new kid (Judd birch x reader)

part 28

before long, i was asleep on his chest again, being woken up by people bursting through the front door and crashing into the basement. everyone else quickly stumbled down the stairs with bags in their hands. 

"whatd you guys get?" i questioned

"oh, we went to this cute little dinner that was sort of on the outskirts of town, its really cool lookin. we got pancakes, waffles, muffins, eggs, bacon, and obviously, coffeeeee" jess said, dragging out the 'e' s. 

i basically leapt off of judd at the mention of coffee. ive always loved coffee, if i go too long without it now my head hurts really badly. so it was great these little turds actually got some. blade put the bags he was holding on the small coffee table, and motioned for judd to scootch over, since he was laying across the couch. judd sat up, mmoving into the corner of the couch. i was calmly sipping on some coffee by now and finally took a moment to really pay attention to what i was smelling. it smelled AMAZING. i felt like i could smell every single food item individually. the different kinds of muffins, the eggs, the pancakes, EVERYTHING. it was such a comforting thing to experience.

after an embarassing amount of time spent dwelling on the SMELLS of food, i actually got some of the stuff i wanted, and then sat next to judd on the couch, sipping my coffee. i was so calm. that was when i heard a lighter next to me, and he was lighting a cigarette. i looked at his face while he took a hit, and slowly exhaled. before i knew it, my heart was beating out of my chest. it felt like i could barely get enough oxygen in my lungs. hes so pretty, i cant believe he likes m- 

OH MY GOD I FORGOT I TOLD HIM I HAD FEELINGS FOR HIM AND HE SEEMED TO RECIPROCATE THEM.

jesus christ i feel like im fangirling over this boy, but dear god, i think he deserves it. his beautifully dyed, messy hair, his beautiful eyes, the way he always looks and sounds angry, hes just amazing. like a god or something, its insane. words were flying through my head when i realized i was starring at him. i promptly looked back to my food as casually as i could, trying not to seem too conspicuous. i heard judd let out a slight chuckle under his breath as i turned my focus to my coffee. his laugh is so cute too. i feel like im addicted to him. all those stupid, cheesy love stories, and love songs werent lying. it really is magical. i think about him all the time, im constantly finding ways to be around him, or ways to talk to him, or ways to get his attention. i just want him all to myself. he always makes me feel so safe and protected. he feels like home. 

but anyways... 

i kept eating slowly but surely, and asked myself questions as i did. did i really wanna even attend school? sure i got to see my friends but is it worth all the stress it gives me? do i wanna keep using different substances? im not addicted to anything which im thankful for but was the temporary un-sobriety worth the hangover? so many questions i ask myself all the time and im yet to answer. i think theres a school trip of sorts coming up, im not completely sure of what its for but i know it involves basically being on a vacation with your school peers for like a week or something. ill have to look into it more, i have a feeling itd be fun to go with my friendgroup, even if i have no idea where it is we'd be going. 

"n/n"

i was snapped out of my thinking by jess saying my nickname

"huh?" i replied 

"i asked if everyone wanted to go to this abandoned library thing later tonight, everyone else answered but you" she continued

"oh hell yeah, that sounds pretty dope" i answered

"alright awesome, so we'll all go to the library tonight at.....?" jess started

"well sunsets at like 7:30 so.. 8?" jamie interjected

"alright, 8 it is." jess said

i felt kinda bad because i kinda wanted to go home for a bit or something. my social battery is just super dead and  i feel like i smell...

"alright, well then im gonna stop by my house, i smell wack." i said

"i mean.. alright but your house isnt exactly next door.. its literally the opposite direction from the school to get there from here." blade replied

"im closer. she can come to my house. i need to get cleaned up too" judd chimed in.

blade shrugged, and i silently agreed to go with judd. i grabbed whatever of my shit that littered the basement floor so i could go h- i mean, to judds house now i guess. im sure they have a washing machine there, and leahs a girl so.

moments later, me and judd were walking out the door and were on the way to his house. it was quickly getting colder outside, id be able to see my breath if i went outside at night. i sort of zoned out as we walked, thus making the walk feel significantly shorter. we got to judds house, and i walked up stairs, flopping onto his bed. 

"do you guys have a washer?" i asked

"yeah..?" judd replied

"kay great, could you put my clothes in there ?" i continued.

judd didnt answer, instead just looked at me expectantly. 

"....uhhhh.....please..?" i continued

judd nodded and reached out his hand to grab my bag, which i handed to him. he quickly disappeared down the hall. i ended up going to leah to find out where towels were. i grabbed a towel and went back to judds room,  i shut the door, and began getting undressed. once i was down to literally JUST my underwear, i heard the door open, instinctively i covered my chest with a towel and turned to see who had just came in. obviously, it was judd. i wanna say he looked super shocked and embarrassed, but he really just looked very slightly shocked. VERY slightly. but he wasnt leaving

"um do you mind?" i asked, rhetorically.

"oh, not at all." he replied.

a/n: HEY GUYS first update in a while. some people have been dming me asking me for smut... would you guys maybe want that? i wont write it if yall dont, but id put a warning and everything. but YEAH! if yall want smut lmk and thats what the next chapter will encompass. enjoy this new chapter !