Melancholy

Strange Attraction

TAE'S POV:

Days have turned into weeks and with each passing day I get drawn towards him for some unknown reason.

Jungkook has been different ever since namjoon hyung came. It's like he doesn't even live here anymore and it annoys me.

I hardly ever see him around lately and It bothers me alot and even when he's around he's so quiet. I know it sounds weird but I've actually gotten use to him always being around and pampering me and these days it feels like he's deliberately avoiding me.

My leg has been healing properly and I've been able to walk around without the help of the crutches, but doctor Charles had adviced I don't put too much pressure on the leg.

Each time he's around after the usual check up, when he doesn't have much work to go back to, he stays and we talk for what seems like hours.

Most of our topics would revolve around jungkook and each time I learnt a new thing about him, I'd often wander why he did what he did.

The painting of him Charles made in my head is way more different from the jungkook I first encountered and this bordered me alot but I don't know why. Maybe I need some sort of closure from him, an explanation even, but each time I try to talk, he always dashes out of the house with an excuse.

These days he has become more and more attractive, if that even makes sense and I would usually find myself staring at him.

It's been so long since he even touched me and I kind of miss it. I can't believe what am about to say but I often imagine his arms around me.

The nightmares are the only memories of our physical contacts and they don't seem like nightmares anymore. Instead of waking up with screams and tears of pain and anger, I wake up aroused and needy.

Sometimes it feels like my body and mind calls for him but my pride and self-esteem or what's left of it wouldn't let me.

How can I be attracted to my tormentor?! How can I miss the torture and pain?!

Sometimes I feel like if he doesn't touch me I would die, especially when his around and looking so gorgeous but he's hardly ever around these days.

When he avoids me, I just want to go and confront him and demand explanations for his behaviour but that'd just make me look like some needy girlfriend.

A few days ago he came back home and gave me a shopping bag that had a Samsung S21 in it and to say I was surprised would be an understatement.

Flashback:

I was finishing a painting I had started working on for 3days now, when I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

"Come in" I said loud enough for the person at the other end to hear me and as expected jungkook walked in with a shopping bag in hand.

"Hi, how are you?" Was the first thing he said as he made his way towards the bed.

"I'm as good as I can be" I said as i turned away from my painting and faced him completely.

Jungkook hardly ever comes into my room these days and when he does, it's to either check up on me or tell me food's ready and even then he doesn't enter the room, he only stays by the door. So seeing him sitting nervously on the bed, I knew something was up.

"Are you hungr-" he wanted to ask the usual questions but I cut him off.

"No I'm not! Why are you here and what's in the bag?!" I asked with my eyes fixed on the bag.