Tick Tock

Thirteen

So uh... I lied. Thought of the greatest stuff last night so I started writing. Before the due date. I'm amazing.

( a few weeks ago) Alya's POV

I was finally in control again, it seemed like Lilas's control was finally leaving me alone. Like I could see clearly. A breath of fresh air if you will. I haven't been freed in longer and longer periods of time for shorter periods of time. Sometimes I would go weeks at a time trapped in my own body waiting and fighting for a chance. Any chance to just make sure Marinette is okay. I knew this wouldn't last long so I hurridly walked over to her desk.

"Hey. I heard you were suffering, and-"

I felt Lila stare at me taking control again. As if my soul was ripped from my body and thrown into a pit of darkness. Finally hitting the bottom trapped in a web of my creation where trying to escape just makes it worse. Not only was I trapped but I could hear exactly all the horrible horrible things I was saying.

"I wanted to let you know you deserve it."

 This is truly my own personal hell.

(Present day) Adrien's POV

Akuma Alert! Akuma Alert! Akuma Alert!

I went outside and transformed, heartbroken and sluggish. I went to me and ladybug's normal meeting spot but when I got there all I saw was a note. I picked it up and read it shocked at what I found.

Dear anyone who ends up reading this,
you will be the last person I ever talk to. Hopefully, if all goes well. I have some things to clear up because I know this will be messed up if I don't make sure it isn't.
1. This is not because of anyone else. Sure Lila, Chloe, Alya, and Sabrina bullying me was just kicking me while I'm down but the key part is that I was already down. I was weak and that's why I'm here.
2. Ladybug will be out of commission from now on. Why you may be asking? Let's say that she went down my path too.
3. Chat noir if you happen to end up reading this, thank you for trying. But you wasted your time on a hopeless case. I could never be saved.
4. And finally I want you to know that as my final words to the world I am in pain. I always was. So don't mourn me. I don't deserve to be mourned because all of it is my fault. So please just leave me be. Say something about me once and forget about me. I'm not worth remembering.
with all the love I have left,
Marinette.

My tears stained the paper as I panicked and checked to make sure she wasn't dead on the concrete. When I looked up I was too nervous to be relieved she was alive. Marinette was an Akuma. A powerful one at that.

She was on the Eiffel tower broadcasting to all of Paris. I was screwed. But if I was gonna go out this is a pretty sick way too. I ran across buildings going to the Eiffel tower as Marinette destroyed the city with a plethora of attacks. Vines crushing and consuming buildings, lightning striking just about everything, and mental attack waves that made you feel down about yourself. 

Like you weren't worth anything.

And you belived it.

You knew it wasn't your thoughts but in that moment what you wouldn't give to jump off a bridge or take a long walk off a short pier. 

Every few minutes I would get hit with a shock wave with all the classic insults.

You dont deserve happiness

Or love

And even if you want it you'll never get it because no one likes you.

No one ever has.

Regardless it made me feel terrible about myself, and I understood what she was going through this whole time. the misery of wanting to die but the obligations you have to other people and the tiny shred of will to live keeping you here.

I kept going. I had a job to do. I was hit with wave after wave until I finally reached her. she was looking down at the chaos she created and just laughed. A sickening laugh that wasn't really hers. It couldn't have been.

" Marinette!"

She turned around tossing her hair behind her shoulder. I hadn't really taken in the whole bit of her outfit but it was the most fashion-appropriate thing hawkmoth had ever come up with. It was a black dress with a sweetheart neckline corset and a long train. When the wind blew her way she looked like an anime villain ready to attack.

Her eyes had a menacing glow to them where if looks could kill you'd be dead if she even glanced at you. 

"Marinette please don't do this!"

"Well, you see I had an epiphany. If people are going to make me suffer without remorse regardless of how much I've done for them why shouldn't I do the same? It's really interesting when you think about it that when the person who did everything to be good is now doing everything so others can suffer. Wonderfully ironic."

"You are more than what you think you are. You are kind talented and a wonderful person who deserves the world! WHen I said I loved you I meant it."

"The girl I was before was weak! She was clumsy, and couldn't get her way through life! I refuse to have everyone around me try and convince me that I was so great when in reality I was a waste of space. Well no longer."

The vines started winding up the Eiffel tower eager for something to strike.

"I think I will get rid of everyone who lied to me. Starting with you."

The vines formed a cage around me with thorns so huge I could barely move without being stabbed through. I looked her in the eyes pleading with her.

"You get front row seats to a new circle of hell my friend. Oh and by the way."

She turned to the chaos in front of her and coldly said "It's Princess Justice"