A rich man's possession

chapter 34

[Olivia POV]

We were finally getting out of the hospital and I am relieved at the fact that I can go home and sleep in my own bed. "We need to go to the front and sign some papers", Xavier said. I just nodded my head and walked to the front desk. He signed his papers first and I followed after. "I hope your stay was pleasant", the nurse at the front desk said. "It was actually lovely. Thank you for taking care of us", I replied. We finally left the hospital and Xavier put our bags in the trunk.

It's really dark and cold out here. Can't believe we had to leave at this time but yet again I just wanted to avoid the morning sickness. "So when is Amber getting out of here?", He asked me. "She's getting out in the next two days and don't worry her partner will pick her up",I replied.

We got into the car and we turned on the radio. I didn't wanna talk but I also don't want an awkward silence in the car.

We got home in a few minutes and I got out of the car and took our bags. "I can deal with the bags, don't worry", he said giving me a sweet smile. He followed me upstairs and I started putting our dirty clothes in the laundry bin and packing the rest. "What would you like for dinner?",he asked me. "I honestly want a pizza right now. One with pineapples, I really want a pineapple", I said. "Okay then I'll go and place an order. Please rest a bit, I know you've been doing that for days but you look so tired", he said. I walked up to him and gave him a kiss on the forehead. "I promise I'll rest when we are done eating and taking a shower". "I like the fact that you're so small that every time you wanna kiss me I have to bow down to you", he said while laughing himself out of the room. He's dumb. I like dumb.

I put our cases away and went downstairs to clean out the fridge. We have been gone for a while. I think I'm doing all of these things just to keep my mind off of this child that I'm carrying.

The cucumber is rotten and the lettuce. I wanted to make a salad and now I need to buy some groceries. I never thought that this would be my mindset at this age. Wow I'm 20 and I'm more scared about not having groceries then my financial problems. I have financial problems too. Fuck.

What am I gonna do now? I'm having a kid, I'm not married and I didn't even graduate from school. Why do I feel like my life is over?

"Pizza is here! Come get it while it's hot", he yelled from another room. I wiped my tears and went to the living room. I sat down next to him and he wrapped me up in a blanket. He picked a show and it sucked but I could sit through it, the pizza was good too. I really loved the pizza.

"This show is bad. Why haven't you said anything about it?",he asked me. "I thought you liked it so I just tolerated it for you and plus maybe it gets better".

I'm just trying to be positive even if it's about a dumb show. "Goodnight", I said out of the blue. "Ow, okay. Goodnight. I love you",he said. "I love you more sweetheart", I replied back to him.

I went upstairs and got into the shower just to cry a bit and wash up too. I don't wanna smell like a hospital anymore and just to comfort myself I did my hair too. I was most likely in the shower for longer than I thought because when I got out of there Xavier was in bed and he was on my side too, waiting for me. I went into the walk in closet and took out something to wear. I put on my underwear and I looked into the mirror.

I touched my stomach and just kept on looking at it. 'Am I ready to have a child?', I asked myself. I don't know. I don't think I wanna have a child. I was so deep into my thoughts I didn't even notice the giant behind me. He hunched he back and placed his head on the crook of my neck and he touched my stomach. "What's wrong?", He said. "Your side of the bed is still cold and I miss holding you in our bed". I kept quiet. I didn't know what to say.

"I understand if you don't wanna talk but I'm gonna continue talking. I like this. Looking at you and holding you like this is amazing but you know what is even more amazing?, The life you are carrying right now. I never thought this would happen to me and now that it did I feel happy and excited. I'm gonna be a dad and one day maybe a husband. You look beautiful and I love you. I wanna be here for you. I can't wait to meet my child. I really want a daughter, just so that I can have tea with someone that isn't you for a change. Not that I don't like having tea with you but I want a different pace", he said.

He gave me a small hug and a kiss on the cheek. He is so loving. I really do love him.

"Xavier... I don't want this child".