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It's been awhile, huh?
Yeah, it's me, Tweek. I should honestly be writing about the shit that has happened to me, because THAT would be unending content.

Though while I have used this book as a type of journal, Wattpad is just not a good working way for me to write. Not bc of shitty copyright coverage, or poor formatting of the site, or even the ads on mobile. But simply bc my solo discord server does better and faster.

The only complaint I have for discord is that there's a character limit. But I'd rather deal with that then open up a new draft everytime I need to remember what time I went to bed. (Average of 4 a.m btw)

So, friends and readers of the past, on this platform. If you have gotten this far you might be able to guess a decent amount of reasons as to why I havent bothered to write here. And well, if you guessed any of the following;
Depression.
Forgot to.
Didn't have time.
Had other things to do (physical, mental, and emotional).
Birthday/holiday.
Or all of the above.
You'd be correct!!!! :D

I literally don't think about writing here. I think I just don't care anymore. But also, I recently went thru a lot of emotional hell and my depression ramped up like fingers to a hole. Deep in quick as hell.

But it wasn't good. Cuz it's depression. My will power was shot and I didn't do much. That shit sucks for those who (somehow) aren't fellow depressed emos. (I'm goth and emo to be fair lol) But man. There was more than that.

I got a question
Have you ever, at your own birthday party, has to sleep on the floor of a stand-up shower? On top of couch cushions? No? Well, obviously I have. All I know is that next year I am not getting just one hotel room. Or I'm straight up bringing a spare mattress.

I'll be planning things better next year for real. Cuz this first come first serve bullshit for beds? Literally for BEDS? WHEN IT IS MY BIRTHDAY??? For years I haven't had just one moment to be the special person on my special day. I couldn't say; "it's my birthday!" As an excuse for stopping other people's fun or whatever because that's selfish.

When will I be allowed to be selfish? I don't want to be disregarded bc I'm not good at self advocacy. I didn't want to argue or make others feel bad or be uncomfortable or anything. Fucks sake..

...

It's been too much thinking back to what I tried convincing myself of; that it'll be a fun story, a silly uncle moment, wow what a wild story haha, it's not fucking worth it. It's not worth a birthday that isn't anymore than good.

Crazy Sunday the 15th of September today. Man.

Okay I just ate and I'm feeling so much better lol- gotta love pasta and meat and sauce. :3 anywho- I will be doing a special page to make up for being busy and disabled as shit during August. (The most unable to use my autism and adhd brain in the longest time. Turns out you should do birthday planning not last minute)

Okay what else.. uhh.. ACAB, boycott the Minecraft movie, stealing from Walmart is okay, burn CDs with pirated predators music so you don't give them support, be kind to yourself and your friends, go to therapy, drink water, and eat a snackie. :3 I think that's basically everything important lol-

Y'all are here for another piece of content too tho. It's literally the name of the book. I have plenty of content, and if I could share the rule34 without getting a warning on here I totally would. But not for the usual reasons-
Okay genuinely something really funny about me rq-

So, when I do watch adult exclusive content or look at such content, if it's video or image, I treat it like any other media. Like "such detailed animation" "oh love the pose work" "amazing colors" but it's literally Allan Red & Charlie Dompler from Smiling Friends boinking. (Bless LewdFroggo, bless Nevarky, bless Derpixon. I'm ever grateful for your high quality)