𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔,, 𝗐𝗋𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗉𝗈𝖾𝗍𝗋𝗒 𝖽𝗎𝗆𝗉

my fears

honey kissed regrets. 

solemn winds of the night that whisper discretely in my ear.

 beautifully hypnotizing and deadly. 

If I look down from a tall building's view.

would I be scared of the world beneath me 

or would I be too amazed by its beauty. 

would I love it so much that I'd jump? 

would I want to join the stars below me. 

or would I rather stay at the top 

as I gaze over the buzzing life around me 

while I stay stuck in time, 

my fears rotting my soul away solemnly.

sometimes I wonder if the air is actually poison that's killing us slowly.

 uncontrollably ingesting it every day.

poison suffocating our life and soul making it fester and fade away to candy skies above. 

distorted reflections I can never call me

open my mouth, another voice speaks

walk around, known for only one thing

would I disappear into the crowd just like that?

my regrets trap me in a festering coffin

close it and I feel the shortage of air

gasp for what isn't there

my fighting spirit withered away

surrendering to the everlasting dark I'd see even in my abrupt end

will my last memory be of simulated darkness

or will it be giving into my fears?

a/n: probably my most personal poem. it talks abt a bunch of my fears. fear of heights, fear of dying slowly, fear of losing myself, fear of being forgotten, fear of being buried alive and fear of darkness. if u ever feel something similar, ur not alone and if u want my dm's are open. 

wish u all a good everything. stay safe my angels <333