Finding themselves

Maknae erupts

Jimin fumbled with the crutches he'd been given to stop putting weight on his foot. He'd been told off for not taking better care and knew he was guilty.
He'd gone with Jin to his interview and was now back at his temporary home.
He looked at his phone seeing missed calls from Jungkook. He huffed feeling self righteous, Kookie was not going to make him play his game.
The others would be back tomorrow, that will give him enough time to put up his defences, stay strong.
He suddenly thought how zjungkook had looked after and worried about him when he damaged his foot, didn't that mean he cared?
NO! The little devil on his shoulder said, the others looked after you too!
Jungkook said he didn't just want to be good friends...
SO? He's just a horny devil anyone would do.
The doorbell rang and Jimin answered amazed to see Jungkook there.
"Your not supposed to be back until tomorrow," he said.
"Phone broken? Run out of battery?" Jungkook said glaring at the other.
"No,"
"So why didn't you answer my calls and texts?"
"I didn't know I had to report to you..., it's not like we are an item is it?"
"So your still in denial are you, we slept together for gods sake."
"Doesn't mean anything, I was just handy it could have been anyone,"
Jungkook stepped back in shock.
"You really think that? Your opinion of me is that low, Damn I knew you were hurt, but I apologised tried to show I cared..., this though....., I don't think we should get back together..., not if you think that about me, you win we are over."
He turned and left, Jimin dropped his crutches tears rolling down his face, why had he said that? Deep down he knew Jungkook wasn't like that, had he wanted revenge did he want to make the other hurt like he had? He was ashamed of himself, he wasn't normally like that.
At that moment his phone pinged, looking at it he saw Tae had sent him a video with the message, "you need to see this."
He pressed play watching a drunken Suga and Jungkook, he sobbed as Jungkook said he wanted him.
He slid to the floor crying for his lost love, this time around he knew it was his fault, his need for revenge had made him act out of character and now he'd lost hime for good.
He huddled into a ball not caring how many hours passed he got cold as the evening wore on but didn't move, he didn't care what happened to him, his life wasn't worth much now, he didn't care for the future.
Jungkook called Tae to join him at a bar. He was depressed, why did Jimin think so badly of him? He'd tried to apologise but it had fallen on deaf ears,
'"Oh, oh what's up now? You've been a miserable shit which is why we all agreed to come back early, no one could stand your mood. Did you see Jimin and talk it out?"
"We're finished once and for all, he accused me of using him, said I would have had sex with anyone but he just happened to be nearest! Why would he think that?" Jungkook huffed.
"Oh I dunno, let's say your back from the military and you are excited to see your boyfriend only to find he wants more from life your not enough he wants to try new things or people?"
"You know I didn't mean it!"
"But what effect would that have on someone who had felt secure in his love only to hear he was mistaken?"
"Damn it Tae I was confused!"
"And so is Jimin....., what he thought he had wasn't real according to you , so how does he know if your telling the truth or lying right now?"
"But we had sex!"
"Duh you had sex before and you still gave up on him!"
Jungkook could now see it for what it was....Jimin had put his defence's up not wanting to get hurt again.
"I got angry at him blew my top," Jungkook mumbled.
"Jesus Kook! Way to go , I sent him that video he knows how you feel and he's probably crying right now!"
"I'll call him!" He tried ringing but Jimins phone was off.
"Let's go to where he is, come on...." Tae urged
Getting the car he drove to where Jungkook directed. They rang the doorbell but no answer.
"Do you know the code on the lock?" Tae asked.
"No, but he's not in anyway..., where could he have gone?"
"It's cold so he would have taken a taxi somewhere and he's on crutches RM said ."
"If we had the code we could wait for him..."Jungkook said.
"Maybe Jimin changed it when he moved in.... What's his favourite numbers?"
"1315..."
Tae pressed the numbers and they heard a click signalling the lock opening.
"Great let's Go in...."
They both stepped in halting suddenly at what was in front of them. Jimin lay on the floor curled up his crutches on the floor too. His closed eyes looked puffy and red.
Jungkook knelt beside the smaller male," Jesus he's freezing!"
