Finding themselves

Feeling hurt

Jimin had many missed calls over the next two days from Jungkook, text messages also.
"Why did you leave?"
"Are you ok?"
"Did you soak in bath"
"Have you got painkillers"
"Sorry if I was too hard on you."
Jimin tried to be annoyed but could see that Jungkook still treated him as he had when they were together, caring if he was uncomfortable.
He wrote one text back,
"I'm ok"
Short and to the point. He'd be lying if he said he wasn't close to going to Jungkooks but he needed to give the other space to adjust without him or prove he really wanted Jimin.
He packed his clothes for the break , on the day he deliberately wore tight jeans and oversized t shirt that showed of his neck and collarbone. A minibus arrived and climbing in he saw Tae, Jungkook and Hobi were inside already. Jungkooks stare and shift in his seat showed he wanted Jimin next to him but he sat with Tae who gave a knowing grin.
"Are you ready for our adventure?" Hobi asked smiling across at him. Jimin nodded smiling back .
"Have you been busy Jimin, I've not seen you since our night out?"
"No Hobi I just stayed in."
His words eased Jungkook slightly as he'd wondered if Jimin had been with Taemin.
"Taemin was worried about you leaving suddenly," Tae said.
"It's ok I've spoken to him and apologised, I said we can meet up when we get back."
"He has a thing for you doesn't he" Tae laughed
Jungkook gritted his teeth, why was Tae trying to praise Taemin,
"He's very friendly," Jimin agreed
The next stop picked up Jin and RM who lived in the same building, shortly after Suga boarded and they were on their way.
"Anyone know what this place is like?" Tae questioned
"Nope, just that it's not in a town and has a lake," RM said.
"I hope we get our own rooms, no offence fellas but bunking in the military has made me appreciate my own space more," Suga said.
"You mean you can nap while pretending to work?" Jimin laughed. Suga gave him a grin.
Two hours later they arrived, a large house with a lake to one side and a jetty with accommodation on it was in front of them, walking to the house they saw a large campervan parked on the grass.
They went inside the house where an open plan sitting room and kitchen were. On the table was a note and a bucket. RM read the note.
Going by age pull a number from the bucket, this allocates the room you will stay in, no changes to this arrrangment, common areas are the kitchen and sitting room the games room and the garden area
They lined up each pulling out a slip of paper waiting til the last to open it.
Rm....upper floor first door on the right
Jin.... Downstairs bedroom next to sitting room
Tae...upper floor door opposite staircase
Jimin......boathouse room 2
Suga.....campervan
Hobi....upper floor last door on the left
Jungkook....boathouse room 1
Jimin couldn't believe it, what were the odds, Tae raised his eyebrows and shrugged as Jimin looked at him pouting his head filled with what ifs.
Jungkook inwardly smirked.
Everyone looked around the house first admiring the rooms, going outside they looked inside Sugas campervan
"Wow this is nice!" Jin said
Suga sat himself down," and it's all mine !" He laughed.
Going to the boathouse everyone moaned they had got a good deal, each room had an en-suite and an outside balcony.
"I can sit and read, or write songs out here," Jimin muttered.
They decided everyone should unpack then meet at the house for a snack lunch, Jin promised to cook that night.
Everyone left to go to their rooms, Jimin turning to go back into his when Jungkook caught hold of his arm.
"Why did you leave that day?"
"Why does it matter?"
"I was worried,"
"About what?"
"Well...,I wasn't to gentle when we made love...."
"Don't you mean when we fucked?"
"Jimin don't...."
"Don't what speak the truth, we fucked we didn't make love because you don't know what that is, remember and I left because nothing was keeping me there...."
Jungkook stepped back as if he'd been hit, hearing Jimin say those words hurt ...., he could only imagine how Jimin had felt hearing the words he'd spoken on his return, it was heartbreaking and he felt a pain in his chest.
"Jimin, I know you don't believe me right now, but I do love you, I know I've hurt you tremendously and I can only apologise but please don't give up on me."
He turned and went into his room leaving Jimin staring after him. He'd seen the hurt on Jungkooks face when he'd spoken to him and he felt guilty. It wasn't his normal nature to hurt anyone. He knew he was taking his anger out on Jungkook but he couldn't seem to help it, he'd felt betrayed and worthless and needed to vent, he vowed to try acting normal , not make Jungkook jealous as the other two suggested but just live day by day and see where it took him. He felt like a weight had been lifted off him.
After he'd unpacked he went from his room taking a deep breath he knocked on Jungkooks door shouting,
"Come on Kookie it's lunch time," he started walking hearing the door behind him open and footsteps hurrying to catch him up.
Neither spoke they just walked together. Up to the house going into the kitchen and helping everyone with the food. They sat round the table chatting.
"There's a shed with a table tennis table, art stuff, bikes and fishing rods " RM said in between bites.
"Great I like painting," Jungkook murmured
"Don't forget we are here to work too," Suga said," I've been scribbling down a few songs but I'd like to see some of you partake in that too,"
"I'll try but it takes me so long," Jimin said
"But their always worth it," Jin smiled
They cleared up then sat outside in the sun, Jungkook was elated when he found a punchbag and boxing gloves available and immediately started using them.
"God where does he get his energy from? Jin wanna go fishing?" Suga asked.
They collected rods and bait and walked to the lake edge.
Tae went to the games room and Jimin and RM got on bikes riding off together.
Hobi sat reading a book and the afternoon passed slowly . Jungkook joined Tae playing games and nobody noticed the afternoon wearing on.
Suga and Jin came back with fish they had caught and Jin set about cleaning them.
