I found that my mind had subconsciously divided my life into two parts, the time when there wasn't a Lennon and then suddenly the time when there was. It was as simple as that; she wasn't and then BAM one day, she was. I don't know how she managed to find herself in my life, but she did.
There's a Lennon. My Lennon. I tell myself to slow down, that I'm taking things too fast, but my brain doesn't listen. Instead, my brains imagining my life with Lennon ten years into the future. Im imagining what we will name our kids when my alarm goes off. Yay. Another day in paradise, I think. Then I remember Lennon will be at school, I jump out of bed and hop into the shower.
In the shower, I have an epiphany. I like...a girl? Where did that come from?! This is weird. Oh my gosh and if people knew...I can't tell anyone.
In math, I found myself drawing pictures of her, I kept glancing at the clock praying that this hour would go by quickly so I could see her. She's amazing, she loves the same music I love, the same food I like, for the first time I feel like there's someone who really understands me. I've always felt like my mind was a place that no one else would be able to enter, a place that no one could even understand a little bit because I've always thought it was too complex, but now it's starting to make sense. It's not as complex as I thought.
We spent Monday night playing Grand Theft Auto five and World of Warcraft in my room. We ate pizza, laughed and did a little homework. She ended up just spending the night, which at first I was shocked that she even suggested that but then I remember I was a girl, and she only saw me as a friend. Then my heart took control and I got nervous and filled with anxiety about sleeping with her.
We stayed up til eleven because I kept trying to put off sleep. As much as I wanted to sleep with her...I really wanted to do it when she felt the same way I feel about her. In the end I decided I should take what I can get, so we went to my bed and laid down. She went to sleep quickly but I stayed up to listen to her rhythmic breaths.
Now it's Wednesday and I'm just ready to get to History.
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When All Our Souls Fell Apart
Novela JuvenilIt was June 14, 2013 at exactly 2:56 in the morning when she said it. When she told me those three words that as humans, we just simply cannot understand, the three words that seem to mean so much but always end up meaning nothing at all. I was so n...
