Translator || Jung Hoseok Fanfic

Chapter 22

"Are you okay?" Hoseok asked me as he helped me up from the floor.

My body felt light but my legs were weak.

"I'm good." I said as I limped over to my pants.

I put on my pants and tried to exit the bathroom but it was so uncomfortable.

Hoseok helped me to the bed and set me down on the right side.

"Do you wanna lay here for a few minutes?" Hoseok asked as he crouched down to my face.

I nodded and placed my head on the pillow. I sighed with relief.  I feel much better besides the uncomfort in my cooch.

Hoseok walked to the other side and laid next to me.

"I'll lay with you till you feel better." He said folding his hands on his stomach and looking around the room.

I wondered why he felt so comfortable around me, how it was so easy for him to ask me to do this stuff.

"Have you done this before?" I asked curious for his answer.

"Done what before?" He asked turning his head to look at me.

"Friends with benefits, casual hook ups, basically whatever we doing."I said .

He turned to look at the ceiling.

"I'm obviously not a virgin but I've never 'casually' slept with people."

I was a but confused then, how was he so comfortable with doing this with me?

"Girlfriends?" I asked wanting to know more.

"Shit." He chuckled." Girlfriends... a few." He said looking at me.

"I need more detail than a few." I scoffed .

"Okay more than I can count on my hands but I'm not giving you an exact amount. I lost my virginity at 19. She was beautiful, long black hair , amazing body and extremely kind. I just debuted,  she was still in training and we were in love and one thing led to another." He said and looked like he was reminiscing about her.

I felt... jealous? I didn't like that he spoke so nicely about her. I didn't like that he still smiles when he thinks about her.

"Oh that's sweet." I said without emotion mimicking him looking up at the ceiling.

"And you? Have you done this type of thing before ? Or did you only do it with your boyfriends?" He sounded a bit off .

"Well ,I've had 3 boyfriends. All of them were long term. Didn't really work out with any of them, obviously. I only had sex with one of them." I said fidgeting with my fingers thinking about Mark that was literally a few rooms away.

Hoseok pointed to the door, and I looked at him thinking of what he was implying.

"Mark?" He asked

I resumed my staring at the ceiling.

"Yeah . He was the only one I was comfortable enough to do it with he was very caring and affectionate..." I trailed off not wanting to mention anything further from that.

I tried to hold my breath as I count feel tears welling up in my eyes. I tried to control my emotions as best I could.

I took a deep breath feel as if my chest was heavy.

He lifted my head , making me lay my head on his arm . He turned me over putting my head between his chest and his chin. His one arm rubbing my upper back and the other patting my head.

I didn't cry . I felt at ease with him , I released a sigh and wrapped my free arm around him waist.

I wanted to stay in his warm arms. Breathing a whiff of his cologne everytime I inhale. Hearing his steady heartbeat. Myself relaxing in his arms and we hold each other but I couldn't.

I pulled away and tapped his forearm. I placed a thin smile on my face as I didn't want it to end but it had to.

I laid on my back , closing my eyes.

I can not allow myself to have feelings for him. I can not allow myself to feel the feelings that want to come out . I don't want to be hurt again.

The door swung open.

Mark stood there , his eyes fixated on the bed and making eye contact with me. A smile was put on his face .

"Babe , can I talk to you?" He said his words slurring over each other.

"No , you're drunk and don't call me babe." I said sitting up from the bed , upset that he would even think I wanted to talk to him.

"I promise I just want to talk. I just miss you so much , I miss talking to you , I miss holding your hand , I miss you're cuddles I miss your voice, " his voice cracked as tears were rolling down his face as he frantically tried to wipe it away. " I just-, I , I just want to talk. Okay?"

He looked at me . I was in shock I couldn't believe he would miss me after everything his done .

I got up and walked out the door . I took his forearm in my hand and closed the bedroom door slightly just in case something happens.

He stood on one side of the passage and I stood on the other side.

"Talk." I said sternly.

He inhaled deeply before trying to pull himself together.

"Y/n. I can't tell you how much I miss you. I miss everything about you. Your smile, your sad face, your knitted brows whenever you focus on something. I would do anything to get you back Y/n. " He lean his head back as tears rolled down the sides of his face.

"Why ? Why did you cheat on me?" I needed to know now.  I've been wondering why he did it and now that he was there , I had to ask him.

He bowed his head , I watched as the tears fell out his eyes , waiting for his answer.

"Is it something I did or said? I just don't understand. Why would you do that to me? Why would you hurt me like that? I can't keep wondering what made you do it . I just ... can't." I said as I started crying but still keeping the stern look on my face.

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