You're Different to Me

Conflicts Arise

I felt the knife begin to break my skin as he pushed it further against my neck. Frank turned around trying to get me out of his grasp. The closer he got and the more I struggled, the more blood began to pour down onto my hoodie.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" Frank yelled with anger.
"She's not one of us and you know it, just give it up. I want the pleasure of hearing her scream." He said with a quiet laugh in his voice. Frank tried his best to get close to me, but with every step, I felt myself begin to choke on my own blood. I coughed as it began to drip out of my mouth.
"Just go to fucking trial you know the rules if you hurt anyone at the base." Frank tried reasoning with him.
"Why would I go to trial when I have a helpless little girl right here, just a free piece of fun outside of trial." He sneered.
I choked on some blood, spitting it out to speak.
"Helpless, god you're fucking stupid." Something in my brain switched, I felt like a completely different person. I felt strength throughout my body. I grabbed his hand holding the knife to my throat and ripped it away with ease. I quickly got to my feet still holding his arm and punched him as hard as I could in the face. He stumbled backward becoming enraged as he swung at me again with his knife. I dodged down under his swing, through my eyes, I saw time slow down significantly as I gripped my new knife tightly in my grip. I flipped it effortlessly in my hand and placed my thumb against the back of the grip for support. I grabbed the top of his mask holding his head in place as I plunged my knife deep into his neck. He fell backward to the ground as I sat on top of him, twisting and pushing my knife further into his throat.
"Don't you ever, fucking touch me again", my words pushing the knife all the way to the grip. He stopped moving and lay flat on the ground. I ripped my knife from him and rose to my feet. I cleaned my weapon against the sleeve of my hoodie and grabbed Frank's hand to lead us inside the cabin. We made our way down the hallway until I opened the door to his room and shut it behind him. I felt myself snap out of whoever I just became as I ripped off my mask holding my neck to try and stop the bleeding. I began to choke again as more blood spilled out. Frank quickly grabbed a gel gauze pad and held it to my wound.
"Don't worry, I notice the entity has started to efficiently heal you. It should close in a minute." He said while hugging me from behind holding me tight with his other arm. Soon enough, I felt the choking feeling beginning to fade and become a stinging feeling. For the time being, we attached the pad to my neck with medical tape to allow it to fully heal. I sat on the edge of the bed, holding the knife in my now bloodied hands, unable to forget the scene that I had just caused... I did that... by myself. Frank lifted his mask and knelt down in front of me to be at eye level. He held my face with both hands, tilting me to be able to look into his eyes.
He laughed slightly, trying to lighten the mood.
"That's my girl. You kicked his ass." He smiled.
"I didn't feel like myself, something switched in my mind. It was terrifying." I said with a shakiness in my voice. Frank sat on the edge of the bed next to me and pulled my body sideways into his lap. He held my back up with his left arm while running his fingers through my hair with his right.
"I know this is hard right now, but in all honesty, what happened was the best possible outcome. You felt that surge of power I assume?" It felt like he knew what I was thinking already.
"It felt like all my muscles tensed as time slowed down, it felt like my body was reacting before my brain could tell me what to do. I... I hurt him." My eyes began to tear up, he wiped them as my tears fell.
"The entity has accepted you onto our side, you'll never go into trial on the other side again. I can protect you here." He tried to sound uplifting.
"I don't know... I completely locked up, seeing that man like that." I started shaking.
"It'll get easier I promise"
"I don't want it to get easier." I said slightly raising my voice, " I don't want to hurt anyone I don't want to KILL anyone." A slight frown appeared on his face and he sighed.
"You don't have to, okay?.. just... just follow me around when I go to trial. I won't force you to do anything you don't want to do. I'm only trying because I love you and I just want to do everything I can." He sounded sad, which made my heart skink.
"I didn't mean to raise my voice at you, I'm sorry Frank, I love you too... I just don't know how to react right now... I don't know how to think-" I stopped speaking as he held me tighter in his arms.
"Everything is okay, we can get through anything together. No matter what challenges come our way, we overcome them and move forward." His words moved me, I felt my anxiety shrinking.
"I can go to trial with you if you think I should. I'll trust your judgment." I said in a quieter tone. His face softened as he began to smile.
"Let's try again tomorrow then, you don't have to do anything you don't feel comfortable with. At least having you in the trial while I take care of it should appease the entity." He said reassuringly.
"Okay," I said trying to feel confident. "Let's go to trial tomorrow."