Sad Buddhist nun

The walk

The walk where is Tenzin he ended up telling me that he ended up loving me more than he loves his own friend or boyfriend karma. He ended up saying that he was not attracted to karma as much as he was attracted to me. I still remember him calling me by my Tibetan name and saying that he wanted to be with me more than anything else. Then he wanted to be a monk again and I am nun so we can be together.
"How romantic," I said.
He took me into an Allie, where he leaned into a kiss close desires and kiss me gently and then deeply. I never felt this kind of passion before from a former long who wants to be with me. He ended up kissing me and caressing me to the point where I wanted to take my clothing off.
" Tenzin how do you say I love you in Tibetan?"
"nga kayrâng-la gawpo yö" Tenzin whispered softly to me and traced the characters "ང་ཁྱེད་རང་ལ་དགའ་པོ་ཡོད་" next to my heart, and kissed me gently and deeply again.
He was true from the kiss and then ended up saying both in English and Tibetan would you marry me. I said yes I would and he ended up making plans to move the mustang. 
" that's where I come from is a loose strong I wish to be there again and two be senior lama there I wish to have you as my concubine as well as my wife."
"I want to be with you?"
"Rè, but you have to be a nun or be my secret love".  Came in for another kiss as he was making love to me slowly and gently but discreetly at the same time. He wanted to be with me I know that. And he wanted me more than he wanted his own boyfriend. I loved Karma as well but there was something electric with Tenzin that I couldn't explain. Every time I saw him I wanna tear my clothes off and make love to him. Why is that so wrong to be with your boyfriends lover.
we were in the throes of making love in the alley as soon as karma came into the picture he ended up being very angry at the both of us he yelled Choden and Tenzin saying why are you doing this to me. He pulled out a knife and started slashing at tenzin's face I don't know how many times I've gone through so many lovers I post karma away and he fell and hit his head he never woke up from that again I ran away with tenzin that day.
I remember having to spend some time in the hospital just to see if Tenzin needed stitches and he did it the doctor said from what I can remember and his broken English that he was going to have some permanent scars. I said I don't care I would give character for up to his face.
Have the emergency room visit or casualty room visit I think they call it that they're ended up taking us to Mus ng where Tenzin had some spiritual connections and was able to be a monk again. He said that he wanted me to be a nun and to marry him as well a Buddhist nun of all things that I didn't want to be again.
He harassed my face and then leaned in for another kiss softly he kissed my lips and then hovered around them as if he was worshipping my lips.
"Can we make love soon Tenzin" I said.
"Wait" he sad caressing my breast, almost kissing it.
Tenzin............