Finding themselves

Hormones and hang ups

Jimin got home and threw himself on the sofa,
"damn you Jungkook why did you kiss me?"
He recalled how he'd felt how much he'd wanted to carry on to see where it would lead.
"Argh! Why is he the only one that makes me feel this way!"
His phone pinged it was a text from Tae,
"What happened to you? Jungkook came back alone?"
"He kissed me,"
"WHAT!details!!"
"Nothing to say, he kissed me I pushed him away and got a taxi home."
"Shit! He looked confused when he came back in"
"Probably regretting what he did."
"No he cornered RM said he knew something was wrong with you that you'd told him and wanted to know why he'd hidden it "
"Fuck, I hope he didn't pressure RM"
"It's ok, RM kept his cool and said it was a personal thing that you didn't want shared and it was up to you who you chose to tell."
"Oops I bet that went down well"
"Actually he asked RM to make sure you took care of yourself"
"Really?"
"Yes really, now have a snack then go to bed, RM said we have a Radio interview tomorrow at two so rest up no exercising! And eat properly! A car will pick you up."
"Your quite bossy you know that?"
"Night Jimin."
Jimin sighed, he showered dressing in pale blue pjs, he went to the kitchen and ate some toast with a glass of milk then went to bed, reading for a while before succumbing to sleep.
He had a lazy morning reading and watching Tv. After cooking some food he washed and dressed going to the door when the buzzer sounded. He walked to the car about to step in when he saw Jungkook sitting there.
"Hello Jimin," the other said his eyes raking over him.
"Hi "Jimin mumbled sitting down and looking out the window. Jungkook suddenly leaned over clipping him in the seatbelt." Better to be safe," he said his direct gaze on Jimins face.
"Mmm er thanks."
He stared out the window all the while conscious of the others nearness. He felt a hand settle on his brushing his thumb back and forth across Jimins smaller hand.
Jimin pulled his hand away sitting with it in his lap.
"That's not friendly," the other murmured.
"Friends don't play handsy," Jimin retorted.
"Lovers do,"
"Ex lovers don't ,"
Jungkook let out a sigh, this wasn't going to be easy, Jimin had always given into him before, this Jimin was fluffy on the outside but an angry bundle inside.
They arrived at their destination and walked in meeting the others inside . They were taken to the recording studio and introduced to the interviewer then sat around a table with mics in front of them.