Hobi came in," RM and Jimin have been out for a while,"
"RM would call security if they needed them," Suga answered.
Another half hour passed and Jungkook wandered into the sitting room looking around," where's Jimin and RM?"
"They're not back yet...." Hobi said worriedly. Jungkook stepped outside looking along the drive to the road, he squinted," here they are......why are they walking?"
The others came out looking, as they got nearer they saw RM's bike looked bent and Jimin was limping trying to push his bike while RM tried to help him.
They ran over too them,
"What happened?" Jin asked
Jungkook looked at Jimin seeing a cut on his knee and he was limping pain in his eyes.RM had a graze on one arm and a guilty face.
Tae grabbed the bike off Jimin and Jungkook swung Jimin up noticing Jimin let him do it without arguing.
They all got inside and jungkook set Jimin on the sofa getting a medical kit he'd seen in the kitchen.
R M came hovering near them.
"Jimin I'm so sorry,"
"It's ok it was an accident. Jin help him clean his arm up will you?"
Warm water and cloths were brought to clean them both up,
"Why didn't you ring us?"
"I forgot my phone," Jimin said wincing as Jungkook cleaned his knee, his ankle was throbbing but he was scared to look at it.
"I broke mine," RM mumbled
"So what happened "Tae asked  as neither seemed willing to say anything.
"It's my fault, we were riding, I was too busy looking around and didn't see the hole in the road, I caught my wheel in it, the wheel bent sending me crashing onto the road but not before catching Jimin and sending him flying off his bike, Jimin your ankle you need to take your sock and shoe off."
Jungkook looked down he carefully removed zjimins trainer hearing the swift intake of breath, then he pulled his sock of and Jimin whimpered.
"Jesus it's swollen!"
"That's it!" Suga called the security who came in too see, one had been medically trained and wrapped Jimin foot in a bandage telling him to keep off it and keep it raised, also giving him pain killers.
Jimin tried laughing it off seeing the distress on RM's face.
"Hey don't look so upset, life feels normal now we have wreck it rap monster back, I've missed him!"
RM gave a small smile but still kept apologising.
Jimin kept his foot up on the sofa and his evening meal was brought to him on a tray.
After eating they sat chatting, Jimin could have cried with how painful his ankle was and wondered how he was going to sleep.
A knock came and the guard from earlier came in.
"Jimin take one of these at night it will help you to sleep, the company doctor arranged for me to pick them up at a pharmacy near here."
Jimin thanked him and then went to sit up,
"I'm sorry guys but I have to go," he said quietly but it was obvious he was in pain.
"I'll carry you there," RM offered.
"No, I'll take him I'm going too, goodnight,"
He carefully lifted Jimin up and carried him out, Jimin leaned on Jungkooks chest totally wiped out. Jungkook took him to his room.
"I need to shower but I can't I'll wash at the sink,"
"No, use the bathroom facilities then I'll was you down on the bed like they do in hospitals, I'll give you a bed bath."
"But....."
"No buts Jimin don't get shy on me I've seen it all your obviously in pain so let's get this done,"
He took Jimin to the toilet, jimin stood on his good foot used the toilet then called Jungkook in.
"Can you put me near the sink so I can clean my teeth?"
Jungkook picked him up sitting him on the vanity unit getting his toothbrush and putting on the toothpaste handing it to Jimin who quickly brushed his teeth rinsing with a cup of water.
"I could sit here and wash" he mumbled," I'm just sweaty from biking.
"Ok but I'll wash you down but first let me lift you so you can pull your shorts down a bit then you can sit back down and I'll take them off."
They accomplished this even though Jimin felt embarrassed, Jungkook lifted his T shirt off too.
"Good job you were wearing shorts and not those tight ass hugging jeans" Jungkook said.
"I like my jeans!"
"So do I but they leave nothing to the imagination."
Jungkook filled the sink with soapy water. Getting a cloth he washed Jimins face then dried it, then he took his time washing Jimin upper torso. He made it look like it wasn't affecting him but all the while he admired the body in front of him.
Eventually he'd washed Jimin down, by now Jimins ankle throbbed from hanging down.
Seeing his pain Jungkook carried him to the bed finding pj bottoms he went to Jimin,
" lift up," he gestured at the boxers,
"I-I ....."
In response Jungkook got the waistband and pulled them down before putting on the pj bottoms.
"You'll feel more comfortable,"
He got Jimin in the bed and put a pillow under his foot then fetched the sleeping tablet and a bottle of water.
"Here take this, I'll shower and come back."
"What for?"
"I'm sleeping in here, what if you need to get up in the night?"
Jimin realised it was the truth so nodded.
Jungkook quickly showered just putting shorts on normally he slept naked but didn't want Jimin feeling uncomfortable. Going into the other room he saw Jimin was already asleep.it looked like he pulled the cover off his foot as it's weight was too much .
He made sure the pillow was secure under his foot then climbed in the bed.
Jimin sighed in his sleep," Kookie"
Jungkook couldn't help kissing his head as he lay facing him, but eventually he gave in to sleep.
A few hours later he was woken by a drowsy Jimin.
"Sorry can you help me to the bathroom?"
"Sure baby hook your arms around my neck"
Jimin did so and Jungkook carried him in and made sure he was secure on his good foot then stood just outside. The toilet flushed and Jimin tried hopping to the sink to wash his hands but being drowsy put his bad foot down, yelping in pain.
Jungkook was immediately by his side helping him then carrying him back to bed, lifting the pillow under his ankle. Jimin just fell back to sleep letting out little whimpers every now and then..
jungkook placed s hand across his waist and the whimpers stopped . He fell back to sleep himself feeling calm and settled.