just writing to get this out of my mind for awhile
ive realized ive been shoving everyone to the side and refusing help just because i feel like thats whats best for me but i havent actually thought about what im going to do without that help
so now ive just been a bit upset because its gotten to that point where i do need that help and its, well, not there.
so i dont know what to do
i dont know how to go about it and i dont know if i should reach out to anyone because i dont know if theyll take it lightly after stopping myself from being helped by those same people
i dont even know how theyll help me, and i dont know why i need the help
i feel like i just need closure. but what closure is there to give? i mean, i cant sugarcoat it... theres not much that can be done with my situation. because ill probably end up coming back for that closure. again, and again. and itll just make me feel worse knowing to obtain that closure i have to be a bother to someone with my presence.
i refused help because i got too much before
because i was scared that, all that help would only begin to annoy whoever was helping me
and then my situation would be worse
i was scared i would just, get worse anyway.
but man.
i really, really needed that help. really bad. and now i feel like i waited too long.
so i dont know what to do now.
i dont know where to go from here.
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