Emotionless Confessions (Todobaku)

Authors note

Hello! Bonjour! Hallo! Wow, it's been more than a year. I'm so so sorry for not updating this story in a whole year. So much has happened in my life it's just been a rollercoaster really. Before I start my personal rant I want to say that, yes, I will continue and finish this story. When I took a break I was already sure I would come back to this story eventually to finish it. I've started a new book about 2 weeks ago and I finished it. It was a kind of warm-up to continue this story. My writing style has changed a lot but I hope that won't be too much of a problem for you guys in upcoming chapters.

Okay now for my whole one year break story. You don't have to read this if you don't want to but I'd still appreciate it if you did.

So the last year has been a rollercoaster. I took a break from this story because I got sent to a clinic for my autism and mental problems. It was a big change for me cause I've never been in a clinic before. I still live in this clinic but I've had a lot of ups and downs. Some mental stuff happened but I won't go into much detail because I don't want to trigger anyone, but let's just say it's been a lot. And I'm still going through a lot of stuff. My time here at the clinic is almost over and everyone is very busy looking for a new place where they can help me with my depressive thoughts and sh.

I had a girlfriend who I've been dating for two years when I started this story. I was ready to travel across the ocean to meet her and finally propose to her, but we broke up before I could do that. That was a big hit on my mental health and it also kept me away from this story. In the meantime I've struggled with my sexuality and attraction towards people. I've dated and been engaged to a guy for almost 7 months, but it just didn't work out between us. I've also come to realize that my personal preference goes towards women. What a shocker. And I'm pretty sure I'm ace. Another shocker. I guess I've always known this but haven't really accepted it because I thought its 'not normal' and 'something must be wrong with me'. But I'm starting to realize that it's okay to be myself, love who I want and feel attracted to whoever I want, Even if the sexual attraction isn't there. That's just who I am. It's pretty weird for me to think that way when I'm literally writing a gay fanfiction. Weird right?

Anyway, I don't want to ramble too much about my life so I'm keeping it short. I hope people still read this story and enjoy it just like before. And if I ever take a break again just know I WILL come back and I WILL finish this story.

XXX Mika