She slapped me hard. Umiiyak na naman siya ng malakas.
Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ito nangyari sa'kin. It never occured to me that there will be a time that I'll cheat to her.
"Kelan pa Jess?!"
I bowed my head. I felt guilty.
How could I ever done that to her?
Mahal ko siya pero bakit ako nag taksil?
Nagsawa ba ako? Galit ba ako sa kaniya? No matter of what is the reason, kasalanan ko talaga.
"It has been two months, Emily."
I slowly faced her no matter how scared I am.
And there, I saw her so heartbroken. Just like way back when we lost our first and only kid.
She smiled but I know that it's killing her.
I was about to touch her when she stopped me.
"Masaya ka ba sa kaniya? T-Then if that's the case...mas mabuti nalang pala na maghiwalay nalang tayo."
I bit my lip. Mabilis ko siyang niyakap nang dahil sa takot.
"No. No. H-Hindi tayo maghihiwalay, Hon." Natatakot kong sambit.
Why did I cheat on her again? Why would I hurt her if I love her so much?
Tears continually fell from my eyes. "Hindi mo na ako mahal. Para saan pa?"
Napailing iling ako. No. Mahal na mahal kita.
"I-I still love you, Emily. I'm sorry....I'm sorry hon."
She pushed me hard just so she could escape from my arms.
"PUTANG INA?! YOU STILL LOVE ME? SINO BA ANG NILOLOKO MO DITO JESS?"
"Kung mahal mo ako, hindi mo ako masasaktan ng ganito. H-how could you hurt me? Pati pangarap ko, akala mo wala ng pahahantungan diba?"
No. No. I will always be loving your dream. Hindi ko man napapakita ngayon, but Em....magaling ka talagang mag sulat. I'm sorry for doing this to you. I'm sorry if I let you feel like a trash.
"Tapos pati sa anak natin, ako ulit ang may kasalanan. Hindi ba?! Guess what, Jess."
"MAMAMATAY NA AKO."
Nalilito ko naman siyang tiningnan. The rain suddenly poured.
She smiled sadly. "Ang sinabi sa'yo ng Doctor ay sa stress lang hindi ba?
"W-What do you mean hon? What do you mean by dying? B-Bakit hindi ko alam?" Napaluhod kong sambit.
D-Does that mean that I'll lose her too? Iiwanan niya rin ba ako? Ng mag isa?
"I'm sorry for not telling you this early on. I lost our kid, because I already had a tumor in my brain. I had a high risk of losing her.....pero pinili ko paring dalhin siya sa sinapupunan ko."
"Hon. Yung librong sinulat ko, it's my last will from us." She said that with a smile in her face. Hindi na siya galit. Nakangiti nalang siya.
"S-Sabi ng doctor, dapat na daw akong magpa opera pagkatapos kong makunan sa anak natin."
"I don't have a fifty percent survival rate. It's only nine percent, Hon."
"K-Kaya sabi ko wag na lang. The operation would cost millions and It wouldn't guarantee my survival. Bago lang nawala ang anak natin eh. Ang duwag duwag ko kasi. I really thought that you still need me to mourn for our kid."
"But I-I don't think that's the case for now, Jess."
And there.....I realized that she will really leave me even if I stopped her.
"H-Hon, please....I'm sorry."
"Kasalanan ko lahat. Kasalanan ko lahat. S-So please don't leave me." Humahagulgol kong sambit.
The excruciating pain is just too unbearable.
No. Not now.
Marami pa akong dapat gawin para sa kaniya...
Nanginginig kong niyakap ang mga binti niya. I'm still on my knees, begging for her forgiveness that I know it won't change anything. That it's useless.
"H-Hindi pwedeng ikaw rin. Please wag niyo kong iwan mag-isa."
"M-mahal na mahal ko kayong magina ko. Please Emily, It's all my fault. It's all my fault."
"Don't lie to me like this."
If I am still dreaming I would want to wake up from this nightmare
@Miss_Acyl
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General FictionA Novellete: Jess Viel Lawrence, a man who lived a perfect life met his soulmate. What could possibly go wrong? He married the love of his life. They both had a child. They started their marriage with love. But what do you think will happen if the f...
