A rich man's possession

chapter 35

[Xavier POV]

"What?",I said while backing away from her. I can't believe what I just heard. "Listen, I feel like I'm not ready to do any of this mother stuff and I'm still in school and I haven't even reached any of my goals. I feel like having this child will just set me back and I don't wanna be held back", Olivia said.

I don't wanna hear this right now. I can't believe that that was her reason for not wanting a child. "Why do you have this tendency to always build up your walls? You act like you're alone in this but realistically you're not. There are other ways that you can manage to have a child and reach your goals but you didn't even bother to think of a plan. You are very stuipid", I said , regretting the last thing I said. "Olivia, I'm sorry. I didn't mean -", I tried to hug her but she pushed me away.

"How dare you of all people call me stuipid. This is coming from you, the addict, the alcoholic, the gangster, the fucking potential murderer. I thought this all though and all I wanna do is reach my goals in life so that I don't end up being like you when you were younger. You wanna know why I built up walls?! , It's because of the amount of people that I brought it down for always gave me an even better reason to re-enforce it!", She said.

"I can't deal with you right now, I'm going away for a while. Don't contact me", she said. "Where do you think you're going?", I asked her. "None of your business".

She started packing a bag with some of her clothes in it. I grabbed onto her wrist just to slow her down a little, "can you just wait and talk to me!",I started to get angry. "Xavier you're hurting me!", She said. She started crying and I finally let her go. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you", I tried to wipe her tears away but she slapped my hand away.

"Leave me alone! Haven't you hurt me enough!",she yelled. I moved away from her. She finished packing up and left our bedroom. I followed after her."Olivia please don't leave. We can talk about this in the morning. It's not safe to leave at this time, I'm sorry for what I said and did to you", I said.

She just looked at me and she had nothing but pain in her eyes. I caused her so much pain. "Please understand that I can't be with you right now. Goodbye Xavier", she said. I didn't even get an 'I love you'.

I don't wanna deal with this pain right now. I went upstairs to go get a shirt on and something warm. It is autumn after all. I got into my car and drove to a nearby bar, one that looked bad too. That way nobody can notice me, I'm really not in the mood for the paparazzi.

I eventually found a shitty bar. Got out of my car and went in. It had a weird cowboy aesthetic. I sat down and ordered a whiskey and some vodka. Unfortunately I got flirted with by the bartender but she clearly doesn't wanna take no for an answer. "Hi again. Come on don't you wanna spend the night with me? I'm really nice and I make good pancakes in the morning", she said again. "I'm not in the mood to sleep with you and plus I have a girlfriend", I replied. "I doubt you have a girlfriend. No man with a girlfriend would be drinking this much", she said.

"Just give me more alcohol so that I can deal with my internal problems",I said with a stern voice. I should have just lied and said I was gay but I'm way to stuipid to say that. She poured me my sixth shot and I downed it as quickly as I could. "How much is the whole bottle of Jack Daniel's", I asked. "We can't sell it to you that way sir", she said. Fucking bitch. "Fine, I would like to pay for my drinks now". "Don't be so sour sweetheart. Just stay here with me", I got up, paid and left.

I grabbed my phone and called my brother when I got into the car."Hello?", He said. "Come pick me up, I'm at a weird cowboy bar and I think the women in this bar will take advantage of me. She looks like the       'I'll do you in the ass', type of chick and honestly I don't want her in my ass", I slurred. "So... Would you let Olivia in your ass or what?, Not this person trying to be funny with me. "Axel! Stop it with the ass questions. Now please come pick me up. I wanna cry and not feel like I'm gonna get molested by a bartender!",I said.

"I'm on my way. Get in your car",he said. I got into my car and waited for my brother. He's the best.

He finally arrived after 20 minutes, got into the car and drove me home.  Most of the car ride consisted of just stopping because I thought I was gonna vomit all the time. "What happened to Olivia?", He asked. I started crying. "We got into a fight and I hurt her. It wasn't on purpose, but I just got so angry. Axel I called her stuipid and she cried. She left and I don't know where she is"I replied. We got to my place and he gave me a hug.

"Listen,I know you. Give her time and I promise she will come back to you at her own time. What was the fight about?". "She doesn't want our child. She's pregnant and I know it's her body but I just feel like I'm ready to settle down and have a family. I've been lonely for so long and I just want a family".