Suffer No More (completed)

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It seemed like endless weeks where Tig and I had to call off dates and shit cause Clay needed him for some cocking bullshit.

I mean I've been seeing Tig for three years, I've got his crow. yet we've not been able to go past that part of the relationship cause of Clay's fucking ass.

And I just feel like something gonna occur and fuck shit up for Tig and I and the one that's gonna be the cause will be Clay. and if he's not the cause then he'll be one of the reasons for the disaster.

I'm actually surprised that Tig gets enough time to fuck me and make out with me without Clay calling for him to do something.

I know Tig's job as the S.A.A is very important but Clay is the type that over does shit and abuses his power. 

just the other day Jax and Clay got into over something Clay had down and Tig had to be the one to separate the two.

It's ridiculous shit that occurs and has happened since Clay killed my father and took the gavel and married my mother.

Yet I am the only one that can see past his bullshit while everyone is feeding into it. 

Though with the fighting between Jax and Clay I believe that he's finally seeing past the blinders and seeing the real Clay and not the fake front that everyone else sees.

Tonight mom is having her dinner that everyone that is family goes to. and I am hoping that I get to spend some time with my ol'man without Clay's fucking ass needing him for something.

but I'm not holding my breath cause I know regardless of whether it is club matter or not Clay will need Tig for something eventually.

I headed to my mother's place and helped her cook dinner while the guys were doing whatever it was they needed to handle before coming to dinner.

"you think something will change between you and Tig?" momma asked

"honestly?" I asked

"yea" she says

"I've got a feeling somethings brewing and it's gonna ruin shit between Tig and me. I don't know what it is or how I can go about preventing it. I can only hope it's fixable" I tell her

"me too baby," she says 

we went back to cooking as the guys started to show up as momma and I started to set the table with help of the few croweaters that were there.

after everything was done and sat at the table we all took our seats and interacted like an average family. 

that was till club bullshit was brought up then it went to shit. our nice conversation went to shit about guns, enemies and other shit the club is dealing with.

I inwardly rolled my eyes at this shit. its not surprising that even a "family" dinner cant be just that and nothing of the club.

"Ladies you have to continue to be careful the ATF is sniffing around and we don't need any shit to happen" Clay says

as if he fucking gives to shits about momma and me or any other woman that's ol'lady or family.

"we'll be careful Clay" momma says

he nodded his head then looked at me.

I just stared right back not saying a word.

"Lyra" he says

"don't call me that." I tell him

"fine Elaine" he says

"what?" I asked

"watch yourself" he says

I looked at my mom.

"may I be excused?"

"sure baby" she says

I looked at Tig.

"if your not doing something that's not club needed I'll see you at home. if not I'll see you when your done when ever that will be" I say before I kissed him then left. 

I was already done with Clay's shit for the day.

I headed home cleaned up and crashed out. needing to rest up for whatever will take place with the ATF in town.