Officially Unmarried

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

"Bitaw sabi!"
Inis kong sabi. Maayos nya naman akong binaba sa pinaupo sa kama. Masama ko syang tiningnan.

"Ano bang kailangan mo sakin?!, Gusto ko ng umuwi!" He just scratch the bridge of his nose and pull the chair behind him and sat on it and then he faced me.

"No. You can't leave me anymore"
Seryosong sabi nya.

"Pake mo ba!? Aalis ako kung kailan ko gusto! Pakawalan mo na ako dito kung hindi sisigaw ako!" Pagbabanta ko pero hindi ko man lang siya nakitaan ng takot sa mukha kundi napangisi pa sya kaya lalo akong nainis.

"Scream then, scream all you want wife..no one can help you here" sabi nya kaya tumayo agad ako at hinawi ang white curtain at tiningnan ang paligid. Napanganga ako where in the middle of nowhere! Nasa isang Isla kami sa palagay ko.

"AHHHHHH!!!"
Sigaw ako nang sigaw. Ayaw kong makasama ang lalaking ito.

"Scream all you want 'cause I'm gonna make sure you will going to lose your voice once I did what's in my mind" nakangising sabi nya. Tinamba ko naman sya agad ng unan.

Padabog akong umupo at tumungo.
"Ano ba talagang kailangan mo sakin?" Seryosong tanong ko.

"I need to talk to you-"

"Usap? Gusto mong makipagusap!? Tapos gagamit ka pa ng mga ganitong eksena tsaka kidnap talaga!? Ang badoy mo naman!" Inis kong sabi.

"Alam mo ba kung gano kasama ang loob ko lalo na't kasama kita ngayon? Lalo mo lang akong pinahirapan sa ginawa mo eh, gusto ko munang lumayo..malayo sayo pero hindi mo ako pinagbigyan..gusto kong magpahinga sa lahat ng ito..matapos kong malaman ang lahat kailangan kong humanap ng lakas Akiro...kaya please...pakawalan mo na ako" sabi ko. Huminga naman sya ng malalim.

"I'm here not to stop you from leaving...I'm here to actually let you go..but first I want you to hear my side..ask me any questions that you want to ask. I'm going to answer it truly. I want your mind to be clear from all of this" sabi nya at umupo ulit sa harapan ko.

Tumahimik ako at ganon din dyan. Sobrang daming tanong ang gusto kong itanong sa kaniya simula nang malaman ko ang totoo.

"Bakit mo tinago sakin?"
Basag ko sa katahimikan.

"I'm scared that day I have no choice. I know you know that my whole entire life is always in danger since I was a kid because of my family's influence a lot of other people are so eager to put us away in business. I'm such a coward I know...naduwag ako, I can't lose you, you're the only one that I'm holding to keep on living, I love you since I was just 7 years old. I saw you in a library you were finding something and it's kind of amusing how you captured be that time..I don't know what is your doing in the library but I find it cute because some people thier are college and reading thier books but you were the only one who reads a fairytale story in a library and I always going to treasure that day..I do anything for you to fall for me and you did, I'm so happy when you said that you loved me..I asked your father for you to marry me and he did...but when I'am in the middle of my happiness something happens and that leads me to push you away...to keep you away from danger. Staying with me is not safe. My whole life is in danger. You have no idea that I love you for almost 20 years now.. apparently half of my life..I'm secretly inlove with you and falling for you every single counts. I'm sorry wife for being such a coward I should've let you stay, I should've let you be with me, I should've give the time for us to love each other to not hurt each other like this...You have no idea how much I love you more than you love me," he stops and stares at me. My eyes are teary right now. Can't handle everything that he says.

"I lost my grandparents when I was just a kid...I found out that it was all planned and I will not going to stop until I find them and now they're trying to harm you and my family.. that's why I need to be strong and firm outside..I distance myself on my family and on you, I'm also hurting inside wife..I can't handle the pain..I can't fight alone, Kailangan ko ng pahinga at ikaw lang 'yun..pero masyado akong naduwag at mas piniling itaboy ka para malayo saakin, duwag ako...duwag ako na nawala ka...kayo. I always pretending that I'm not affected but inside I'm slowly giving up but I need to stand for myself for everyone that's counting in me..even if you're far..I know you believe in me..You always complained that I'm not the true me when I'm with you but here I'am, I'm willing to show you everything that is in me that's how much I love you wife..." His eyes are bloodshot. He's about to cry. He touched my hands and caresses it. I can't see his face clearly 'cause my vision got blury because of my teary eyes.

"What else do you want to know?"
He gently ask. I looked at him.

"How did you meet Xien?"
I ask him. His reaction was still the same I can see that he's really willing to tell me everything.

"I meet Xien 7 years ago, she's a secret agent and dad hired her and her now husband Lazarious..I'm thankful to them that they never leave my side..they taught me how to be strong
and they help me until now to find whoever is threatening our lives. They're like my buddy guards. They become my friend and I got a punch form Xien when I push you away that day...but she understands me she said she just want to punch me for you 'cause I hurted you. Lazarious is Xien husband" he said. I'm still in shock and still processing everything that he said. Did he really fall inlove to Xien.

"D-did you really fall inlove to Xien?"
I ask. He chuckled and wipe the tears that coming out to my eyes.

"No...I would not..I know that I could never love someone but you...Ikaw lang eh" sabi nya at pinisil pa ang ilong ko. Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko para akong batang pinapahid Ang luha nya.

"I'm sorry..I wasn't there..I understand you, I'm not mad at you..I'm mad at myself because I can't do anything to ease the pain that you're feeling in those times. I could've stay with you-"

"Shh it's not your fault baby...stop crying" he hush me and wipe the tears that's coming into my eyes. He came closer to me.

"You know everything now wife..Wala na akong itatago sayo..Wala na ring bumabagabag sa dibdib ko kasi nasabi ko na sayo, kung gusto mo pa ring umalis hindi kita pipigilan-"

"Pagkatapos ng lahat ng sinabi mo sa tingin mo iiwanan pa kita!?" Inis kong sabi at hinampas siya.

"Hindi na ulit kita iiwan..I will stay with you and fight all the challenges together.."

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