Melancholy

Alexithymia

The revenett sat beside taehyung and watched him sleep, until it was time for him to leave.

He drove to a bar that's not too far away from his house and in less than ten minutes he had arrived.

After parking his car at the parking lot, he walked into the bar and headed straight to the counter.

"Long time no see Jk! Would you like the usual?!" The bartender asked Jungkook, as the revenett takes his seat on one of the chairs.

"Yeah just keep them coming" the revenett said to the bartender who Immediately went to do as told.

"You look so tensed and bothered! Do you want to talk about it?, Well that's if you want to?!" The bartender asks carefully in order not to offend the revenett.

"No I don't, now don't bother me for the rest of the night with your pointless interrogations" Jungkook said as he drank the first shot in one go and gestured for another.

He was about to drink the fifth shot when namjoon sat down beside him and tilted his head.

"Hey bro what's up with you? Why'd you ask to meet?" Namjoon questioned as he observed his cousin closely.

"Hey hyung" Jungkook said as he took another shot.

"What would you like to have sir?" The bartender asked namjoon.

"Just bring me the usual" Namjoon said to the bartender with a small smile on his face.

"Sure" the bartender said and with that namjoon turned to face his cousin again.

"Jk what's bothering you?"namjoon asked Jungkook with concern.

"I honestly don't know what's happening to me hyung!" Jungkook says sighing as he rubs his forehead with his palm.

"Care to explain?" Namjoon questions further.

" See hyung" Jungkook starts with a sigh.

"There's this guy I've been seeing, he's the most beautiful boy I've ever set my eyes on....." Jungkook says looking at namjoon to see if he's paying attention to what he's saying and then continued.

"And we've been dating for about three months, but I realized he doesn't like me as much as I like him, which is very frustrating......so I began hurting him and treating him like trash. I've been doing that for quite some time, ju..just to.....you know, teach him a lesson and show him how hurt I feel.....but all of a sudden hyung I just stopped. I stopped hurting him, I can't just see him hurt, I want to break things off and let him go but I just can't, I don't know why he's words have started to hurt me so badly, cause before they didn't and i....I don't even know why........but what I know for sure is.....I have no idea what's happening, I have no idea what I want hyung and it's frustrating." The revenett tried pouring his emotions down into words but ended up confusing himself more.

As he spoke namjoon just listened to him carefully without interrupting. He observed jungkook's face and body language as he spoke, he paid attention to his every expression and paid attention to his eyes when ever they made eye contact no matter how short it was.

"Are you done talking?" Namjoon asked in a calm voice as Jungkook took another shot.

The revenett nodded his head gently and then gulped another shot.

"You're falling in love Jeon! That's if you haven't already" Namjoon said still observing Jungkook.

"Haha you're so funny hyung!" Jungkook exclaimed sarcastically.

"I'm serious" namjoon said

"But that's impossible hyung, how can you say that?" Jungkook asked staring at his hyung.