dear diary,
this is fucking stupid, but i had nothing else to put my feelings in. i love eddie, but i just can't stand the emotions that i feel around him. i don't know how to do this. i've never felt these emotions towards anyone, not even my parents.
don't get me wrong, my parents are awesome sometimes, but i don't love them like i've loved eddie for so long. he means the world to me and i love the way i feel around him, it's just gone down hill from the words that i said.
i've been so down lately. i miss our cuddles, our hugs, our hangouts whether it's with the rest of the losers, with my cousin and his friends, or if it's just us, i miss our kisses and late night conversations, i miss everything.
it sucks that because of me, he moved back to maine and i don't think he loves me anymore. i've fucked everything up, just like i do everything else.
it hurts so bad that it might not be the same. it hurts that we might not be together anymore. we might break up.
it hurts that i'm scared of him leaving, that he might find someone better. cuz i know i'm not enough for him. i can feel it in your moms vagina.
just so that no one finds this, i'm burning this after i'm done.
i fucking love eddie kaspbrak with everything in me.
-richie trashmouth tozier
this is just basically a filler cuz i haven't had motivation to write lately. anyway hope you enjoyed if you want more journal entries lemme know.
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