You had never known this had happened, but on that dreadful day I was 're-united' with my old boss, I was dragged back in to the mafia, I had no choice, I couldn't, and still cant tell you why, but I could not say no.
I hadn't been at school for a week or so, you messaged me, freaking out, I was in pain, I had no way of contacting you, yes I could receive your messages but none of mine could've been sent, it was impossible, while I was there they'd force me to go back to my old ways, only, now I had to have an underling, I was being made to raise a strange looking young male into the mafia boss I used to be.
I felt terrible for the kid, but I had to be hard on him... otherwise id get called back, and I really did not want to be called back, I came to learn that the kids name was Ryūnosuke Akutagawa, he had been mentally and physically tortured by the boss, just as I was, that was rather obvious...
Id filed for release a week later, I had to see you, I was missing something, that something was you, I couldn't tell you where I had been, what I had been doing or why id one missing, I had to keep that all hidden away.
When I had walked in to school the next day, you looked fine, my absence didn't seem to have bothered you at all, that hurt... But as soon as you noticed my presence I saw your mood drop, you jump up from the chair and embraced me in the warmest hug id had in a while, I winced at the feeling, due to the many injuries I acquired during my time back at the mafia, but I didn't show you I was in pain.
You had pulled away by the time I had come back to my senses, you'd told me you missed me, but by the way id seen you only minutes before that, it really hadn't looked like you missed me all that much.
The rest of that day, you would not leave my side, I liked that, but didn't know if that adoration you had towards me was real, id liked to have believed you truly cared and adored me, but my gut was telling me otherwise.
I felt a sinking feeling in my gut that day, the image of you being happy without me was burned into my brain, and it was torturing me slowly, the pain was excruciating.
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A Final Letter To You, My Love
Fanfiction!this is a soukoku angst! Dazai, about to reach his end, writes a note to the one person he's ever loved.. chuuya nakahara. The letter is filled with memories from the day they met, til the day he met his end. Chapters are meant to be short! Not si...
