You slowly started finding new friends and new people that made you happy, you slowly started drifting away, I was loosing you, and as I was loosing you.. I was loosing myself along with you. I wasn't willing to loose you, but I felt like I had no choice, after all, all I care for is always lost.
I tried speaking to you that day, but the fear within me wouldn't let me move, wouldn't let me talk, wouldn't let me think your name without completely breaking down into millions of little pieces, you were forgetting about me, but as you were forgetting, my love was growing and my soul was fading.
I loved you, Chuuya, but you didn't love me, you left me without any hesitation, my missing presence didn't bother you one bit, or at least I didn't think it did.
I loved you from day 1, that love was ever growing, id been roped back into the mafia and id no way out, I was in it till death, so that's just what id do.
that's why, I stand outside your door now, the date is December 3rd 2011, 23:17 writing this letter, this will be the last you ever hear from me, I'll disappear from yours and everyone else's lives. Theres no saving me now, I decided to try living again, I tried living for you, but you left, so I must leave aswell... this is my final goodbye to you... my love, I don't know whether you'd throw this away or even if you bothered reading it, but its here, a final letter to you... my love.
this is goodbye.
-Dazai Osamu
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A Final Letter To You, My Love
Fanfiction!this is a soukoku angst! Dazai, about to reach his end, writes a note to the one person he's ever loved.. chuuya nakahara. The letter is filled with memories from the day they met, til the day he met his end. Chapters are meant to be short! Not si...
