front of Jungkook and Hoseok. Jimin and Taehyung shook their heads no, same goes for the rest of the members. 

Jin was currently in his room writing in his journal, he wasn't able to fall asleep last night. 

I am a waste of space. 

A space that is not needed here. 

They will be fine without me.

I want to stop existing.