He picked jimin up easily carrying him to the sofa and sat down with him on his lap and hugged him close.
"K-Kookie ......,it's cold," Jimin curled himself against Jungkook not completely with it but feeling safe.
"I know baby, but you'll soon be warm ,"
Tae looked at the pair feeling like a third wheel.
"I'm going Kook take care of him,"
Jungkook nodded not seeing him go all his attention on Jimin.
He saw a throw on the back of the sofa, standing up he lay jimin down then lay close next to him pulling the throw over them. His arms held onto Jimin who snuggled up to him no space between them. Both dropped off into a deep sleep.
Jungkook was awoken by Jimin crying out in his sleep.
"Kookie...,I'm sorry don't leave me again......"
He was fidgeting holding his hands out as if to hold onto something..." Kookieeee.... "
"Jimin...., Jimin wake up!" Jungkook shook him gently hating the pain he heard in Jimins voice.
"Mmm? Kookie? What..., "
"You were having a nightmare babe, I'm here I'm not leaving you."
Jimin was suddenly alert," jungkook, I, I'm ashamed of myself, your right to drop me," he tried moving but two strong arms held him close.
"Hush..., you were hurt...., I understand.. can't say it didn't hurt what you said as it did but my words were worse."
"I don't think your really like that..., I'm embarrassed how  easily I said it."
"We have both said things we didn't mean but my words were from confusion, I hated being without you in the military, hated lying about being in a gay relationship, we both agreed we didn't want to give them cause for dislike , but I felt like I had lost you and my identity, I closed off my emotions so when you came back I didn't feel I had it in me to give you the relationship we had, but the feelings were there of course and things became clearer, I knew I'd fucked up and was desperate to get you back."
"It did hurt Kookie, all that time in the military the only thing that kept me sane was you, a few guessed I was gay, most didn't care but one bullied me whenever he could."
"Jimin...,I love you and will try and make it up to you,"
"I love you too, I always have since I first annoyed you when the group formed, I couldn't leave you alone,"
"I'm glad you persevered."
Jimin hugged him, using his hand he tilted the smaller boys face up claiming his lips in a passionate kiss.
"You taste of soju ?"
"I was drowning my sorrows,"hmm, becoming a habit eh? Tae sent me a video,"
"Is it bad? I haven't seen it."
Jimin laughed fished his phone out and pressed play.
"Oh god, I sound so cheesy!!"
"It's sweet!"
"God I can't believe I was that bad!"
"What about Suga? He's hilarious!"
"We both wrote sad songs about ourselves...."
"Well we will have to wait and see what they may sound like, mine isn't that great but I'm sure yours is great."
"Right...., I don't want to hear you put yourself down again, be more positive!"
"Ok,ok...but..."
"No buts! I'll have to punish you if I hear things like that again!"
"That sounds pervy!!"
"Hmm maybe,wanna try?"
"Kookie you still manage to make me go red!!"
"I like the colour red......."
Jimins stomach suddenly gurgled,
"Oops sorry,"
"What food have you got here I'll make you something," jungkook said getting up and going to the kitchen only to be stopped by Jimin.
"No! Er I mean, I'm fine no worries ," he stated nervously.
Jungkook stared at him then at the kitchen, suddenly walking into it and opening the fridge then the cupboards before coming to stand in front of Jimin hands on hips .
"Why have you got an apple and nothing else in the kitchen?"
Jimin scowled "I don't like it here, I felt alone and betrayed I wasn't bothered about things."
Jungkook stared at the other hard then walked down the hall opening doors til he came to Jimins bedroom. Here too it seemed empty , he grabbed Jimins still full suitcase and grabbed the few items that were in the cupboards, looked around to make sure he hadn't forgotten anything and the case out.
"Anything else here?"
"Er no just shoes and coat why what are you doing with my stuff?"
"I'm taking you home"
Jimins heart felt like it would burst he felt so happy.
"But I should clean up here......!"
"What on crutches? It's a company apartment they have cleaners so let's go, we can eat at ours.... Then you get a punishment for not taking care of yourself!!"
Jimin gulped oh shit what had he let himself in for!!