If only I could be free,
I mean,
I guess I could be,
But that requires me to be brave,
It requires me to be unafraid,
And as long as I am those things,
Then I deserve to live in this cage.
Everyday is starting to mix up into a disgusting amount of grey,
Almost like I was made to fade away,
A star to die too soon,
To be forgotten the next time there's a full moon.
I know I'm still young,
My brain's got time to grow,
But right now I already feel so old,
I'm so tired of living,
When no one really wants me here anyway,
Why should I have to carry the burden of being around myself?
Why should I have to hear my own voice ring through my ears?
Why should I have to think of all of my fears?
Why should I have to fight to keep myself here?
Nobody hears not a single tear,
I wipe them all away before anyone sees anything there,
I act like anyone could care,
Or notice,
Or even look at me,
Why can't I just accept that life's just gonna keep killing me?
If I have to go right now,
Why can't I just go?
Why does everyone want to keep me here,
I'm sorry I want to disappear,
I don't know why you all try to help,
To be honest no one could love me, hell,
I can't even love me,
So how can all of you?
But I guess I'll say for you all,
After all,
It's what I'm meant to do.
A/N: I have positive ones I swear! Ok well... maybe not, but I'm fine now don't worry! I hope you all enjoyed the poem at least, if you did it would be wonderful if you left a vote before you go! Also leave a comment, your thoughts mean so much to me! And I hope you have a wonderful rest of your evening!
~Ollie
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PoetrySo, I write a lot of poems some (a lot of them) of them may be triggering due to the fact a lot of them talk about my trauma, mental illness,and bad experiences, I'll include trigger warnings dw! Others of them are either reflections, nonbinary rant...
