Eunbyul, Lee Eunbyul is my name.
A high school student in Seoul University, doing my best to finish and graduate school so I could leave this shit hole.
You see I'm different, more different then people who says that they are different. I'm sick, no not some 'i have lung cancer and i want to spend most of my time doing the things i want to do before i die' shit. From how you can see it I don't sugar coat things I say, it shows that i'm a straight-forward kind of person. I'm depressed, and I don't have a guy who can save me from this sickness of mine. Because I myself know I can't be saved.
Sitting in this chair alone for the rest of the school year wasn't what I expected. I have friends, well used to. There were 7 of them, all boys. No I'm not sleeping around and I am not secretly inlove with one of them, they're just my friends or what I call my saviours.
They were my saviours in times when I wasn't myself anymore, times when I didn't even know what I was doing, what I did or what I used to do. They didn't tell me everything was going to be okay because they know it will never be okay.
One of them was and always will be my bestfriend, Park Jimin. I love that guy so much. He was there when the doctor first announced that 'Eunbyul, are you aware that you're depressed?' he was there. I couldn't picture myself looking at his face when the doctor said that, he was hurting as much as I did. He was my pilar, he was the shoulder I've always cried on, the friend that I always had but I don't deserve, I didn't deserve neither one of them.
Jung Hoseok, my mood maker. He's always the first one to notice that something was occupying my mind, he's the first one to lighten up my mood and sweep off all of my problems without even trying hard. But behind that smile he always wear, the pain that's stopping him from doing what he wanted was always there. Kim Namjoon and Kim Seokjin, both guys trying to protect me from the danger that was waiting, both trying to prove that there is still hope waiting for me at the end of the road. I don't even know if I should believe them but they never failed to try and make me believe it was possible.
Jeon Jungkook, he was so young but all the things he did for me proved that he wasn't just a simple high school boy trying to survive high school, he was more than that way more than what you think he is. Min Yoongi the guy that always has his time prepared if anything happens to me, he was there when I wasn't even trying to save myself, he was there when I ended up trying to end my own life not thinking that it affects him, how it affects all of them.
Lastly Kim Taehyung, he is not like the rest of them, in fact he was different just like me. But he's not sick heck he was far from being sick. He was active, active in everything, also active in bed if i might say but don't ask me why I said that because I don't even know myself. He wasn't someone special to me he was just...him, nothing special to me but that's what I thought he would always be, guess I was wrong.
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Hi! this part is more like an explanation of well something about the story :)! Gonna add chapter one soon :)
