Just ME

She's Gone...

y/n's POV
"did we get them all?" Bruce ask as all of us back to the compound. I'm scanning and couldn't find her. Suddenly Clint fall down to his knees. I run to him. "Hey, I'm here. I'm here. Eyes on me Barton." I slap his face softly. He the cupped my face with tears filled his eyes.

"Clint, where's Nat?" Bruce ask him all he did was hug me tightly. Sobbing at my neck. "she died right?" I then hug him letting a single tear drops.

"why everyone's acting like she's dead? We have the stones right? As long as we have the stones, Cap, y/n, we can bring her back. Right? So stop this sh*t. We're the avengers, get it together." Thor said furiously.

"we can't get her back." Clint breaks the silence. "it can be undone. It can't." he add and Thor burst into laughter. "I'm sorry. No offense, but you're a very earthly being. Okay, we're talking about space magic and 'can't' seems very definitive, don't you think?" he scoff.

"look, I know that I'm way outside my paygrade here but she still isn't here, is she?" Clint argue. "no, that's not my point." he said. "it can't be undone...or that's at least what the red floating guy had to say. Maybe you wanna go talk to him. Okay? Go grab your hammer and you fly, and you talk to him!" he yell. "it was supposed to be me..." he state sadly. I then stood up and leaving all of them.

I go to my recording room and open my piano. I start humming the tone, fighting the urge to cry. I can't cry right now. I can't. (you can search 'too good at goodbyes' by Sam Smith at Spotify)

You must think that I'm stupid
You must think that I'm a fool
You must think that I'm new to this
But I have seen this all before

I'm never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me
'Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So, I'm never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt

But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you
Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad, but it's true

I'm way too good at goodbyes
(I'm way too good at goodbyes)
I'm way too good at goodbyes
(I'm way too good at goodbyes)

I know you're thinking I'm heartless
I know you're thinking I'm cold
I'm just protecting my innocence
I'm just protecting my soul

I'm never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me
'Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So, I'm never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt

But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you
Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad, but it's true

I'm way too good at goodbyes
(I'm way too good at goodbyes)
I'm way too good at goodbyes
(I'm way too good at goodbyes)
No way that you'll see me cry
(No way that you'll see me cry)
I'm way too good at goodbyes
(I'm way too good at goodbyes) no

No, no, no, no, no (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
No, no, no, no
No, no, no (I'm way too good at goodbyes)
(No way that you'll see me cry)
Ah-ah-ah (I'm way too good at goodbyes)

'Cause every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you
Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad, but it's true
I'm way too good at goodbyes

I then throw all the lyrics on the floor yelling. Smashing all the music equipments a pair of hands wrap around me. "why? Why she's the one who get to leave me? Why dad??" I cry hitting his hand repeatedly. "I know honey, I know it's hurt people keep on leaving you. I've been there with you. Please honey, you cannot do this to yourself..." he soothe me until I calm myself down.

"I-I have to call them...letting them know." I stand on my feet and hug him tightly. "Thanks dad...for being here. Don't worry about the room, I'll clean it up after I wrap my bloody knuckles...again." we both then chuckle. "yeah...better wrap them up before your mom kill me." I then make my way to the next room, which is my study room and put Melina on video call.

"y/n? What happen to your knuckles?!" she ask with a worry face. Alexei immediately run to take a look. "oh honey..." I look at them with tears falling down on my face. "I-I need to tell you about Natalia..." their face drop as I said her name. "what happened y/n?" Alexei ask. "she went for a mission to get one of the infinity stones, we all went to get all six of them. We need to travel back to past. All came back...but not her." with that, they both smile faintly at me.

"she sacrifice herself didn't she?" Melina ask softly. I nod with tears still running down. "it's her choice honey...no one can stop her. Not you, not Yelena, not even us. She made that choice. She did that so she can bring Yelena's back, to be with you...taking care of you cause she knows you both get along better than she with you. She loves you both...always y/n. Don't forget that." I then smile at them weakly. "thank you guys...ill be back as soon as this sh*t done...with Yelena. We do a funeral for her." they nod smiling at me.

"get your knuckles wrapped Stark. We'll be be waiting...be safe malyshka." I then end the call and make my way to my room. As I open the door, Clint's sitting there with first aid kit. I go to the bathroom and wash the dry blood away. Then I tak a sit in front of him.

"I'm sorry." he breaks the silence. "it's not your fault hawkeye. She made her choice. No one could stop her. Not even me. I would done the same thing Clint. Without a doubt." I groaned when he put the antiseptic on my knuckles. "Can sleep with you? I-I just sleep on the floor if it's fine." I stop him from rambling and nod. "I got a couch you know? Don't make me feel like I punish you Barton." we both then let a small chuckle. "I'll always be here for you hawkeye. You're like a big brother to me. I care and love you alright?" I pull him into a long warm hug.

He then tuck me in and kiss my forehead. "goodnight my little archer." I smile and kiss his cheek as return.