Grey Twins

XIII

I had my surgery for my pacemaker two weeks ago. Luke's friends came over with food and entertainment while I was at the hospital. I still didn't talk much to them but there would be some conversations here and there.

I honestly miss how fun we all had together. Every time when it was time for round everyone would be in my room and when the interns came in it would be even more packed.

Aaron and David were eager to here some news from unos. Both Penelope and Derek told them to calm down and we'll know when the doctor knows. Tara, Mathew and Spencer had to leave.

Rounds again.

"Meredith Grey, 17 years old, anemic, stage 3 leukemia, pacemaker implanted 2 weeks ago, currently waiting on a heart transplant to start chemotherapy" an intern said

"Nothing new?" I asked

"Not right now" the intern smiled.

I was getting really tired and told Luke and he put friends if they can leave just for the night so I can have time to myself. They agreed and Luke kissed me before exiting the hospital room.

"Putting on a brave face is hard huh?"the intern from earlier, dr Hayes said.

"Unfortunately" I sighed trying to get comfortable.
He had helped me get comfortable and then disappeared. I was starting to feel overwhelmed. Everything is making me go crazy.

"Hey miss grey. I have good news!" Dr Altman said.

I had my eyes closed but when I heard her voice, my eyes went wide it could only mean one thing.

"Transplant?"

"Transplant" she smiled. I was really excited because it finally meant I could start my chemo.

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"Good luck Mer" all my friends said on FaceTime. I smiled and said goodbye. I put my phone away and I got rolled into surgery.

"Ready" dr. Altman said.

"As I will ever be." I chuckled. They put me down and that was that.

—

"Come on Mer wake up" I hear Luke say. I couldn't talk bc of the tube in my mouth. I opened my eyes a bit to see Luke holding my hand. I squeezed his hand and he looked up. He smiled and gave me a forehead kiss. I saw him press the nurse button.

A nurse and dr. Altman come into the room. They get the tube out of my mouth.

"Good morning" she said

"Morning" I said tiredly

"It's been 2 days" Luke said. My eyes go wide.

"You did flatline a couple of times during the surgery, But guess what?" Dr. Altman said.
"Hm?"
"Your new heart works perfectly fine and you can't start chemo next week" I smiled happily.

Like and the rest left the room so I was alone in the room trying to fall asleep. I couldn't sleep. I was feeling nauseous. I really need the chemo this cancer is making me even more sick.

Luke couldn't come back to the hospital because it's fall break and his family was going to visit his extended family in Maryland and his friends also had plans for the break.

Meredith felt alone again.

"Meredith how are you?" It was Ellis.
"Please answer me. I wanna catch up. I need to know if you're okay. I miss you" she added

"You didn't care about me before. Now you see me on a hospital bed and think you're going to be the best mother I could ever have?" She probably just wanted to seem like a mom who cares

"I'm sorry Mer please baby. I miss my baby girl. I'm sorry for how I acted towards you. It's just you were too perfect. The perfect grades. The perfect attendance."

"You mean like the perfect school girl you wanted? Because we obviously know who the actual perfect girl is in our family" it's always lexie.

"Don't bring lexie into this"

"Don't bring her into this? It's always been about lexie! This is my second time in the hospital. The first time you were too busy with Lexies party to even acknowledge my existence! I almost died and you told me "oh you're not lexie" it was my birthday too! You didn't care! You blamed me for thatcher leaving even though you were the reason he left. You're probably only here because your perfect little angel baby lexie wanted me to buy her something. It's always that."

"Stop it meredith! Yes okay? I love lexie a lot more. But I love you too! I've always have!"

"Since when?"

"I uh i it doesn't matter!" She couldn't even say when.

"Yes it does"

"Okay I tried to be nice but you're obviously to much of a whore to even comprehend what I'm saying. I wish I never had you. You broke me!" I broke her?

"I'm the one with cancer and no family support. The only one broken here, is me. Do me a favor and leave"  I said as calm as I could be.

She stormed off and I began to hyperventilate. Dr Altman came running in. 

"Meredith come on follow my breathing. In and out in and out. That's it honey slow and steady." I held onto her shirt as it was my only safe place at the moment.

I need to throw up. Or not? I don't know I'm feeling a lot of mixed emotions right now.

"Can you try to contact Miranda Bailey? If you get a hold of her can you tell her to come here?" I basically pleaded. She was my last hope in having someone next to me. She nodded and left the room.

In a matter of 10 minutes Mrs Bailey was running towards my room.

"Oh Meredith honey! How are you?"

"I could be better" I said patting one side of the bed so she could lay down next to me.

Mrs. Bailey was the mother figure I wish I had. Although I've only known Bailey for 2 years. I wouldn't change it for the world.

We talked about everything and she said she'll be waiting for me after my first chemo treatment.