The silence was deafening between us , loudly it screamed as we passed one another in the halls and as we avoided each other's gazes, it'd been weeks since the wedding . my family had left the day after . I told rhaenyra I would soon make my way to dragonstone to make a claim and to hopefully train with lightrider. I did what I could to train with sun sphere but I had no teacher. I slept with the blade to the side of my bed, hopefully I'd be able to learn what I could from Daemon during my time spent there , though I'd yet to ask for Leave. already I'd grown miserable without the company of Jacerys and Lucerys . Amera herself missed the two boys , though I did have Haelena's twins to keep me busy.
I can't say I minded it , I'd much rather him ignore me then mistreat me if the marriage should go on like this I can't say I'd be too displeased. The Queen mother had expressed a discontent at my interests . Showing a disapproval of Prince Daemons gift to me.
" I'd hoped you'd grown out of your girlhood ways , but I see not, you've been seen with prince Aemond in the yard sparing ?" She asked
" yes he had offered to teach me ". I responded
" it's unbecoming of a women to wield a blade ". The queen told
" I think every women should be able to at the very least protect themselves , I may not always have someone to save me it's better to be prepared to save oneself ". I told there was a silence between us as she eyed me
" you've your husband to protect you , I should see no harm in you merely learning to defend yourself but it ends there you are not Visenya Targaryen ", she said reminding me of the women I had vocally admired in the history books as a girl
" yes my queen". I told
" how are you and my son fairing ". She asked
" we fair just fine" I answered looking to the grown .
" you two are rarely seen together, and when I do ask of you he says little to nothing , I know my son , I can tell when he's upset or hurt and since he won't tell me what's happened I suppose you'll just have to tell your queen". Alicent said calmly as we stood in her chambers
" a fight had occurred between him and Jacerys , over my decision to remain his betrothal, Aemond had been offended by Jaces words and used my choosing to further hurt Jacerys, through out the ordeal a fight had ensued, I tried to stop the two them only to end up being struck by prince Aemond, prince Aemond came to apologize but his apology was a very hallow one, then at the wedding Jacerys asked for his and my forgiveness which I granted him , I had danced with Jacerys before Prince Aemond came asking for my hand , I accepted and he began spewing words of jealousy and further slandering the boys , I told him I could not love a man who acted this way, we've yet to speak since". I confessed
" what was it he said to prince Jacerys ", Queen Alicent asked
" he called him a bastard, insinuating he was fathered by the late commander Harwin strong ". I told Alicent cleared her throat
" you must understand my son, he's suffered greatly after the loss of his eye at the hands of rhaenyra's sons , then to attempt to have his marriage taken from him there's only so much one can take , I understand your confliction as they are your childhood companions, however my son is your husband and he remains here with you , one conflict dose not absolve you of the vows you both have taken". The queen mother told
" with all due respect your majesty ,prince Aemond is a man I will not be tending to him as if he were a new born babe incapable of realizing the offense of his actions". The queen laughed at the remark, which I didn't know what to make of.
" my dear girl , men spend their whole lives needing guidance it is us who steer them toward the clear path , whilst letting them believe and pretend to have found it themselves, that is what marriage is between a man and women , my son is proud yes too proud to make the first move but that dose not mean he dose not wish for reconciliation ". She told
" why must I be the one to throw my pride away , what of me and my angers and frustrations ", I told
The queen came to me placing a hand on my face delicately
" as women we rise above the petty temperaments and rivalry's of men ". She told
" what do we have to show for it". I answered
" nothing we get nothing often that is the hero's reward for sacrifice , but the world around owes a great debt it is up to us to guide men of power , he needs you, he wants you , I see it in his face as he mopes around the castle sulking in his bitter moods , I ask you to do what he cannot ". She said just then the chamber door opened to reveal the prince himself .
" mother , Haelena told me you wish to speak to me". He said a bit caught off guard by my presence in the room.
" yes , Aemond I see you two have grown distant over the past few weeks since the wedding, what did I tell you about tending to your bride", the princes eyes stayed to the ground as he stood silent. I watched as he took a seat on the chair opposite mine
" never the less now it is time for reconciliation, I should leave you two to figure out a solution ", she said walking out of her own chambers. There was loud deafening silence. he dared not look at me as I dared not move my own gaze from the ground. I sat there in that silence pondering wether or not to say something, thinking that maybe if I held out a little longer , he'd cave and break the silence himself . When it seemed least likely I began.
" I saw it for a moment you and I ", I began lifting my sight from the ground I watched as his gaze met mine.
" we strolled through the garden , your smile was sweet and it felt as if , I'd finally discovered the real you under that unruly boy that would hurl insults at me anytime I had reached out" I confessed
" that the same boy listening to whispers of his own making , or is it the one you could never love , oh how I've forgotten their one in the same"; he spoke bitterly turning his head and gaze away from me .
" if my words have offended you Aemond , I apologize sincerely , as I said I could not possibly begin to understand your hardships , yes you were wronged and rightfully so you are upset , but the circumstances of these situations are not so black and white , if you cannot forsake your animosity's then i understand, but that is not what I ask of you?though I wish we could all live in peace you my husband and rhaenyra her husband and her sons , my family what I ask of you is to simply understand my situation, they are my family, even more so then those of whom I share blood , when you act the way that you do your forcing me — " he interrupted my speaking
" forcing you to what ? " he said annoyed
" your forcing me to choose , to choose between my family and you and selfishly I do not wish to , to choosing either means certain misery for me , that Is what you do". I told I watched as his expression softened at what I had told him, there was a moment of silence, between us , another deafening moment.
" I will admit my instigation of the situation with my nephew , he tried to take our betrothal for himself , I was ..... jealous , i thought you would leave for him , I wanted to hurt him for what he attempted , I apologize to you , it was not my intent to put you in such a position, it was most certainly not my intent to strike you". He said
" I know this husband .... I ..I ..I ... wish for us to begin anew " I said
" I wish for that as well Saelena". He told and just like that the mood of the room had changed , weeks of bitterness, resentment and avoidance withering away
" it seems my feet have grown stiff I could do with a stroll through the garden". I told feigning a stretch of my leg,
" I should accompany you as to make sure that should your legs falter or buckle in anyway there is someone to come to your aid ". He told I smiled , which he returned.
" very well then ". I said standing
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What he wrote - Aemond Targaryen ( under editing)
Fanfictionso I asked him how he became this man how did he learn to hold fruit in his hands and where is the lamb that gave you your name . Based off the show
