bts one shots | b x b

2night

(lol see what i did there? with the title)

Seokjin was relieved once Yoongi had left the room to join the others, and he was glad that he did not question him for not joining them. If only Seokjin had known that they were all out there currently trying to come up with a plan and that they were all holding Jungkook back from entering the room. All of them are silently in pain and suffering from the harsh reality of Seokjin's thoughts. Thoughts that break their hearts.

Seokjin lay there in his bed, swallowed by darkness, sinister thoughts, and silent tears escaping from time to time. Tonight was the night when the voices were the worst they had ever been in a while. They were pushing him inch by inch, and he was not sure how much longer he was going to hang on. The only thing keeping him grounded were the members; they would be devastated if he was gone, he knew that. Still, that was not enough for him. Seokjin's thoughts were convincing him that they would be better off without him; he did not belong here. The army would be fine, and everyone knows that they prefer the maknae line. They know that they are not complete without the seven of them, but that does not mean that they are all liked and valued equally. Sometimes he thinks that he is only liked because of his looks, and who can he blame? No one, because that is the only reason he was discovered.

Seokjin got tired of the voices in his head and decided that enough was enough. He gets out of bed and tries to come up with a plan. "Should I just cut my wrist? No, I don't want them to find a bloody mess." Seokjin was voicing out loud to himself, pacing around the room back and forth. Every thought he was thinking was quickly followed with an excuse. He doesn't want the members to find him surrounded by blood. It would just be more of a burden for them to clean up. Seokjin looks out the window, and that is where he forms the plan. The plan is to end it all tonight at the bridge.

Seokjin remembers that the members are all watching a movie, and they would question him about where he was going. So he decides to peek into the living room and see how much longer the movie has left. He opened the bedroom door but was only met with silence. He calls out, "Guys?" Silence. "Yoongi-ah?" No response. "Kookie?" Not a single response. Just as he ended up in the living, he was greeted by darkness. A piece of his heart broke at the realization that they had left him alone with no invite. "See Jin; they will be fine." Jin quickly went back into the room to put on his coat. He walked back into the living room and glanced around. His mind is quickly filling with memories that he will miss. Without much thought, he headed towards the door. Allowing the darkness to creep in a bit more with each step.

Seokjin is greeted by the coldness of the night air and the emptiness of the streets. He was glad there wasn't much foot traffic, for he did not want an audience. Each step he takes closer to his final chapter is getting harder and harder. In fact, he will be leaving behind six people who he loves so dearly and an entire army that will be devastated. "They will be fine." He speaks so reassuringly to himself as he walks along the edge of the bridge. He faces towards the water, letting his mind fill with his last thoughts. In his mind, he sees Yoongi and how he always reminds him of a skittish cat who doesn't like affection but, deep down, secretly does. He sees Namjoon, who is such a warm light to be around, with his dimpled smile. He sees Hoseok, who always gives energy to the rest of the group, as a human vitamin. He sees Jimin, who always checks in on others and makes sure they are okay. He sees Taehyung, who is always quick to make sure no other talks down about themselves. Lastly, he sees the person he raised when he was fourteen into the man that he is now, Jungkook. His mind flashed with all the members in his mind; he hadn't realized he was crying until he felt a drop land on his hand. His hands were both holding onto the rail.

Just a couple of streets down, there is a group of boys shouting for their hyung, who they hope they can reach in time. "Hurry! We need to hurry!" Taehyung was quick to yell out to the others. "Does anybody have any idea about where he would go?" Hoseok was quick to ask. They all stopped realizing that they had no clue where he was going to be. "Quick, everybody think. Where would he go?" Namjoon asked the members, hoping someone would know. "Should we split up?" Jimin was quick to ask. "No, we should be together when we find him. Plus, I think I know where he might be." Of course, his roommate would know where he might be. "Where?" They had all asked in unison. "The bridge" with that final thought, they took off running again. Realizing that they were not far from that location. They were quick to arrive at the bridge, not seeing anybody. "I don't see him," Jimin mumbled, voice cracking by the end. "Are we too late?" Taehyung had asked, hoping he was wrong. They all were hoping to see him, but they couldn't see him. They were all running towards the middle of the bridge, with some looking over the bridge in case they were too late. No one was above, and no one was below. "Look! There!" Hoseok exclaimed once he spotted someone looking over the bridge. "Hyung! Hyung!" They were all shouting at him; the closer they got, the closer they could see him shaking and the paler he looked.