The amount of poems i've writen in the last like 2 days are ridiculous, take a looksy wooksy uwu owo
"Sometimes I feel like Alice from Alice in Wonderland. Wanting to escape the boring bland real world and live in a fantasy land. But my own verison of it.
Where I get to fully listen to what my brain wants, where there's no such thing as getting out of hand. Where I can be free.
But I wouldn't want to fly, or jump high. I'd want to leave this circus of sadness, and get off this love carousel. Chasing your love yet never fully getting there."
"No matter how many oc's I make, no matter the charm, no matter the attractive flaws, no matter the looks, no matter the personality i attempt to create. Not a single one of them can match to you. None of them will be as perfect as you.
Please come to me, save me, cure me. I'm deathly sick with love for you, I lust for you. I can't take waiting here alone. Laying here and filling my tub with all these bloody tears.
I wish you'd just hear me speak, call to you, scream for you. I don't want you to change yourself in any other way, I just want you to want me.
I fill vomit rising, tears flowing, blood draining. I just need to feel your soft hands in mine, it's not like I'm asking you to be my wife. I just want you to be mine. I love everything about you.
I can't get over you dear, I don't think I will. I love you. You may not feel the same but I can't stop myself from loving you."
"Looking at you through your window, I've had my eye out for a little. Knockin' on your pinkish window, waving at you real slow.
You scream in fear and shut the curtains. I smile and laugh and look over the photos of us. This night was the only one I got brave and asked for your attention to notice my presence.
I want to taste your skin in my teeth. I love it when I hear your breathing, I hope one day I won't have to take my leave and let you sleep alone.
Feeling like I got some poison in me, I chase you down for another beautiful photo. But you run away, no matter, I love a game of tag~
Grabbed your hair and covered your mouth, take you back out of the 'lot. In my car, windows tinted. I smile to you, my darling tied up and frightened.
Knowing from now on, you'll never go. I hold you dearly every morning, keeping you close. Knowing you'll change your mind one day, but haven't yet. Treating it like a game. But I don't care, as long as you're safe, w̴̍̅i̵̽̅t̴̾̌h̸̎͝ ̶͗͝ṃ̴̋e̷̎͋ A̶̛͛n̴̾͊d̷̆͝ ̶̏̅m̴̉̅ȅ̸͗,̵͊̉ ̴̋͊ã̶̍l̵̊͠o̵̻̐n̵̔̉ë̷́̕.̷̿̍"
"As I sip from my champagne and swallow the sparkling liquid slowly, my emotions flair and sparks go off in my brain. It's truly the season of romance; Autumn. It's chill, beautiful, calm, and just perfect for a romantic outing.
My brain makes me think of all the beautiful souls I'd love to be with and take out, but I'm quickly reminded of why I can't exist with both in the same reality as mine. It hurts me quite a bit.
But nevertheless I sip again, shivers going down my back. I imagine how fun it'd be to share such a drink with any one of my dearest crushes. Getting low blood flow feelings as we get a tad tipsy? Oh it'd be but a dream"
"I feel my emotions stur up once again, my heart a physical warm in my chest. My eyes lay upon a beautiful somebody who passed by, distracting my nervousness and making me focus on my attraction.
I couldn't see the stranger's face but I could see what attracted me to them clearer then the cloudless sky above my parasel. I could feel a blush on my face and a blood rush through the rest of my body.
Low heeled black shoes, black and white stripped pants and top, black fingerless gloves, a fancy flower designed cane, firey red hair, cat eye sunglasses, and a black top hat topping it off.
The utter beauty of all of it truly hypnotized me. They were biologically a women as far as I could tell, but I couldn't care less. They could identify as a damn trash can and it'd all be the same.
However.. my mixed emotions come back, drowning out my lust for this new discovery of a person for a deep sadness. I suddenly feel just so guilty for having such problems with attraction.
My lust for loving another being thrown around like a game hurts my soul and throws my brain for loop. Like an endless Rollercoaster i can't escape. I barely know what to tell myself anymore.
I looked to the ground and away from the walking goddess I admired. I tell myself how stupid it is to chase yet another probably already taken person. Feeling like a dumb romance raging monster."
Sorry if anything is misspelled, all opinions welcome! 10-29-22
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