chapter eight
Eunbyul's POV
Going to class slunging my backpack over my shoulder with the guys infront of me was the usual thing I also do. I told them to go first as I make my way to my locker. Sighing heavily bringing the books I might need for class. And yes I do study too, I'm not that kind of student who slacks off in class.
I heard the class bell ring as I hurriedly ran towards the room. Lucky enough the teacher wasn't present. I took a seat noticing an empty chair beside me, the seat where usually Hoseok sits. I looked around to see where he went but he wasn't anywhere.
That's strange I thought to myself, Hoseok was never absent in class even if he was sick.
'Jin! Where's Hoseok?' I asked him but he just shrugged also not knowing where he is.
I grabbed my phone trying to call him but it was off. I started to feel uneasy, I was scared but I don't know why I was scared.
Hoseok's POV
Waking up and getting ready for school wasn't a choice for me today. I sighed changing into new clothes looking at the mirror seeing my face having dark circles under my eyes,puffy and red from constant crying. I couldn't control myself. I wasn't able to.
It was exactly a year since she left me. Since my girlfriend left me.
I wasn't able to save her, I was too selfish to try. I saw her before she jumped off that building I wasn't able to grab her. She left me, she promised me she never will but she just did exactly a year ago. She left me all alone in this damn world without knowing why she did that. I can still picture her face before she left. She was always that breathtaking, everytime I look at her I fell inlove with her even more. She mouthed me 'I'm sorry Hoseok-ah, I love you' I ran towards her but I was too late.
I was a step too late.
I kept this from the guys because I don't want them to worry about me I was fine handling this alone.
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I decided to take a drive to Gwangju where her grave was found. I brought daises with me her favorite. I remember the time when I first bought her a bouquet of daises, she cried because she was too happy, too happy to see the sight of her boyfriend with her favorite flowers, daises.
Taking a seat next to her tombstone holding the bouquet of flowers.
'Hi babe' I smiled looking at her name 'Cho Nara' still so beautiful, so gorgeous just like her. I always visit her before I moved. Every single day I stayed beside her, I even tried sleeping here bringing a tent just to be beside her. Because I promised her I would never leave, even if she left me already I'll still fulfill my promise to her.
'How are you? I hope you're fine. I'm doing great too. I'm sorry if I haven't visited you for weeks well as I told you before I moved.' I weakly smiled
'I want to stay here but it was for the better remember? I tried to dance again but I couldn't, I couldn't do it without you. Why did you leave? What did I do? You should have told me, you do know I will always understand you.'
I paused 'I always do. Please come back to me. Stay beside me just like before. Please come back to me' I cried clutching the flowers in between my hands.
I felt weak, I've always felt weak without her. I never showed the boys that I was like this, I promised myself that I won't drag anyone with my problems. I tried to smile, laugh with them. Sometimes I question myself if the smile and laughter I showed them was real or not.
'I'll come back again babe okay? I still love you. I will always do. I miss you so much it hurts to think that I won't get to hear you're beautiful voice. I miss you, take care of yourself Nara. I love you' I smiled turning my back wiping the tears from my eyes. I still wasn't prepared to let her go, but something tells me that I never will be prepared. She was my other half, she was my wings. She was part of me.
And she will always be.
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I went home feeling weak from crying so hard. I opened my door seeing a quiet and peaceful house greeting me. I made my way towards the bathroom changing into comfortable clothes. I looked at the mirror studying my features trying to erase every moment that she shared with me. From my lips,nose and my eyes I still can remember her. So clear, I remember her as if she was infront of me caressing my face.
I opened the medicine cabinet seeing the sight of the medicine bottle present on the said cabinet. I took it opened and grabbed as many pills I could hold with my hand. I swallowed it all without water I just swallowed it.
Grabbing my phone with me I suddenly felt weak, I rested on my bed as my phone rang.
'YAH JUNG HOSEOK WHERE THE FCK ARE YOU!!?' I was greeted by a shouting Eunbyul releasing a small smile from my lips.
'Why were you that worried princess?' I mockingly answered hearing her groan.
'Just shut up! I'm going to your place stay right there!' She hanged up before I was about to answer. I rested my eyes for awhile preparing myself from the questions Eunbyul's going to ask.
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Eunbyul's POV
'YAH JUNG HOSEOK WHERE ARE YOU!?' I slammed his door waiting for his answer but he was nowhere to be found. I looked everywhere for him but he wasn't there. I jogged up towards his room opening his bedroom door but I stopped.
I stopped in my tracks hearing Hoseok crying, I was confused, surprised even. I've never seen this side of him.
I've never seen him cry or get emotional. I silently opened the door seeing him leaning on his bed holding somewhat like a picture/paper in this hands.
I gasped looking around to see bottles everywhere. From beer bottles,medicine bottles and a box. A box that was infront of him.
'Why did you leave me? Please come back to me' He screamed as I gripped on the door knob. I wanted to hug him and tell him everything will be okay. But something stopped me from doing so, I never expected to see him like this,seeing him hurt so bad.
Before I could get close to him a loud thud escaped from the room echoing throughout the whole house. It was dark I couldn't see clearly I turned on my flashlight to see Hoseok lying on the floor with his eyes closed.
He looked so lifeless.
I grabbed his head placing it on my lap as I tried to wake him up. I took out my phone dialing a number calling out for help.
'YOONGI! CALL AN AMBULANCE NOW! BRING IT IN HOSEOK'S HOUSE FASTER!' I shouted at him fanning Hoseok with a paper I found beside him.
A few minutes came an ambulance appeared carrying Hoseok to the hospital. I was about to go with him but Yoongi said to wait for the other guys here. I nodded and decided to clean up the mess.
After I was done with the bottles the only things left were the box and the paper I found awhile ago.
I looked at it to see a handwritten name found at the top most of the letter.
'Cho Nara'
Who is Cho Nara?
Who was she to Jung Hoseok?
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Chapter 8 is here! You might be wondering why this chapter was all about Hoseok well I've always wanted to write a story for him. But for this as you can see prologue it says there that he was always wearing a smile just to hide the pain he was feeling so yes that's why I wrote it! Soon theere will be more Tae x Eunbyul! Please enjoy! Don't forget to comment and vote! 💕