Well we have a well known group for you here today would you like to introduce yourselves
They did so
Now you have all fulfilled your military duty what can we expect?
RM;Well obviously we have grown up as have our fans, we hope they will continue to support us in our endeavours.
Was it hard being apart for that long?
HOBI; it was strange, we are so used to each other it felt like something was missing do you agree?
JUNGKOOK: I found myself doing things more for myself, it was very strange to not have the others there, if I'm honest coming out left me confused on how I should be as everything had changed.
Jimin you are tbe last to leave how's it been for you?
JIMIN:I am at a loss to describe it, you expect things to be the same, people to be the same but....., well, it's never going to be like it was.
Have you found that special person in your lives yet?
TAE: we don't want to upset fans!
JIN: we live in hope but are just glad to be back together.
SUGA: whoever took one of us on would have to take the rest of us too!
Did you keep the songwriting up?
SUGA:well  RM, Jin and I have been back a little longer and have a few ideas.
We can't wait to hear them, now tell us what do you think of how fans ship some of you?
JIMIN: we can't help how fans feel but when they play the ships of against each other it can be rowdy.
Ha,ha..., so is it Jikook or Taekook , Vmin?
RM:we will let fans choose
Fans were quite vocal in their dismay about you all going to the military, how did that affect you?
JIN: obviously there was talk before about exemption shorter service many things, we know fans hoped for this, but it's finally done, yes it was a long time away, yes we know it affected the economy somewhat, who knew we had that influence!! But here we are and here we will stay.
Well on behalf of S Korea we are glad you are back and look forward to a brighter future thank you
The group stayed for photos then thanked the radio station and left.
Jimin found he was back in a car with Jungkook who was mulling over how he could get more of Jimins time.
"Er Jimin you left some stuff at mine do you want to collect it?"
"Fine.." Jimin muttered ,so the driver drove them both to Jungkooks
Going in Jimin looked around the place that had been his home.
"Where is it?"
"What?"
"My stuff?"
"Your in a hurry...."
"I'm meeting Taemin later,"
"Why?"
"We are going out for a meal,"
"You know he fancies you?"
"Well it's nice someone does...."
"Jimin don't go out with him,"
"Why not?"
"Because you still like me....,don't you?"
Jungkook stepped towards Jimin purposely .
"I...., it doesn't m-matter, I'm moving on...."
"I don't want you too..."
"Ha,why, you can and I can't ?"
"I was wrong Jimin..., I don't want to lose you."
"Pfft, not what you said, is it because you can't have me that you want me now?"
Jungkook suddenly grabbed Jimin to him, staring deeply into his eyes and pressing himself against him.
"I've always wanted you I just felt confused, "
"W-well too bad I'll let someone else have me!"
Jungkook plastered his lips against Jimins slipping his hands under Jimins top. It was like electricity crackling between them, Jimin moaned he'd always been turned on by Jungkooks kisses. He ran his hands up Jungkooks muscled chest  wanting to touch him. He was being walked backwards to the bedroom.
"I need you Jimin?"
Jimin felt the pull but made it plain," this is a one off to get it out of our system ," he argued.
Jungkook said nothing but pushed Jimin down on the bed, eyes full of lust.
"God your beautiful," he said making short work of Jimins belt buckle and zip tugging his jeans off his eyes taking in the bulge in Jimins boxers.
He stepped back, tugging off his own top displaying prominent abs ,  he striped off his clothes watching as Jimin blushed.
"Why so shy you've seen me many times?"
"Not for a while......"
Jungkook pulled at Jimins top til it came off, a slight hiss showing his appreciation.
Lastly he took Jimins boxers off, a groan coming from Jungkooks mouth as he observed the sight of Jimin  hard and needy.
He lay next to Jimin reaching for him pulling him across his chest and plundering his lips one hand holding the back of Jimins head the other splayed across his back.
Jimin was aroused he ground against the other feeling the length of Jungkook pressing against him.
Suddenly Jungkook flipped them over so Jimin was beneath him, he kissed his way down Jimin deliberately marking his collarbone a spot he knew turned Jimin on.
He knelt between Jimins legs his hands pushing Jimins thighs open and back displaying his puckered hole. Jimin moaned loudly pre cum leaking out of him. Jungkook was so hard at the sight he wanted to fuck him there and then but he held on, spat on his fingers and pushed an intrusive finger into Jimin .
"Fuck your so tight," he groaned.
Jimin  writhed in pleasure moaning," more...."
Jungkook skilfully pressed fingers in knowing how to wait for Jimin to become accustomed to them.
His own member was hard with arousal and he knew he couldn't wait anymore, it had been so long.
Removing his fingers he aligned himself pushing in groaning at the torment of holding back til Jimin felt comfortable then unable to wait plunging in capturing zjimins pained moan with his mouth.
"Sorry baby but you're so fucking tempting," he said holding himself stilll as he seated himself deep inside.
"M-move...," Jimin said feeling full and needy.
Jungkook pulled ba ck then thrust in hard again eliciting an aroused curse from Jimin.
"Fuck...., harder Kookie!"
Jungkook held his weight on his elbows thrusting into his lover watching the erotic sight of Jimin biting his plump bottom lip as pleasure ran through him.
Jimin met each thrust his small hands gripping Jungkooks shoulders.
"Your taking me so well baby, I'm not gonna last long Jungkook panted, ramping up his thrusts.
Jimin could recognise the coil of pleasure brimming up at zjungkooks words and in seconds he released spurts of white coating them both he screamed out his pleasure.
Jungkook  watched the panting boy beneath him tip back his head as he came, he nuzzled against Jimins neck plunging hard and deep before,
"Aaaaaaargh,Jiminnnnnnn!!"
The force of his release stunned him, it was like pleasure and pain in one as Jimin clenched around him eking out every last drop.
He collapsed against Jimin but rolled them on their sides so as not to hurt him.
Hearts thudding they both lay there exhaustion taking them over. No words were spoken and their breathing gradually slowed down as they drifted off in a fulfilled pleasured sleep.
Jimin awoke first .he was hazily aware of Jungkook laying next to him and for a moment he was back in the past where he and Jungkook were together, then as his brain became more alert his panic rose, what was he doing? That's right it was a last fling wasn't it? He carefully slid out the bed clamping a hand over his mouth to muffle his pained groan. His lower back ached from the recent activity. Usually he would have a bath soaking the ache away and Jungkook would get painkillers and look after him, obviously the more they did it the less it ached but if they had refrained for a while this always happened.
He quietly picked his clothes up vanishing into the bathroom doing his best to wash off what he could at the sink before dressing , then slipping out catching himself staring at the sight of Jungkook asleep the cover riding low on his hips. He was scared of him waking, off the knowing look he would get, showing Jimin how weak he was in the others presence.
He made it out of the apartment hailing a taxi and getting home, finally sinking into a much needed bath leaning back to let tears of self pity run down his face. He was still so sure that Jungkook didn't want him permanently despite what RM and Tae thought , yes they had sex but that was something they were always compatible in but Jimins lack of self confidence wouldn't let him believe they could have more, he also knew despite his angry words he would never consider being intimate with anyone else.
He dragged himself out the bath taking painkillers and crawling into bed knowing he should eat but having no inclination to do so. Turning off his phone he lay down falling deeply asleep his brain shutting off to the what ifs and why's , the need to block out unwelcome thoughts taking over and letting him succumb to an exhausted sleep.
Jungkook woke feeling content as his eyes opened he said," Jiminee ..." reaching for him but his hands came up empty, he shot up seeing the empty bed and he looked around," Jimin?"
Silence , he looked around saw Jimins clothes gone,no,no this wasn't happening. He quickly got up checking the apartment was empty.
"Damn it," he muttered, why had he gone? He remembered Jimins words,'last fling', no way he thought grabbing his phone and calling Jimin number but not getting through. "Fuck!" He yelled to the empty room. He knew from experience that after a session like they had Jimin would be aching and uncomfortable, normally he would take care of him but now?
Picking a nearby book up he threw it across the room angrily, this was not how he imagined their mutual lovemaking ending up, he calmed himself down, Jimin couldn't avoid him they were going as a group to a holiday location to rebuild their connection and work on songs and plan they're comeback .it was in two days time, they had the days to pack and get ready and he was going to makesure they came back as the couple they were meant to be!