Ivan's POV
I was kinda confused on how Alex ended up on our tour bus, but everything happens for a reason right ?
The last thing I said to her was "Don't be sorry for something, unless you should be " then I crawled into my bed.
As I lyed there in my cold bed, I thought about myself.
Why do I feel like I'm fighting myself all the time ?
Why does it seem like this world is against me ?
Why am I so surrounded by hate, mentally and physically ?
Just why ?I have so many questions
I can't take it anymore, so I climbed out of bed and went to my suitcase.
I pulled out my bag of soap, that's where I kept my needles to sedate myself.
I put the needle up to my wrist and injected it into my flesh, before tossing it into the garbage can .I drag myself back to my bed and waited till I finally fell asleep.
Alex's POV
I watched Ivan head back to his bed before I decided to just sleep on this leather couch, it's actually really comfortable.But I couldn't stop thinking about how sad Ivan seemed, he seems lost or maybe even angry.
I can tell he's hiding something
I tried to blow off my thoughts before
I use my Jacket as a blanket and I closed my eyes to sleep.Ivan's POV
I woke up at 4:30 am which wasn't bad considering my usual sleeping schedule. I rolled out of bed and head to the couch.As I approached the couch, I saw the beautiful red haired girl from last night. Then I remembered, she got mixed up with which bus she was supposed to be on.
I smiled briefly at her sleeping self before sitting on the opposite side of her, I grabbed my phone and decided to f*ck around on there.I was looking at our tour schedule as something underneath the bus tire made us bounce a bit, causing me to drop my phone.
"SH*T" I yelled while angrily picking it up off the floor, a small crack appeared in the corner of the screen.At least it's small but that's still so f*cking annoying.
I roll my eyes before turning the TV on to the sports channel and got interested in that for a bit.
Alex's POV
I slowly opened my eyes to realize I was still on 5FDP'S tour bus, I need to get out of their hair on this next stop.As I was now able to fully open my eyes I saw Ivan, he was intensely focused on the TV .
He looks pretty intimidatingBut his eyes softened once they met mine.
"hey" he smiled, now focused on my awakening "Hi" I smiled back while sitting up a little straighter .It was probably 7am now so it was a good time to be up.
"So you're liking the bus ?"
"I love it, so big " I chuckled
"It really is.
So what's your plan for the airport thing ?" Ivan asked almost in a sadden manner, "well I'll have to call in order to get a ticket but that shouldn't be a problem." I reassure him ."Do you have to go ?"
I was a bit shocked by what he asked that I didn't say anything.
"What I'm asking is, you don't have to be back specifically tonight right ?"
"Oh no no!
I have vacation time but you know, time runs out, and there's nothing we can do about it. " I replied pulling out my phone to avoid his eyes.He seems like he doesn't want me to go ?
But why me ?
I'm nothing special, I don't hate myself or anything but I'm probably too humble about myself."Good.
I gotta get off this f*cking bus soon cause I'm starving and my back is killing me. ""Here, I have really strong hands so I can massage it for you ? "I offer
"You don't mind ?"
"No. Come here" I grabbed his hand and had him sit on the leather chair next to the couch.He sits with his elbows on his knees as I slowly pressed on his back.
"Dude, you're good at this " he complements "thank you, glad I can help " I reply as the driver takes us to another arena.Few minutes later :
Alex's POV
The bus finally came to a stop making Ivan and I stand up.
"WE'RE HERE MATE " called the driver "thanks bro" Ivan says as the door opened revealing a huge crowd.Screaming fans were everywhere, there's so many people here that the police had to supervise.
"I hate this part " I barely heard Ivan say before he turned to me.I was standing right behind him in shock and amazement.
"Take my hand "
"WHAT ?"
"TAKE MY HAND, THIS SH*T IS GONNA BE A MOSH PIT " Ivan yelled over the fans screams .
"IVAN, YOU CAN'T DO THAT " the driver informs, "F*CK IT JAKE " Ivan yelled back before he pulled me off the truck."IVAN" he didn't listen to the driver, instead he held me close as we made our way through the crowd .
"IVAN, WHO IS THAT ?"
"WHO IS SHE ?
NEW GIRLFRIEND, IVAN ?"
Everyone was shouting so many different questions, but Ivan ignored them and went his way.We quickly walked through the crowd until we made it inside .
"Where we going ?" I asked still holding his hand, "to the back, the band's there ." He replied as we walked to the back and up some stairs.
"Wanna meet everyone ?"
"You'd do that !? "
"Since you're here, why not ?"
"Oh Ivan, I don't know how to thank you " I smiled as he gently pulled me to the back stage room."GUYS, GET YOUR *SS OVER HERE " Ivan calls while closing the door.
"K this is Chris, Charlie, Zoltan, and Jeremy " Ivan points to the guys who all stood in front of us."Hi guys, I'm Alex" I said with a smile while shaking their hands.
"Hello Alex "
"Nice to meet you "
"Glad to have you Alex "
"Hi"
They all were actually pretty sweet .After I chatted with them, I headed to the auditorium which happened to be empty.
This place was definitely big but not like the ball arena, I still was taking in the view when Ivan snuck up behind me.
"Like it " I jumped at the unexpected sound of his voice behind me, "God Ivan" I laughed turning to look at his direction."Just wanted to ask if you'd want to watch tonight's show, it's free I promise. "
What 5FDP fan would say no ?
"OMG are you serious ?"
"I'm so f*cking serious right now" he joked waiting for an answer "YES YES YES THANK YOU " I ran up and hugged him for the generous offer.
"Yeah. Tonight right here, front row " he smirks before he slowly left the room.OMG I'm seeing 5FDP live again!!!!
TIME SKIP
The lights went down as a guitar riff started up again, before we knew, Ivan came running out with the "opening song Jekyll and hyde "
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Five Finger Death Punch: Shame Pain
FanfictionEDITING IN PROGRESS Alex Lopez is a young woman from Chicago who takes a flight to Denver Colorado to see her favorite band, but ends up leaving with them instead. World famous metal band, Five Finger Death Punch . On the other hand, Ivan is a stru...