Why am I like this? || Dorlene ||

Chapter 6

21st of September

What the fuck. Marlene thought, her thoughts were rushing around her head at the speed of light. Why am I like this? Why did I enjoy that kiss? What the hell is wrong with me? Marlene didn't know what to do now. Should she try to talk to the girl she kissed? Or should she just move on? Marlene had so many choices that she just couldn't decide. She tried to get her confidence up and go talk to Dorcas. What were they now? Crushing? Dating? Friends? Enemies with benefits? She didn't know. She did her hair and makeup and went to the library because she saw Dorcas in the library whenever she went down for breakfast. Marlene practically jumped down the stairs and ran down to the library. There she was. Dorcas Meadowes. Marlene walked over and sat right next to the other girl. Dorcas looked up from her book and saw Marlene. She jumped away.

"What do you want?" Dorcas blurted out quickly, she was definitely nervous.

"I want to know why the fuck you kissed me" Marlene answered in a calm tone.

"Because I like you..." Dorcas said hesitantly.

Oh, she likes me, oh, she likes me. Marlene realised.

"Is this the time I confess that I like you back?" Marlene asked.

Dorcas looked up and hugged her, but it wasn't a normal friendly hug. It was a romantic hug? A comforting hug? It was definitely the best hug Marlene had ever received. They sat there talking locked in the hug. They found out a lot of things about each other. It was the best conversation Marlene has ever had. She was late for breakfast but that was fine, it was Saturday, she was going to Hogsmeade later. She decided to take Dorcas on a "date" to Hogsmeade. They were looking around all the time to see if anyone noticed them or if they were left in peace. Marlene had stolen a few cigarettes from her parents over the summer (by a few I mean two packs) so she pulled out two. She handed one over to Dorcas.

"What is that..?" Dorcas asked nervously.

"Muggle cigarettes, bloody good for stress" Marlene answered.

She took up a lighter and lit her cigarette. She wasn't old enough but she didn't care. Dorcas was pretty hesitant about the cigarette. Marlene did not force Dorcas of course. They weren't really "friends" yet either. They just had a neutral level relationship where they had kissed once.

"Does anyone else at Hogwarts do this shit?" Dorcas asked with a trace of disgust looking at the cigarette she had received.

"Yeah, Lupin does. And probably some seventh or sixth years do" Marlene shrugged, exhaling the smoke.

"Oh" Dorcas reacted and tried lighting her cigarette. She most definitely didn't like it at first.

"Just ignore the taste" Marlene said, looking at the other girl.

They stood there chatting. Marlene felt the sudden urge to kiss Dorcas. She looked the other girl up and down. Adoring every inch. Marlene made eye contact with the second girl and stepped a bit closer.

"Can I kiss you?" Marlene asked, feeling like a complete idiot.

"Sure" Dorcas said and leaned in.

Their lips locked and they melted into a passionate kiss. Marlene felt the shorter girl hands on her shoulders, delicately gripping around her revealed skin. Marlene placed her hands around Dorcas's waist. She felt her stomach turning upside down (in a good way). She didn't want to pull away but she knew she eventually had to. They stood there. Staring at each other in silence. Getting lost in each other's eyes. Marlene looked down at her watch on her wrist. They had to go back to Hogwarts if they wanted to get back in time for curfew. They decided to not go back together to not cause any suspicion. Marlene couldn't think about anything else other than the girl.

– time skip (my wife Sage brought it to you) –

As Marlene was making her way up to the girls dorm she heard intense talk from her dorm room. By the tone of the talk she assumed the people talking were gossiping. She wanted to find out what the gossip was about and who was gossiping. She heard both girl and guy voices. Not usually there were multi-gender gossip sessions. That meant something big was up. She sped up her pace and stormed into the room, somehow quietly. In the room were: James, Remus, Lily, Mary, Peter and Sirius.

"What's up?" Marlene asked, confused.

"You might know" Peter said, a little bit too confidently

"Peter!" Lily scolded him.

"Whaddyou mean?" Marlene said nervously and quickly so her words stuck together.

"Can I say it?" James asked, looking at Lily. She nodded. "It's about you and Meadowes"

"Oh" Marlene gulped nervously.

"So..?" James asked.

"Don't pressure her!" Sirius broke into the conversation. Everyone's heads turned to him. Even Remus looked up from his book.

"Okay, fine, we kissed. Twice" Marlene confessed. Everyone looked shocked except for Sirius.

"And you didn't tell anyone?!" Mary exclaimed.

"It happened today? And yesterday? I just didn't have time" Marlene explained, losing her patience

"That's one of our quidditch enemies! Why would you do that?" James asked.

"Because I'm in love! What do you think?!" Marlene snapped and stormed off to the bathroom.

Yeah, as if I could control it! Marlene thought, almost crying. No one, not a single fucking person would've thought it was weird if it was a boy. Marlene was practically beating herself up. Why am I like this? She heard a knock on the door.

"Piss off!" Marlene hissed.

"It's just me! Sirius!" The person outside the door said. Marlene opened the door. Sirius was the only one that didn't pressure her into confessing. He walked in and sat next to her in silence. He put her arm around her in a supporting, friendly manner. The silence somehow wasn't awkward, it was comforting. Marlene laid her head on the boy's shoulder and just sat there. After a while Marlene decided to break the silence.

"So how are you and moony?" She whispered in a teasing tone.

"Uh... i forgot you knew about that" Sirius whispered back. "We're Good, really good"

"Great!" Marlene whispered excitedly.

"Tell me, in detail, what happened!" Sirius said softly (i stand by the headcanon that Sirius loved gossip)

After Marlene told him the story, in detail, they walked out of the bathroom, almost laughing. Everyone seemed confused by how Marlene's mood was so quickly brightened. She just went to sleep so everyone else would leave. They didn't. Somehow she still fell asleep. Finally happy.

Word count: 1077

A/N: Thanks for reading this far! You guys are loved <3 (just a reminder)